SEE YOURSELF IN THE MIRROR BEFORE YOU JUDGE SOMEONE

You know, sometimes i feel like a loser.
i dont know why. is it the way ppl treat me, or am i really a loser?
& i dont deserve to have a little bit of appreciation? why?
some people treat me the way they shouldn't.
don't come and ask me if you are the one, cz you should know.
you are human too, and you know what to do and what not to.

Dasar munafik!
since i'm such a loser in your eyes, why bother to talk to me?
we don't even see each other and you are like thousand miles away.
you act like you are my bestest of best friend when you talk behind my back.
just get on with your princess-like life and dont disturb mine.
i thought that incident had changed you. but im wrong.
and A, since when you become one of them?
you tell me you are my friend, but you backstab me.

i tired, biatch. i need to get on with my lifeeeeeee!
thankgod i still have my friend here or else idk what i will do.
now i dont feel like gg to medan cz wherever i turn, i will see her.
and she drags all my friend along too.
she doesn't know how i feel. im such a loser

sorry for the unpleasant start, fellas!
you are still my fellas and i heart you!
today Mandy never come to school which made me miss her so badly.
but in the end she did come but i only getto see her for like 5mins.
i went to Mc with Agnes and Stef and the *tingting* part was sooper farny. lol
then we had to rush back cz Agnesy had learning journey. hope she enjoyed!

thankyou Stef for accompanying me to the bus stop! (L)

then i went home and slept omg so shiok lol lol i wanna moreeeeee.
then fish called and we went tpy
i went home and played at the playground and i found out that monkey bar is such a love.
someone, rmb the monkey bar? i do.

ima so sweaty now i think im gg to eat then i will b hving tuition afterwards.
today is leap day but i dont feel like it is one.
today is 4years once and yeah, the nxt leapy will be 2012.
praying v hard not to be in Sg anymore cz im sick of it.


CANT WAIT FOR THE SHOPPING SPREEEEEEEEEE!!!
wna see my shopping list?
no way!

hitted : argh

WHOAMHOAYHOA

oh haha i forget to tell you that i lost my wallet just now.
and stef found it in her bag. omg so careless!

haha and i dont know that there's actually alotsa indos in beatty huh huh
cant wait for IFD!!!!!


hitted : excited

I DONT KNOW HOW TO SAY

i think i need a new laptop since its friggin slowwwwwww ohmy you know i have no patient.
it took half an hour for it to load and another 15 mins to settle to 'Not Responding' windows.
i might just banged my laptop but im so dying to come online.
HEHE i think i needa new lappie soon. so soon.

okay i haven't been talking to my guardian ever since ytd's incident.
im not gna talk to her unless she apologise. as if she will.
i dont give a hoot whether to talk to her anot.
i dont rly have anything to talk about. maybe only waking me up.
but that's her job and responsibility. be professional.
she didn't wake me up this morning idk why. so childish.

whatever man.
school had been normal except for Dione's absence.
huh idk what happen, why there are so many sick ppl today?
fish didnt come to school and chicken vomiited lotsa times.
hope they can recover soon.. :)

abt the camp, im still worrying.
daddy is still overseas and idk how to talk to him.
he seemed angry over this matter. huh

i will be having logarithm test nxt wed and yeah that close up this term 1
omigod its super fast, 1 term is almost gone.
may i know why time is tiredless, it moves without stoping for even a moment.
i wish i could be time.


hitted : daily

SCREW YOU

OMG YOU GO AND DIE CAN YOU PLS FUCK YOURSELF OFF,YOU FUCKING DONT HV ANY FUCKING AUTHORITY TO FCKING SCOLD ME BITCH. SCREW YOU. FUCK STOP SCOLDING ME OR ELSE YOU WILL HAVE A MAHJONG PAPER WITH A BIG MIDDLE FINGER PASTED ON YOUR BEDROOM'S WALL. YOU DO NOT HAVE ANY BLOOD RELATIONSHIP WITH ME IN CASE YOU DO NOT KNOW, I HAVE PARENTS WHOM I MUST RESPECT MORE THAN YOU WHO ARE ONLY A FUCKER. ARGH I HAD BLOODY TUITION WITH DIONE. IT WASNT LIKE I WAS HAVING SEX WITH HER OR DID ANYTHING THAT WAS VIOLENT OR WHATEVER YOU THINK IT IS MAN I DONT CARE. I'VE HAD ENOUGH MS GUARDIAN. YOU ARE JUST A GUARDIAN, A FIGURE HEAD TO SUPPORT MY RESIDENTIAL HERE, NOT TO CARE ABOUT MY PERSONAL STUFF. COOK FOR ME, DONT STARVE ME TO DEATH AND THAT ALL ARE YOUR JOB. GO OFF.


