yoyo gogo!

everyoneeeee!!!!!!!!!

HAPPYHALLOWEEN :]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]

yo hola people i am currently painting my nails pink colourr..
but how abt the ehm-ehm teacher oh shit!
huh who cares??!
i mean, its school holiday okay and, HELLO?!
who wanna care abt the fcking school rules?
huh please dont distract me holiday please. its not healthy.
whatever you want to say woman,i am damn pissed by you.
'dont try to test my patience huh i tell you' she said that
degh, who want to test your patience by the way? i think you are impatient yourselves.
& i am not going to care abt whatever bloody hell she's going to say.
the most i quit. that's it. end of the story.
maybe i shd test your patience some other time.

i went to the lions home just now :DD
the old ppl there were so cute and i felt so pity for them.
some of them are poor and some of them even, homeless.
so sad.
now i know how fortunate i have been.
i shd respect people except for someone. heeheee.
i talked to a grandma. she's damn skinny
if i didnt hear wrongly, she stayed there for 55 years?!
my god and she was so cute lah.
she touched my hand and cheeks and said something that i didnt understand ;]]]
she reminds me of my grandfather that has gone.
he also liked to touch my hand and cheeks saying that ima good girl.
i think of him agn. and ima so sad. he took care of me when i was young. but now he has gone.
im so sad. xtremely sad ;[[[[[[
he always sing songs for me and played with me gosh grandpa i miss you so muchh. love.

i've got one more grandpa with me around and he's as great as the other one.
he loves me alot and always gimme money heeeeheeeee :))
he is a great man. he survived his life although he is an orphanage.
im so proud of my grand-s.
without them there will be no candies in this world.
i mean is this candies lah.candies sutanto. not the tang guo.heehee
okay,cut the story.

i want to sleep early today. yes i feel like
this is abt 8pm and i am yawning thousand times alrd.
omg i am listening to th song Kiss Kiss damn nice man.
so sexy and jumpy.heehee

you know something?!
i dont feel like going back to indo nowadays leh
i prefer to stay at singapore
i can work i can surf the net.
its weird,i dont usually feel this way.
i will always get vry excited when i am going back.
mayb bcz what happened recently.yeah maybe.
but i know i can deal with it.
it will be over soon lah huh.

okay okay i am stopping hereee :)
shd continue with my storybook th Girls on Film-The A-List Novel
omg i live this novel man.!
oh shit havent finish painting my nails. ciao!

my heart will go on

ohmygosh human! i am in love love love with this song!

My Heart will Go On - Celine Dion

Every night in my dreams
I see you, I feel you
That is how I know you go on
Far across the distance and spaces between us
You have come to show you go on

Near far wherever you are
I believe that the heart does go on
Once more you open the door
And you're here in my heart
And my heart will go on and on

Love can touch us one time and last for a lifetime
And never let go till we're gone
Love was when I loved you
One true time I hold you
In my life we'll always go on

Near far wherever you are
I believe that the heart does go on
Once more you open the door
And you're here in my heart
And my heart will go on and on

You're here, there's nothing I fear
And I know that my heart will go on
We'll stay forever this way
You are safe in my heart
And my heart will go on and on

dammit its crying mellow song like someone says,'' you jump,i jump!''
damn romantic man but the movie damn horny lah huh.
yuck but noel will like it lah huh, i believe.

medan i miss you

this is something ripped from friendster. medan people are like this. i really think so man.

