Journal de la vie extraordinaire

hello people anita is coming over so im happy now.
she comes cz i complained that im all over emo agn.
so she will b here to confide me. such a gd friend huh.
HAHA i guess so.

HOHO i got mommy's card back and she says i an shop.
just that i must control the amount.
she is back to the gd side.
she used to annoy me so much HAHA thats what all mommys behave like.
sometimes that can be your gd friends but they can be a dictator too.
(only if their monthly guest comes HAHA)

huh you know just now when i was having the fcking amaths tuition,
suddenly i feel so sad and i feel like commiting suicide HAHA
i dont know why also but yeah you know its cz of someone.
this kind of disease only can be recovered by shopping damnhell alot.

i read a book discussing abt where people goes after they die.
its really scary and i feel so afraid to die.
i mean you will go to hell and face whatever punishments given.
thats what they say,

if we conducted guilts during our lifetime, all the kindof ghosts will punished us.
isnt what we do and what happen was fated?
isnt God the one who control it all?
so he is the one planning that we will do some guilt?
so there is this word 'destiny'?

like,
son, you are destined to be in jail.
HAHA i heard someone says that
this world is a stage and the people are merely the player.

so who is the scenario writer?
it must be God, isnt it?
so indirectly saying, God destined us to do sin, make decision and all.
yeah if we are scientifically saying,
the main brain asks ask to do all, but when we come to religious?
everything is connected to God

if he taught us not to conduct guilt?
then why people are saying, this is planned by God

i rly dont understand this concept.
and i also rly dont know why i am talking abt this.
can somebody just tell me?
Beatles.

everything i do reminds me of you