today had been okay until my guardian spoilt my day. i received my geog and amaths back argh i dont wna elaborate more. i passed both. okay im tired of all the tears i shed.

sorry for the f s.
sorry dione
thankyou mandy

LIFE ISNT MISERY. IH MOST OF THE TIME IT IS

i think i can be a fortune teller ha.
i predicted that i will fail my chinese badly (isnt it quite obvious)
and haha true enough, i did fail. 13/50 lol. *claps*
as i predicted (again), my guardian stared at me. idk whats her problem. PMS maybe
argh i feel vry hot now maybe cz of the chilli mela gave me.
THANK YOU MELISSA TAN HUI CHI for the chilli :D (L)(K)
hahaha maybe that chilli can gimme a motivation to find a better chilli, cz dione thinks that this chilli is too gay to be true.

oh btw i learned a new words today.not exactly new. its camouflage. cz the indo is 'kamuflase' so i kind of get the meaning. quite a number of words are similar. im so smart.! cant resist

then oh then oh i got 18/25 for history. CONGRULATION AGNES SUTRISNO for achieving 21.5/25 yay!! *cheers* and i got 14/15 for amaths. great improvement, candies! jia you!. congrats for the 12 of you who got full maks.

i forget my moodle password fck how?! my goddamn. i must tell famous amos as soon as ming tian. ha this life is so boring + seeing pearly the curly head = misery.

oh i havent get a chance to talk to daddy abt the camp thingyyyyyy!! hw hw hw? think for me laa. pls. praying rly rly hard now.

i shall get back to my emaths TYS cz i wna pass my emaths so badly!! haha but i dont think so as i yawned for 100 times alr. bye adios.

BTW ah i am so smart i stole my laptop from my guardian just now successfully. haha actually not i stole, but rather my brother. its weird eh? its my laptop, but i must steal it in order to use it. this life is complicated mannn

and jess is away for camp, i have noone to disturb. omg where can i ask?!


hitted : daily

LIFE IS TOO MEANINGFUL

today is gg to be another boring day. ohmy someone ask me out pls.


hitted : darn

AND THE SUN IS THE ONLY LIGHT

Yo,
Dione the goldfish is absolutely dead cz she hasnt post anything on her blog for like twohundred thousand milenium and i hope she can rest in peace. pls visit her funeral at the nearest Eurasian restaurant. who knows you are lucky enough to have her as your fried goldfish. HAHAHA peace dione, peace

im so goddarn bored i watched dono hw many thousand movies and my eyes are very pain nw. oh shit man i forget to apply the lotion for the ball in my eye. can someone pls remind me. ohoh im kinda sick with nails can i have no nails? ew but thats gross.

may i declare something? i miss ben. ohmy miss him so much i think its been a year or two since i last saw him. i heard he has a girlfriend now and he grows taller. definitely he is now taller than me. butbut i wanna see him my god feel like pinching his cute cheekssss!!!!! but i so-called lost contact with him haha nvm. fate will bring us together. ben ban ben, i called him roller coaster cz he likes to roll around haha. still rmb my water fight with him centuries ago. and the cycling. and alot more. i hope he can find someway here.

i went to gym just now with mona and yeah she ran for like 30 minutes. obviously sth that is impossible for me. but weird eh, why he wasnt in the gym room,? i thought he is having the muscle buildup session in gym for like dono hw many hours per day? whatever la. i miss swimming. and my fats. i miss my fats.

im super duper xtremly tired now, i think i gna sleep soon. hope that i will dream of staying in the sun now HAHA


hitted : groans

??