-You carry handphone to pasar {market] and call your neighbour "kha me lai la, kia jite kangkung ane phi lo" (come faster,today vegetables more cheaper wor..)
-You manage to buy expensive stuff to show you are rich.
-You think durian is your life.
-You take a becak just go to "nia angpau"..(take red pocket)
-You send your kids to US just for pride..
- You go to a park and drink 'liangteh'in stead of kue ci seng(fruit ice).
-You travel Medan-Penang more than 3times a month.
-You mix pisang(banana) and huan cu (ubi) at the sametime and you call it kolak.(mixture of banana and huan cu)
-You have more credit cards than your namecard.
-You wish to have a car with "platmerah"(its new man oh) forever.
- You call your friends in jakarta "pasia khiau seng"(jakarta i dont know wwhat)
-Your stomach growls when you don't eat"Kalimantan Asek e toktok" for a day.(haha i miss that tok tok omg love it)
-You talk even your neighbour were sleep.
-Y ou eat kue tiau goreng(fried kwe tiao) in themorning
- You preferChristian Dior orYSL than red A or Mirabella.(indo's brand)
-Y ou know Pak Tungtung more than greatpolitician.(pak tungtung i love his story miss that man)
-You carry a 10 Kilos of kue Bika Ambon (i miss you too bika acai)whenever you travel to jakarta .
-You listen to "Wang Cing Nien" songeven you prefer "Teng Lie Cin". (mommy loves them both)
-You are willing to travel 25 miles to buy a thing that you think will Rp. 25Cheaper. (yes i did that)
-Y ou are "Dreaming of a winter and snowing chinese new year"(who said)
-You are very good at avoiding policeofficer. (ohyes i learned tht from mommy)
-Y ou have ever successfullyputRRp.10.000 in yourpasport topass the immigration officer.(sorry its not what i did)
-You have ever successfully put envelope in your suitcase to pass acustoms offcer.(i didnt know they are so tricky?)
-You have extra pocket to put USD and pin it with peniti (i forget what it means.you know the thing you use for the badge to hang?yes that one)when you go abroad.
-You tight a pita(ribbon) to your kopor as asign.( my grandfather always does that.pink colour somemore)
-Y ou have ever wear a sandal jepit to shopping center.(everybody does lah huh)
-You have ever compare naik taxi ornaik becak mesin(its three wheel vehicle) lebih murah.
-You do your shopping in Pasar Ramai.(market lah huh)
-You bring your whole family or even neighbour to a wedding party.(not so gross degh)
-You know exactly how many people living in the same street with you.( no i dont)
-You have ever eaten sate padang in Jln. Kalimantan.(of course lah man love it too)
- The first thing that comes to mindwhen hearing the word " Jakarta "is "Juak(hot)"
-You use the terms "Ai khi ta lok(where you wanna go)? Aikhi ciak hong(i wanna eat air?)", "Ciak pa bo kang co(eat already got nothing to do)","ce ai anna bo ka si, bo tua bose(omg my father loves to use that sentence. this people no manners huh. no big no small. what??)",as a basis term.
-Your daily conversation may include your neighbours.(maybe some OKBs)
- If your neighbour buy one, you willbuy two.( my old neighbour did that)
-You use bang hio(this one i not sure) more than baygon(mosquito killer) inyour house.
-You have at least 1 pair of Bakiak inyour house.
-You always compare your kids class ranking with another: "Lu e kia gia tekui mia(what is ur child's position?)? Wa e kia gia te it mia lo(my child got first)".[ciak pa sio eng(haha yes.i agree)]
-You always ask your friend: "lu kuikai kia liau?(how many children you have?)


haha damn fun lah i remembered every single thing i used to do. and i miss that rly.NOW I WANNA GO BACK MEDAN.omg medan i love you..

when someone gone crazy and mad

hola people yoyo haha i dont know today i feel quite well. went to choir in th afternoon. planned something larr. hehe :] went home earlier. cz i went to doctor. i felt quite dizzy. ah. then met up with telissa and sione deah. sione went home first. tellisa and i went to orchard and we bought something. haha not to say what it is. cz its quite embarrassing if i publish it here. :] we went around taka taka then ate at KFC erm-so-delicious. aiyo

I WANT TO ORANGY ADIDAS OMG LOVE.

didnt buy in th end cz i am broke. i am fucking broke. shit somebody donate me money. i'd love to receive. some richass person be kind please. i will give you my goat milk soap sample if you donate me money :) haha if telissa's reading ths shell be grossed out. haha. okay stop th crap sandies cutanto. i dont know why. i love to reverse people's name. maybe its bcz i reversed hula & co become cula & ho. haha damn funny lah aiyo i laughed alot alot.

olivia is going back to jambi tmr. :((( i feel like smacking her face cz she promised to accompany me until 6th of november. so many people didnt keep their promise. anita also. she didnt keep her promise. i feel like smacking them both. nvm. aiyoyaaa i want to eat THAI FOOD now i dunno why why and why. but too bah lah huh. i cant afford it now lah huh. i am saving my money for the omg-so-expensive-but-nice adidas shoes and topshop shoes lah huh. shit lah huh. this is what happen to people like me needing money lah huh. maybe i was too spendthrift lah huh. damn it lah huh. feel like smacking anybody's face lah huh.

hehe i tell you something. i feel so happy now. somebody came back from indo. i dont know why also. just saw tht person just now or ytd? dont ask me i dont know. ask candies. :) i think i am crazy now lah huh. you know why? i am craving for so many things lah huh. and everything needs money lah huh. aiyo shit lah huh. how i wish everything were FREE omg GRATIS shit MIAN FEI omg MIEN LUI omg i can just grab anything i want shit shit i am dreamy now.

