Journal de la vie extraordinaire

i am not supposed to be blogging now but i cant help it i need to release something. today i laughed a lot and i thought that its going to be a fine day.but eventually, it was the baddest day i have ever encounter. somehow,i knew a fact.a fact that totally changes my mood,my mind,my condition. i need to cry.really seriously.but i cant,and i have a breathing problem now.i am really downed by the fact. and i didnt even have the mood to study.and why shd i know it now why not after my exam? i am straining my tears. I CANT CHANGE THE FACT THAT HE HAS A LADY.
i am getting a lung cancer soon. and oh shit i am failing my chinese

to monkeyman : since you have your lady by your side, i wouldnt mind giving you up. i shall move on. -_- i cant bluff this happiness all along.its a heavy burden for me.and one last message from me, dont hurt her,like how you hurted me.

to readers : sorry if you don't like this post but i cant pretend to be happy anymore.i've had enough.so,be considerate.

play with the rain.
so no one will know that you are actually crying.
because the rain is the only friend that will cry with you
no point preventing it with an umbrella