O, we used to be vry close. but now, urm i dont know.
its either theres sth wrong with me or you just have changed.
i rly hope that both of us can make a lil effort to this friendship

my phone is finally free of incoming call thanks to J. (L)
i spent 27bucks for the eyedrop & my heart is so pain nowwwwwwww.
its so scary sth red bally bally one.

im making a table of differences and similarities between dj and kj. HAHA

Labelled: hah

TUMOR IS CUTE BUT DANGEROUS, W

Okay i apologised for not coming online for the past dontknowhowmany hoursssss. Hah
So i wna wish a Happy Belated Bday to Agnes Sutrisno and Anita Lie. you two please grow up. :]
i feel so happy i finally am face to face to my lappie i wna kiss it. muachhhhhhhh!!!!

okay school was like very stressful mammyyyyy.
oh & ytd during geog i discovered this ball-like creatures in my eyelid.
i v scared its a tumorr omggg im gg to doctor mannnnn
its not pain at all & i didnt feel it till i actually touched it.
Haha but v nice to touch lahhh HAHA

i tell you sth. i think Dione and JK make a perfect couple HAHA i dontknow why
we kept on laughing at him the whole 2 hours i think he thinks that we are mentally challenged or what i dont know you go ask him. His no is 99911100.
physics and geog test was ohsodifficult i have no faith anymore :(
i think im gna fail but yeah i gotta move on man.

i went to mandy's hse just now to sleep. her hse the sofa v nice to sleep oneeeeeeee.
i dreamt abt staying in the moon. lol with thousands of maids, and server like in palace (L)
then guess what? W was my garderner HAHAHAHHHA i cant stop laughing man.
imagine the iammwhatiam guy cutting grass HAHAH lol lol lol

ytd i saw G tng omg she is so different nowww but yeah im glad that i met her,
although it was like 5mins?
abt my s3 camp, how?shd i go?!?!?! im so confused nw. theres the dis(advantages) huh how?
i think im gna talk to my father a few more time to convince him
pray for me please. i beg you HAHAHA

you know what?! i skipped choir this week im so happy i dont hv to deal with frog
andandand i sound like power rangers now so horrible.
put the blame on dione cz she made me laugh non-stop.

i have a v big news here right now.
Ms Jamie is BACKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
(the exclamation marks doesnt mean im happy but its kinda like devil approaching future signal HAHAHA)
mama hwhw? my life would be miserable,man ouch.
i think im gna go to Picton now unless i wna go blind.

Labelled : tumor attack

IT IS NOT AS GOOD AS IT IS ON THE SURFACE

she just has to spoil my life. WHY IS THAT SO? i guess my life will be better if she isn't messing ard with me, or even, if she doesn't exist at all. what am egoist person she is.
this is life. it comes in a full package. including obstacles, and betrayal.


Labelled : sigh

WHEN THINGS ARENT SUPPOSE TO BE HOW THEY ARE

such a bitch that lady is. she isnt lady. but she pretend that she is one.


Labelled : ihatehersomuch

I DONT GET IT WHY

EWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW.!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
IM SOSOSOSOSOSOSOSOSO GROSSED OUT NOWWWWWWW!!!!!!!!!!!!!
OMGOMGOMG I DONT KNOW WHYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY
OKAYYYY I THINK I HAVE BETTER TASTE THAN THAT, DON'T I???????

OMG I CANT BELIEVE IT. SEEMS LIKE I JUST WAKE UP FROM A DEEP DEEP SLEEPPPPP
BUT WHAT I HAVE EXACTLY DO DURING MY DEEP WONDERFULLY LONG SLEEP????\\\


Labelled: gross man

CHINGAY = SHOPPING HAHA

i went out with Monica after my 3 hours of beauty sleep. told my guardian im gg for Chingay.
but we ended up shopping and laughing at juicetan's retardedness. omf i can't believe it!

i bought a surfer girl pencil case at 50% discount and Monica bought a surfergirl coin ppuch at 70% so its like only 5 bucks. !@#$%^&**&^&*()\ Hahaha

just hope that some part of the life can be better and less humiliated.