aiyo i am currently chatting with two monkeys and they are talking crap lah huh. i cant connect with them at all. hihi. they were talking A i answered them B. haha damn funny you shd see our conv. i am damn bored. Xtremely bored. i want to watch movies. any movies also can. but i dont want the Parental Guidance one. i want the Mature 18 or Rocking 21. forever 21 lah aiyoo.

tmr i am going to haha LIONS HOME. haha. i wonder why not TIGERS HOME. at least tiger is less scary than lion right. lion is the king of jungle while hehe tiger dont know leh. maybe the king of the bathroom. haha i dont know what to say. i dont know what to do. you better off that way eyehhhhhhh. oh oh shit i am talking from nonsense to crap but i am sure you are too curious you cant stop reading right haha i guessed that. shit lah i havent bathe bathe bathe. i am damn smelly yuck anybody dont come near me. dangerous lah you come near me you can faint straight away.haha oki poki then.i am going to bathe. with the goat milk soap. omg shit lah damn nice yoohoooooooo goat milk soapppppp!!! here i comeeee!!! :)

ps: telissa man, dont be grossed out!
pps: tandy meo i miss you alot.

these two days

I was encountering some boredom fever thank god he sent me 2 sweet angels to accompany me. dione seah and agnes sutrisno. hehe dione accompanied me ytd and today was agnes. i had a great day with dione ytd. we went to the gym HAHA and we saw a guy HAHA omgomg the way he did his warm up omg damn funny lah like pregnant woman liddat.omg damn funny we kept on laughing at him. then then we went to novena cz dione was craving for donuts. omg dione seah! then we went there but unfortunately,they closed.we were complaining said that we flied there just to get the donuts. we were told tht toa payoh has one donut stall they just opened 2 days ago. getting a new hope, we flied back to toa payoh and yes we got the donuts and met some annoying people. nvm. we sat down and enjoyed our donuts and took some horrible candies and dione eating donuts pictures. after that we went to library and its closed :(( went to buy sushi finally. ate and went home. you know what?! my day with dione is always full of laughter. we talked abt ms jamie (again) and how we act blur and stupid when we get to work.omg damn funny lah dione. hehe

today went out to orchard with agnes. we watched balls of fury omg damn funny lah i kept on laughing till i dropped my crispy chicken :) :( omg the movie damn damn freaking funny omg i think i laughed the loudest. okay nvm. after that we went to taka. shopped around i bought one stitch shirt and pullandbear shirt. both are cute. i think. went back home and i dont know why today i feel like sleeping early. OH YAH forget! i went to library and borrowed quite number of the a list novel :)))) omg feel so happy. dione will scream lah i tell you.

you now something?! i am currently missing 2e3 so much.omg. mandy melissa dione james mz hs char denise huei min germaine emily ty aiyo all lah all. i dont know why i miss them i feel like crying nowwww. okay maybe tmr i am meeting the choir girls but how abt th rest?! i miss you guys lah. i wanna have one more outing before ima back. can? i wish i could. two months without them. see if i can stand it. the most i call them or online at msn lah. but but i want to see their face listen to their jokes see their laughing faces. omg i rly cry now. even mandy told me not to. cant help it yes i miss them. what mrs peters guessed was totally right. i rly do love that class so much. maybe they are just awesome. i think they are and i rly think so. :(

this next paragraph is going to be about something which maybe a bit boring and annoying. dont read i f you dont feel like it. but don't be curious ohhhhhh..... :)))))

someone. i am sure some of th human out there know who th someone is. he has gone. now he is miles away from me. honestly, i feel quite empty here. i rly do lah. my day is so bored without looking at his online status. remembering those embarrassing yet funny days. HAHA i feel like laughing now. seriously i did try. but as you know, for this matter i always fail. maybe i should just give in lah huh. maybe i shall follow what dione said lah huh. i am tired of all this lah huh. haiya yaya give in lah huh give in lah. yes. give in lah huh. (dont ask me why i put 'lah huh' at the end of the sentences cz i dont know why :))

the break ups

okay i am so sad over the fact that two of my friends broke up with their gf/bf. joshua and anita. joshua said,' omg that girl.she played my heart.' and now i am finding out what happened to anita. okay and now i think i am breaking up with my candyman thinking. honestly,i feel quite empty and sad. but, you're right.what's the point of thinking and loving that jerk/bastard/coward/gay that doesn't deserve it at all? he deserves my slapping more. am i right? i am sure i am. wadeva. now i am trying to get him over. getting myself busy works relatively well. :]] i will tell you what i wished just just yesterday before th fucking slapping incident took place.
i hoped that we can see each other without having to pretend as stranger.
i hoped he can smile at me every morning and send me to school.
i hoped he can give me good night and sweet dream wishes before i go to sleep.
i hoped he can give me good luck wish before i sit for my exam.
i hoped i can chat with him everyday without having him to give fake name.
i hoped i can do webcam with him just like how mel and i do.
i hoped i can sms him whenever i feel bored and lonely
i hoped we can go out at saturday afternoon and enjoy our day together
i hoped we can take photos together and went into the neoprint box.
i hoped he can advise me and encourage me whenever i need them.
i hoped i can receive morning messages/calls/smiles from him
i hoped everything is not just in my dreams.
i hoped everything was true and real.
i hoped i know where he is and what he is doing.
i hoped to receive calls from him and chat for hours.
i hoped i don't get that cold feeling and get the warmth instead.
i hoped i can spill everything to him not anyone else.
i hoped to see his encouraging smiles and touch my head saying that everything will be alright
i hoped he can hug me and calm me down.
i hoped i had him as someone to share my sadness over the splitting of 2e3.
i hoped he never say that oh-so-immoral words.
i hoped i never slapped him before.
i hoped alot.
i hoped just as high as the sky.
but you know, when i fall, its vry painful.
now, you know what?
i am glad that everything is how they are today.
i am glad that what i hoped didnt come true.
cz he is just a jerk.
ohmygod he is a gay. cz he didnt dare to face me. he lied to me. and faked everything. even his identity.
boy, you know what? you are just a piece of b-u-l-l-s-h-i-t,bullshit to me.
and i will never never think abt you any any more.
i will not denied on anything that i've said earlier on.
cz firstly,i am candies. i am not gay like you. i dare to face the reality and i end evry problem to the root of it.
dont leave anything hanging. cz the image on you that you left on yourselves, spoils your impression on me.
and secondly, no matter what, you are part of my life. you made me feel happy before.you made me feel excited before. you made me feel nervous before. you made me feel like ordering tonnes of oxygen tanks before. i appreciate that alot. but too bad, that's pieces of old,torn bad sad memories. you are you now. not more candyman. and i am me now. not more monkeygirl. bye gay boy! and now i welcome TEBs

last of all

tmr is going to be the last time i step into B2-06

tmr is going to be the last time i am an official e3.

tmr is the last day of school

tmr is the last day i hear mandy scream.(mandy please scream)

tmr is the last day im going to hear hock siong's james' muizhen's jokes.

tmr is the last day i hear they bully vincent teo.

tmr is the last day i am sitting at parade square no 11 beside nj and kelvin.

it's gonna be the last.

it's gonna be the end of it.

and i am going to treasure it

cz i believe that th memories aren't just going to stop here.

like what people say,

there's meeting there will be separation.

last day of 2e3?yes.

but the name of 2e3 is forever.where?here.in my heart.

although my heart may stop working some day, it will still be transferred somewhere else where it can be kept save. just save. just nice.

th memories with 2e3 are just unforgettable and precious.

all the ups and downs.all the talls and shorts.all.all of them.

are gift

priceless gift.

im trying not to be sad. i know this is gonna be the end. not the end.but the splitting.

but just see the good side.

we are progressing and we are improving.

we are getting ready to deal with everything that is coming our way.

you guys will always be remembered.

and remember me too!

2e3 oh 2e3 i love you

2e3 omgomg tmr ish th last dayy lahhh im so sad. evrything that we've gone through together makes me feel extremelyyyyyy sad. :[[[[[[[[[ i visited james and hs' blog and they made me rolled my tears.honestly,today seems to be the most suitable day for me to cry.i cried alot today.i cried bcoz of 2e3.i cried bcoz of my dear friends.i cried bcoz of something.and i cried because i am so thankful to god that he gives me such a gd frens accompanying me walking through the path of life. but we are separating soon. so soon that i didnt believe it at all. the poem that hs made was so touchong it really touched my heart and i rly cried. even though i just joined this year,but they rly made me feel inside. i cant describe how sad i am. the idea of splitting was rly not good. and today has been a horrible day. you dont know what happened,do you? how do you feel when a guy scolded your friends and talking as if he wasn't th one in fault and he was the right one.how do you feel when he said that your friend has thick face and scold her back when what she said was true and realistic??how would you feel if he said as if your friend was cheap and whatever it was. i was vry angry with that jerk. in fact, i am. i rly feel like sending him to the grave and let him stay with those ghosts. whatever that person thinks, he is rly immature.and never count tht kind of person as the person you know.he doesnt even worth to be your friend.LOSER. okay lah dont talk abt that jerk cz i am damn pissed.!!!!! and here i am now crying cz mandy typed something. and i will neve eget being an e3.