Labelled : smelly and sticky

YOU CAN BE ALL YOU WANNA BE

Today sucks man i dono why. it seems usual, but i felt the tense. it was kinda weird cz i didnt see chilli ard D:
aft school dione mel and i went to tpc popular. spent quite alotof time there.
aft that went to library borrowed a few books and im home.

mel said i like to stick out my tougue when i stoned. uh rly?!?! i cant tell
i wonder whether i have tuition today?!!?! goddamn

uh dont feel like blogging now. shall blog when i feel like it. bye

Happy Total Defence Day


Labelled : fucked

SOCIAL+STUDIES = HUMANNITIES

I CANNOT STUDY!!!! sorry im declaring here but i seriously cant study.
huhuhuhuh i read this bloody book you named social studies for like 123478675432 times and
nothing went inside my gorgeous brain. ARGHHH
huhuh i dont see the point why i must study SS. im not Singaporean, anyway.

havent complete physics graph godness tmr is friday & i have, lemme see.
oh i have 5 tests coming upp. sian.

this morning i saw Mr. Ng at TPC and i ran. dumb yes i know. he laughed at me. D:
then i received a rose ohmy so sweet from my darling Mandy Teo.
apparently she is my first kisser so she is responsible HAHA
then i have alot of chocs from friends and hey, actually, 3e2 wasnt that bad, afterall.
i kinda have fun during the trip with my class.! (L)

my left leg hurts i dont think i can walk because of the GRACEY GRACE she stepped on my toe nails and it hurtss. grace, wait for my revenge lol.

what shd i say,? im bored
i think i better go back to SS world
Mr cheong now i know why you let me sleep in your class


Labelled : lacro-ing

OH I MISS YOU DARL

uhkay, Singapore Discovery Center. what must i say?
Hot weather. Crowded. Tiring. Frustating. Fun. Fainting
huh firstly, im not gna let myself into that kind of situation agn. not anymore man
HAHAA overall, im lazy to blog today so yeah SDC was fun yet tiring.

i wna punch kick slap smack Lee Hocksiang today cz he made me screamed loud. lol
& that wasnt very nice cz, nvm

i dono why im so lazy tmr urgh SS coming on my way fuck la
my student handbook is fully written till theres no space anymore.
means, i have too much tests, reminders, homeworks blablaabla

i hate sec3 life man i seriously do.
i prefer sec2, of course when lacro is still ard. miss you brown.

im like so mad im talking to a picture. mad right.
talking to a picture somemore saying happy vday. uh i think i need psikiater now NOW
ahah ss im so over you,man. can i hv onne day without studying?!?!!?!

Happy Valentine's Day CHILLI PADI
you just didnt realize that, maybe.

Labelled : turned upside down

HAPPY VALENTINE"S DAY

omgg do you see this? do you see this?? HAAHA im so touched, happy, exciteed blablabla. but maybe valentine's day will be more fun if:
1) the stupid school never organize the stupid trip
2) i have a boyfriend to spend my val with
3) i have a boyfriend on that very day.

all the above are impossible so im just wandering. its good to dream, sometimes. Haiyo
Valentine's Day. Roses for you. but rmb, rose kills.

Monkey remains as monkey. chilli becomes hotter. HAHA

Labelled : silently wishing

PICTURE TELLS A THOUSAND WORDS

" But we refuse to believe that the bank of justice is bankrupt. We refuse to believe that there are insufficient fund in the great vaults of opportunity of the nation. And so,we've come to cash this check- a check that will give us upon demand the riches in freedom and the security in justice.

We have also come to this hallowed spot to remind America of this fierce urgency of Now. This is no time to engage in the luxury of cooling off or taking transquilizing drug of gradualism. Now is the time to make real the promises of democracy. Now is the time to rise from the dark and desolate valley of segregration to sunlit path of racial justice. Now is the time to lift our nation from a quicksand of racial injustice to a solid rock of brotherhood. Now is the time to make justice the reality for all of God's children.