2E3 D CUTEST CLASS EVA!NVR REGREAT BEING WIF UR!!!!!LUV is lyk a golden thread tat ties the whole 2e3 family 2gether..til the END says:hey guyz...feelind bad now yeah???2mr last dae of sku...last dae of all the E3s being 2gether as a family...joking 2gether laughing as one..bullying teachers lyk we used to...having sum quarrels wif each other...all the screams...tears and joy...it will all soon b ovr within hours..frm now..juz 2 quotes tat i found..why don't we hit restart and pause it at our favorite parts?yeah..y cnt we hit2E3 D CUTEST CLASS EVA!NVR REGREAT BEING WIF UR!!!!!LUV is lyk a golden thread tat ties the whole 2e3 family 2gether..til the END says: restart and pause it at our favorite parts?yeah..y cnt we hit restart or play back and stop at our favorite part..the part where all of us had fun...laughing smiling..wen it's juz all hapiness tat u cn tink of??but too bad..there is no replay button where you cud go back 2 the past to feel wat it was b4...u cn onli go on...
a stranger stabs you infront,a friend stabs you at the back,a boyfriend2E3 D CUTEST CLASS EVA!NVR REGREAT BEING WIF UR!!!!!LUV is lyk a golden thread tat ties the whole 2e3 family 2gether..til the END says: stabs you at the heart,but best friend only pokes each other with a straw.a true friend is sum1 who sees the pain in you,while evryone believes the smile on your face.true friends are hard 2 find,difficult 2 leave and impossible to 4get..probably bcoz we are oreadi each other true frenz..tat's y it's hard 2 leave...
hope tat all of ur wud tink positively and stay in contact..our class may chang2E3 D CUTEST CLASS EVA!NVR REGREAT BEING WIF UR!!!!!LUV is lyk a golden thread tat ties the whole 2e3 family 2gether..til the END says:our teachers may change..our look may change..but our relationship stays the same...good bye to 2E3...

here are some pictures taken

& th memories are not just gonna end this way. :((

count downn

2e32e32e32e232e32e32e3 is LOVE LOVE LOVE

shall start counting down now

happy days with 2e3 left with : 4 im-going-to-enjoy day!

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i am webcamming with tantan huihui chichi ;*

omg people i cant describe how sad i am now! i cant face the reality that 2e3 is splitting so soon and i really cant imagine how my life without them. honestly, i hate streaming. it separates us. it places me in a strange place where i have to adapt and you know, its hard and not easy. rly, i will miss them no matter what. 2e3. this is the omgsorocking class lahhhh! even our class is famous in bullying teacher, but all the fun jokes and laughter are just just memorable. even you cant buy that with money. james tagging sad faces, melissa and mandy cried and huei min's innocent face said," candies, i will miss you nxt year" really make my tears nearly rolled down. once again, i should say, thanks mandy melissa dione hueimin charlene denise james hocksiong muizhen aida lydiana lay nicole minjung pris pavi shahnas. thanks teachers. and thanks 2e3. :((((

todayy i am going blog in this green colour. cz i am feeling green now. people say green means jealousy. really,eh? haha. i am curious abt my lite marks as i didnt go to school on friday so i couldnt see my paper. and all of then didnt seem very please with their result. im warning you, this post is gonna be damn freaking long. maybe longer that MRT, maybe not ^^

now i change mood to this teal colour. you know what? time flies really fast. sometimes i just wish that time may just walk instead of run. one year has nearly gone. my sec 2 life is going to end soon. it's going to be the time when i flashed back the memories throughout the year and reflect it. i have gone through ups and downs with my friends,shared laughter and tears, created problem with teachers and made dirty secrets. i aint going to forget it,of course. in fact, it will be keep save in my heart. 2E3 has been a real rocking class, and beatty has been a great school, although some teachers aren't that great. but still, there's these teachers who will touch your heart and make you love and respect them. they have their own way. that's why they are called teachers. and my friends,well, they are just a great great friends. i cant explain what the word friend really means.but i know that real trus friends are the only one that will be by your side,no matter what. and this kind of people really exists.i am so grateful that these people want to be my friend. my life will be like delilah's without them. plain white t's