This would be a fatal for the nation to overlook this urgency at the moment. This sweltering summer of Negro's legitimate discontent will not pass until there is a freedon and equality. Nineteen sixty three is not an end-but a beginning. And those who hope that the Negros needed to blow off steam will now be content will have a rude awakening if the nation return to business as usual. And there would be neither rest nor tranquility in America until the Negros is granted his citizenship rights. The whirlwinds of revolt will continue to shake until there the bright day of justice emerges.

But there's something i must say to my people who stand on a warm threshold which leads to a palace of justice: In a process of gaining the rightful, we must not be guilty of the wrongful deeds. Let us not seek to satisfy our thrist for freedom by drinking a cup of bitterness and hatred. We must forever conduct our struggle on high plane of dignity and discipline. We must not allow our creative protest to degenerate into physical violence. We must rise the majestic heights into meeting physical force with soul force.

This marvelous new militancy which has engulfed the Negro community must not led us to distrust the white people, for our white brother, as evidenced of their presence today, have come to realize that their destiny is tied up to our destiny. And they have come to realize that their freedom is innextricably bound to our freedom.

We cannot walk alone"

This is my speech i memorised in less than 10 hour time HAHA see how smart i am. and i typed this without referring to any reference. how much i memorized and it turned out well. i done my speech ytd but i still can rmb it now. HAHA funny? im telling you something here.
Nothing is impossible

Labelled : sleepy head typing

YOU GET OLDER, YOU GET WISER

Yo! my stupid guardian confiscated my beloved laptop and i had to lie to her so that i can go online. since tmr will be like so-called no school, i decided to waste my time Hahaha.

monday was a tiring day. i forgot what happen la. Dione and I had tuition with JK at the study area in my condo. and when it gets dark, we use dione's phone's light facilities to carry on and JK held the HP with such a funny way man i cant stop laughing at him. what a awry person. ( i just learned that bolded word & i kindof forget what it means HAHA) we had dinner at TPC and i was scolded by my guardian cz i went to eat. urgh, she is sometime unreasonable. often. or always.

Tuesday is a fuck day uh. i had my english speech done and completed History and Chem test. i think im ovulating now cz my mood is rly swinging badly,man. somemore PEARLY THE FROGGIE spoil my mood. she is uh rly rly annoying and unreasonable. yes like my guardian. oh i tell you when i grow up, im not gg to treat my kids like the way they treat me, man. im not letting mykids to suffer.

OMG i nearly forgotten sth. sth very very important!!
Happy Birthday Mommy.!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i love you so much please take care of yourselves and eat your meal thrice a day! please i beg you uhkay.
today is her BIRTHDAY and she's 39 haha. she told me she loves me and i nearly teared okayy. she is like the best mom in this whole entire world. i love you mom.!

Hahaha so today is another sucky day. ( i think my days are all sucky man! lol) someone may know why HAHA lol lol lol. you know what, our classroom is like Dione and my house. we are making that place as comfortable as possible. we sleep, we eat, we study, we do everything down there. woah so shiok man HAHA. we are trying to think of ways to make it even more comfortable yeah yeah.!!

you know just now during Physics SPA, Melissa Brenda and I was like walking blurry and we stepped into a wrong lab. i was like thinking, why all their faces change huh.? apparently it was 4e5 and steph who saw that, laughed so funnily and AHAHA not to be continued. agn, Pearly the froggyy create problem with me agn. i feel like burning her house down man soso annoying. go die la.

Dione actually believe this ShinLu-Mr.Chan relationship and im not gg to elaborate more. those who know, LOL. those who dont know FOL. ask dione the dummy.

i think she is suspecting sth alr i better go search yahoo HAHA or else she will confiscate agn so saddening.

i need someone to talk to. heart to heart.

Labelled : tired and sloppy

its 1.30 in the morning yeahhh so its 10Feb
5 more days to friday (im looking forward)
4 more days to Valentine's Day (im not looking forward)
3 more days to Mommy's Bday. (im rly looking forward) ouh and it also means AM test

HeHoHi so sad this week i have countless of tests i think i might i explode. soon. very very soon. i hvnt done hws and hvnt studied yet. so i just read through them and havent study them by heart.