OLIVIA ROSELINI: thank you for always being there whenever i need a pair of ear to listen to whatever crap i wanted to say. you always make me laugh by making fun of his name and saying that i have a real bad taste. yeah,eh no. he is an exception. but still, anyway, your jokes really work on me. although sometimes i have mood swing, you will always understand and didn't turn out moody too. you will always comfort me whenever he hurts me and you will scold him bad words and in the end,we will laugh out loud together because of his stupidity and how 'chicken' he was. you lend me your shoulder whenever i need one. thanks honey!

MANDY TEO YI BIN: man ti. that's your nick name right. thanks darling for always being there for me and listen to all my craps. you comfort me whenever i feel sad, understand me well, and always tell me about hot hunks and stuffs, but hey, thanks! those hot hunks stories sometimes make me laugh and you usually will angry and end up hitting me. oka i must admit that you hit hard and painful. although sometimes you will give me black face and have mood swing, or sometimes the other way round, we can go thru it together cz we are good friend! and i can't escape from the reality that i love you! thanks sweety!

MELISSA TAN HUI CHI: mela dela. this girl has alot of nicknames. mela dela banana meow cat and etc...but you are my darling yes cz...everything you've done for me is just great. all the help, all the fun, all the funny faces and stuffs. your companion in msn whenever i am bored and the 'haha hihi' we had. thanks for all darling. you are real great good friend. hoho and also, thanks for the inspiration of shopping. maybe because of you and fishy, i am soo shopaholic now.! thanks for all the hugs and loves, the jokes and EVERYTHING. and and i still dont get why you like to call me pangsai. hehe. pangsai girl. but anyway. just a million thanks to you!

DIONE SEAH YEN TING: dione seah fishy thick eyebrow! thank you also for you darling! honey bunny sweety baby! thanks for all the laughter and silly jokes. being with you,i can laugh until i get stomachache. and you always have great idea how to show attitude to ms jamie. and we will end up laughing so hard. you are a very good friend. thanks also for your act blur response that successfully make me laugh and you tie-your-hair-high-and-retardedly fashion! i really appreciate it! i thought you were very snobbish and arrogant,but i was wrong. you are simply sweet, kind, and great. i cant describe it lah dione. just thank you for everything! muach :)

CHARLENE TEE I MIN: charlene. thank you also to you. you were my first friend in beatty. when nobody cared about my presence, you were the one who came to me and guided me along so that i can adapt to the school faster and better.even after that, you still stay as my good friend. i really can't say much because what you have done for me were so great. thanks for all the kisses-in-th-air and hugs ad smiles you gave me.you are so sweet. and char, i believe you. thanks also for the words of comfort that you told me and praises that you gave. i am really grateful. i cant tell you how much i love you yahh. love love love..

EMILY LIM XIN RONG: em em. thank you for you too. you are great friend of mine. thanks that you went to school with me everyday, listen to my stories that made you 'diaos' alot of time. even though sometimes i angry with you because you were just so impatient and go before i even show up. but anyway thanks for it lah. without you, maybe my morning will be so plain and boring and sleepy. thank lah emily i really really really love you lah. all your complains all your 'walaos',all your 'diaos' make my morning. thank you ah darling. =)))))

ANITA LIE: anita thanks to you too. for the companion in msn. for all the encouraging words and for the jokes. you are real good friends. you always accompany me to midnight even to morning. thanks for th will to read my complains and shares. thanks darling you are great friend since the first time i knew you. thanks for the serious but funny comments and all and all. i feel really honoured to have a friend like you and everyone else.! love love love.

2E3: once an e3 will always be an e3/thanks 2E3 for the fun year and unforgettable incidents. although i joined you only this year, but really, i do enjoy being an e3. thanks e3 lah e3 thanks!!!

choir: haha choir ah choir thanks too yah. thanks for the practices, thanks for the scolding, thanks for the guidance. all practices have made me know more abt singing. thanks yah!

candyman: hey yo,candyman! even though you did nothing for me, just a word thank you for you. thanks for the lesson. you taught me something. you taught me that love isnt that simple. love isnt just something to be made fun of. you taught me not to hope so high. you taught me that reality is just not as beautiful as dream. thanks for all of it. thanks that you have hurt me,so that i will be more stronger. thanks for the 'chicken' you have in you. it tells me that you are not worth to be loved. thanks for the silence and the stares and for giving me a chance to love you, to see you, and to understand that love is not blind. and lastly, you made me understand this sentence. dont love someone that is perfect,but love someone that is imperfect,perfectly.thank you candyman and goodbye!