Fat Boy Swim. Skinny Boy Sleep. Haaahaaahaaa ~~
Crisis & Conflict ~ An Enquiry Approach to Modern World History
Chemistry Matters ~ GCE 'O' Level

these are the books im dealing with. they are frustating i should say. but they bring knowledge and killed time. time flies extremely super duper fast quick instant. its nearly to my 15 years of JOMBLO-ing. (actually not exactly) :D

my feeling is like rojak now. mixed. mix and match. Haha so crappy this post.

ohwell i decided to change my skin (again) bcz ppl complained that they can't see the girl's leg picture down there so i just change it LALA
comment pleaseeeeeeeee~~

Mandy Teo is finally back here im so happy imissher.


Labelled : sleepy

WHEN FRIEND IS ALL YOU ASKED FOR

Ohohoh mannn you don't know how im feelingg nowwww. Can you believe it im actually chatting woth my old primary school friends??!?!??! i have lost their contacts for nearly 3 years & im here talking to them remembering all those childish attitude we have back then?!?!?!?!?! OMG you dont know how touched i am. Haha i feel so exciteddd they are my long-lost friend. now i know that im not alone. heckcare abt those sickening ppl. Hello i still have them yeah & i just realised that they know me inside out OMG i feel like primary kids nowwww. wanna hug all of them right NOW.

junia, sorry abt my attitude just now. im rly sorry i blown off our last meeting. im rly gna miss you honey.!

Labelled : regretted and excited

WHEN YOU ARE SO COMPLICATED LIKE BINOMIAL EXPRESSION

I dont talk to you before, i only know you so-so. you were the one who added me, i never do anything that offended you, i know that you used to (whatever).
So, im asking you here, what's the point of blocking me on msn? huh you funny person.
i think you hv mental problem, dont you?
this issue has been long but i just dont know the reason you blocked me uh
i never even talk to you or disturb you. you are one of my contact lists and so do i.

Haha so funny i found it somewhere i forget. but i find that her problem is quite similar to mine uh. just that she never talk to the person before. yeah i also dont get the idea. someone please tell me why?

Labelled : nerding

WHEN THE MOON IS THE ONLY ONE

Okay, so lets begin our journey. but too bad i didnt go to the house of fun, i dont know why HAHA

i went to the house of dog. okay so i completely forgotten that glen has a dog. & i s so scared of her.

there was a male dog coming and glen's dog was screaming in high pitched so i also follow. lol

we watched the Primary-5-longkang in action then gambled.i lost 70cent HAHA

we ate dinner at KFC hahaha so funny, urm nvm.

i feel so full now i can hardly move my buttock. lollol

im showing Mr. Foo SK my brother's picture and he actually doesnt believe me.

so bad of him,uh. im trying to convince him nw.

sosososososooso i think im gg to bathe okay its latee. adios

Labelled : giddy

MY OH MY DO YOU WNA SAY GOODBYE

Hola Halo yoyayyy!
i am soso proud of myself i actually studied .
okay not really lah but at least i touched my book.
with 7 tests coming next week, do you want to be prepared?
of course or else you wna die or fail.

i think im gg to library later idk whether its open.
ohoh i think my stomach got problemo everytime croaking.

mommy is gg to send me my angbao money so that i can spend it Haha
i hope the transfer will be asap yay!!!

i miss chilli padi the blur king

Labelled : bored

I AM DRUNK

myohmy. I feel so sorry for Melissa Tan Hui Chi cz just now she couldn't come because of her mother. parents are like that, mel. but no matter what, she is still your mother.

i couldnt log in to blogger ust now so i tried a few times and finally i get my correct password. see how patient i am. i actually didnt bang my laptop like i usually did! Hahaha.

i guess things are under control now. she just called me! yay i am soo happy i think she saw my post Haha so, it works darling!! i love you and please don't leave me okay. you're great friend.

i thought my day would be boring but not until my friends come. although i will be more happy if Mel can join us but, i wouldnt want her to be killed or murdered by her own mother. soso yeah it was fun fun fun. although thee security guard never fails to distract us. Huh i think he is jealous cz he can't have fun time like us Hahaha who ask you to be security guard. go some club and dance man! so you know what having fun is like.

so glen brought beer and kinda drink it. it tasted weird and dione actually drinks it as if it was plain water ohmy. she is alcohol-addict. no, soon. then then aft that we moved to balcony cz the security guard was like so ah-noying. talked abit, went to 711 and dione bought heineken. and you know what? i bought Ribena. so i was like little kid when dione is my mom and im like buying ribena while she buys heineken. -.-

glen bought cards and we played 21 for like 5 minutes. dione cabbed home and glen walked home. Haha can see the contrast? one take cab the other one walk. huh. im so sleepy. so amazingly im still awake at this hour.

Junia is coming on Saturday AND I CANT WAITTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTT!!!!


Labelled : drunk

WHERE ARE YOU

Dear _____,

Where are you? why didnt you call me? you know what. i thought you were my best friend. but why you leave without saying any thing? not even a goodbye? & why dont you even call me? im all alone. i have noone to talk to. with this world getting weirder and weirder, and you leaving me behind. please come back, if you happen to read this.

Love,
Candies


okay while everyone is out, im at home doing nothing. i think im the most unplanned person in this whole entire world. ehm so sad. at home. during chinese new year. sad


Labelled : alone

DONG QIANG PAI NIAN

Happy Chinese New Year (!) :)))))))))))

sosososo this is a fresh new year, fresh new Candies, and of course fresh new life.
i desperately need to singg noww. Gong Xi Fa Cai

dong qiang dong qiang wo zu fu ni guo ge hao nian!

btw, im going ard to collect angpao tml. dont be surprise if you lost one of ur angpao! Haha



Labelled : freshed

WELCOME NEW YEAR ONCE AGN

Haha its 1 hour 8minutes to Chinese New Year Ohoh im soso exciteddddd :D

Angpao ah angpao, ni zai na li?? Hahhaa
may you be blessed with fortune and prosperity. lol
i dont know why im so excited nowwwww. oh chilli is getting hotter and hotter. (gros)

mamamiaaaaaaa although im kinda disappointed cz i dont getto go back to Medan
monkey the wowwow is in Medan the beloved noww, but weird eh i dont miss him :)
czczczczczczcz simply cz i succeeded. whatever im talking

basically, school was totally off today. they just had this small small lil concert.
Haha it was funny and boring.
i just cant stop laughing at that Chinese dancer. ohmy.

after school i went home with Steffie and i slept. Haha
then met Stef agn we went to Orchard the crowded. yoiii
i went ard Orchard to find my clothes but none of them goes well with me.
either its too ex or its ugly. or they have no size.

i very very angry i tell you. VERY ANGRYY. grrr.
ohoh aft that uh, dione came & we went ard.
she was busy talking to someone so long. i think maybe her pri sch friend luh.
aft that they went off and i met my cousin and brother. we went to Boon Keng to eat steamboat.
i am damn full hellyeah. butbut the ice down there was so niceeeeeeeee.
i can take as much as i want, nobody will care. ahah i love

went homee finallyy i feel very lonelyy you know.
i might not be going to Batam tml as planned, but huh im not sure
i received an angpaoo from Honey so sweet uh,.
but it isnt money luh its sweet. lol

im so happy yet sad.
happy cz i never spend money buying clothes.
sad cz i have no new clothes to wear tml. sad
(but unless i go out, then i need an outfit. but for my case, i dont think so)

i havent bathe. i have one hour before the new year came
cz elderly says we cannot wash hair during the first day of the year.
okay so im bathing now ciao.


Labelled : excited

THIS IS JUST MY LIFE

Okay, so for your information, i failed. i failed to be a nerd. i dont know why but, maybe nerdy just isnt my style. Hahaha but i will try i promise.

CNY is approaching and weird-ly, i dont feel any excitement. Huh maybe i dont getto see my familyy so missed the annual reunion dinner with the whole big big family uh so sad. :( my cousins from all over the world came back ytd and they said Medan is just so shiok. (dont make me jealous OKAY)
uhuh this week, is kinda short huh. cz i only have 2 days of lesson. tml will be CNY celebration and holiday. Ytd uhm, lemme see. nothing much. Mrs Singh just cancelled the Chem test to today but she cancelled it agn to next tuesday. during maths LSP we had trial & we went ard the sch so fun.