SOOOOOO i have come to the end of the long story. even if i didnt mention you here, you are still my good great best friend and i love you to bits! haha. (i cant mention you all here. my hand will stop working then!) end here bye !!!

hola people i am back from my enjoyable fun yet tiring trip at Genting Highland-City of Entertainment. i have gone through all the fun and joy plus tiredness too. after all,it was fun! i wanted to post my journey at GH here,but as i am sick now,i am so lazy. yes i am sick.that's why i was absent just now. fever,cough,runny nose,shortness of breath,dizzy,throat infection.everything attacks me at the same time.every breath that i take seems so forceful and everytime i cough my throat and mouth will turn dry and painful. maybe this is the symptoms of i'm-going-to-die-soon people. dont talk about it. btw i miss you guys so much i have been absent from this internet world for practically erm ah 2 weeks. wait i rest first i feel so tired hard to breath.! and i am back. i just puked.shit it tasted so horrible! omg dont think about it.my mom asks me to rest so i guess i will end here today.oh ah and lastly,no more candyman.

OMGoodness by the way i for get to tell you something ah oh uh ih eh!!!!
I SAW GUNAWAN THE I-MARRIED-TWO-TIMES MAN AT TAKASHIMAYA NGEE ANN CITY YTD.HAHA for those who didnt get the chance to see him ahaha kacian deh lu tapi sumpe dia cakepp!

hi everyone today i am going to blog. today was half fun half boring.hehe during the training was like damn sleepy i asked huei min to draw monkey for me,but it looked more like bear than monkey. i went out of the house without telling my guardian HAHA she went around tthe condo and find me. so funny lah.theen actually i wanted to go home but i forgot that i've made an appointment with agnes soo i went to orchard. WHICHEVER WAY YOU LOOK AT ME,I AM HOT. I saw a shirt the sentence so funny haha. omg it was soo fun we went around laughing at everything we saw and i kept on doing funny faces * @-@ * then now i came back soo late alr 8 something now i freaking full causee i ate at es teler then i went home i ate agn coz she kept foods for me so i dont want to hurt her feeling.seeeeeee,im soo nice. oh yeah im going to GENTING HIGHLAND the omg-so-shiok-lah place.hehe so i will be off from tomorrow until wednesday. i am soo going to have fun.yes absolutely!!!!!!!! i will miss you people! SELAMAT HARI RAYA IDUL FITRI.MOHON MAAF LAHIR & BATIN
i need to batheeeeeee

I realized that i have announced before that i am going to let him go. but as you can see, i failed. i am desperate/ or should i say, down? i really feel like thrown to a very deep miles down hole and i am not able to climb up. w*****, even though my friends said billion times that you're not worth, still, you sticked on my mind. like a dried super glue, cant be peeled off. YOU KNOW WHAT? I HATE YOU BUT I LOVE YOU. although i used to think that that sentence is pathetic, i realized ( i cant spelled that. i took 2 minutes to figure out) that i am at that stage now. dione said that, the are many other zillion candys in candyland. dont be fooled by only 1. its quite true. but i am attracted just to that particular one. w*****, tell me! what shall i do? i wonder, if that 4th of august moment i never talked to you, today i will still be an innocent candies. & lastly, i beg you, dont ever show up in front of me anymore.!

OKA PEOPLE I AM GOING TO LET YOU KNOW ONE OF MY DIRTY BIG SECRET. <3>

it was on the 4th of August 2006 when everything began. it happened at around 8:40:31 and ended at 11:17:41 at night. it was friday night i remembered it vry clearly. bcoz the next day i went for choir practice. i am using brown font color bcause it was the one used. it was brown,italic and underlined. meaning he emphasized every word that he typed and mean it. i remembered i ended the conversation with so STUPID reason. i shouldn't do that. I DON'T GIVE A DAMN WHETHER YOU KNOW ABOUT THIS AND WHAT YOU ARE GOING TO TALK ABOUT BECAUSE I FEEL LIKE POSTING THIS. OKA? so, i remembered everything quite specifically.he was warm and friendly. he started the conversation with an 'alo' and ended it with a 'k'.


to you : maybe if you get to read this post you will know straight away that you are the one i am referring.no one else. i was chatting only to one person at that time. so quite clear,eh? because i think this is the time for me to tell you everything. just that i am not that prepared. and for you to know, i have known long time ago that you are not the whatsoever chris person. you are you. i know you'd been lying but it doesnt matter. and it doesnt matter too if you know everything but you pretended that you don't. i know you like to pretend. continue pretending,then! i know you know that. i am sick of looking back at the message log history and flashing back everything. for you to know,everytime i do that,my face will be flooded. so i guess its the time for you to know.in case you have been waiting.

To those people outta there,i know this is not as usual but seriuosly, if you don't like the post just dont read it. oh yeah but im stupid enough to put this reminder at the bottom,so just forget it. pretend that you never read.i dont want to see you reading this post with a pathetic face and saliva dripping from your mouth. its gross oka? so just close one eye.or both

yo! haha i am sooo bored now everybody is doing the MOE field maths testing while i am at home doing nothing just simply stare at my computer. here's something ripped from friendster :)\

1. What is you're biggest dream?
do well in exam
2. What's you're worst fear?
being trap in a deep hole
3. What do you think of when you thinkof being alone?
fear
4. Does blood scare you/make you sick?
yea
5. Do you have morbid thoughts?
excuse me?
6. Do you remember when you lost your innocence?
i dont have that since i'm born
7 . What is the worst trait a person can have?
crue lty
8. Do you know who you are?
i know.the monkeygirl
9. Do you hide who you really are?
sometimes
1 0. Would you die for another person to save their life?
i feel like a heroineeee anddddyooouuu arrreeee mmmmyyyy hheeerrrrooo
11. Do you cry when a disaster happens in the world?
huh depends.if i see pitiful scenes then i will
12. If you could go back and change one thing from the past what would it be?
the answer that i gave him one year ago
13. Do you ever lie to make someone else happy?
yes i do
14. If you could cure one disease what would it be?
lovesickness cause there's no cure for it
15. What do you hate most about yourself?
for being stupid enough and gave the wring answer
16. What do you love most about yourself?
i love my, erm..nothing
17. Do you contemplate life afterdeath?
h uhh?
18. How do you think your karma is doing?
yeah i am trapped in this uncertain love that floats me around
19. If you could live a different life,what would it be?
i wish i could turn back the time
20. Do you believe that dreams or nightmares hold the truth?
sometimes it does
21. Do you think human life is too short?
i cant judge human's life.it depends on how long god wants us to live
22. Do you believe that herbal medicines are just as good as chemical?
maybe.. .yes maybe no
23 . Can music really heal you?
yea when i am really down
24. What person are you most afraid of and why?
ms jamie.the one who always look at me as if i disobey the school rules so much
25 . When are you most happy?
WHEN EXAM FINALLY ENDSSSSSS!!!!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY
DIONE FISHY!!!!!

heee today is dione's bdayy we actually planned something for her but something happened not to mention what and it ruined everything. oka now i am so bored i practically just stare at the swimming pool.omgomg i am thinking of monkey so much i feel like slapping him and ask him to go to mars.actually it's not his fault but i just cant resist. now mela dony jam and hock seng are watching balls of fury while i am here doing nothing with my mind full of the bloody monkeyman.i think i shall stop calling him monkey since monkey is more handsome and muscular than he is. so now you know that the monkeyman is ugly and not muscular haha. i felt very tired now i love the mushroom i bought at j8 just now. and i am acting like exam is over. i still have one more paper to go but i keep telling everybody that i've finished my exam.my room is in a totally messy condition and it needs to be neaten.i am doing so erm,probably after my exam really over. actually i can do it now but i am severely tired i feel like suddenly my muscles stop working. can i enjoy some pleasure for awhile? oka i think i blogged too much i shall stop. but be4 that i want to tell someone. oh i think i shan't do that nvm i will talked to the person personally. bye everyone i love you!

hiiiiiii i so damn long never post my blog and i miss it so much.and you also of course,readers! just now i had my lit paper and it was so rushy i didnt have enough time to write. i hope ms tan will be knder to give me more marks.huh then after that i went to orchard with tantan.we were like siao dingdong walked here and there wanted to go every shop. in the end we went to zara i bought the little miss greedy shirt and she bought the cute rat shirt.then we went to m phosis she kept on saying she wanted the ahma black tote haha but its so exxxxxx then in the end she said , haiya not nice lah dont want.' we bought the transparent tote the exactly the same one so nice i like it so much. okay now im broke i need to save money mommy and daddy coming i soooo happy.their arrival means anotherr trips of shopping.haha im so addicted to shopping now i dunno why.