I failed my Amaths. I FAILED. not only that. Emaths too. BOTH OF THEM fuck.
im sososo disappointed in myself & that encouraged me more to be a nerd. bla whateve.
then todayyyy i have Choir Party & okay i have sth to share with you guys.

this is kind of embarrassing incident. Last saturday, i fell in the toilet. fall straight and my butt hitted the floor hard. Omg. it wasnt that pain at that moment. then i thought there isnt sth wrong. but this morning, i woke up and my spinal cord was like tearing apart, it was so pain i cannot push myself up of the bed. then i decided to see doctor aft choir. the doctor said, the joint which joins my buttock and my backbone got sth (i dono what) & it causes me to feel strained when i pee, or hyped up. oh yeah, i wasnt allowed to carry heavy stuffs. ohwell, i just did this morning. carry the snacks, syrup, cake, to school fpr choir. alone. i repeat that agn, ALONE. and i took BUS to school, i repeat, i take BUS to school. & noone has the initiative to help me carry or ask me if i need any help,at least. so i waited for Monica and the taxi to came. urgh & even until i reached school, okay nvm i dont want to say that. whatever. im fucked up.

the party itself you are asking me? oh thats more than what you call pathetic. i had to run up & down. may, mel, dione, me, and few more girls were like so busy getting things done while the others just sit in the room, enjoy the air con and dont care even they were in charge. worse, the pandan cake got funges, so mel and i went out and bought sth else. its tiring. & more, we were over budget. the baloon we blow with all our heart, just so colourful i feel happy seeing it Haha. at least it calmed me down.

okay lets not talk abt the screwed party. btw, i have abt 8 tests nxt week and i dont know how im going to study. please, i dont wanna fail. its tough though, but this is sec3.

Mandy is overseas and im so so jealous. im so jealous, they can go back to their own family. i only have my brother as family here. im jealous. JEALOUS. repeat after me. I AM JEALOUSSSSSSSSSSSS!

PS : the perfect crime

BYE FUN HELLO NERD

Well, im not falling in love now. Not to anyone particular.
indeed, im starting a fresh new page of my life.
My life has just been totally messed. not to mention any other small problem

People just dont understand how I feel, while they want me to understand HOW THEY FUCKING FEEL. i think i mentioned this quite a few time. huh but whatever lah

i told ya that im going to be a nerd, right? so yeah from tml onwards,
I AM SO GOING TO BE A NERD. even, the NERDIEST person non earth.
im not going to talk abt anything EXCEPT for studies, studies, and studies.

Dont blame me if you're getting sick of my topics,
cz you make me do this. YOU FORCE ME TO.

bleh im rly rly angry and you guess what this blog is going to be totally boring.
everything is about studies. no more Haha Fun Shopping Slacking whatsoever.

maybe by the time you realise that im present ard you,
im rly in love with the nerdy me and there goes the nerdy Candies forever.

this may not be the best resolution, but this is what i must do to change my fucking life.

WHEN LIFE IS GETTING MORE AND MORE UNINTERESTING

i seriously have nothing more to say abt that person. i'm getting sick of her. well, i tried to at least give her chance and chance but seems like she took it as granted. i think she might jolly well go and have her hell life and stop disturbing mine. she is oblivious. totally.

uhkay, life is pretty boring nowadays, plus her presence, make me feel like ending this fcking scene. i guess im going to concentrate on my studies, be a nerd, make friends with all the nerds, make library and book my fav place and hobby. urgh i feel so down. sometimes i think the nerds' life are better than mine. so from today onwards i will be a nerd. a total nerd.

im reading this book titled Kiss & Blog. its abt a loser who is trying to be a prom queen and wanted attention. i think she is just wasting her time cz the real loser is the one that's trying to be a princess. & the real princess is just th one with the OWN character, personality, taste, and thinking.

Yo people that was just crap that i talked abt. of course its real but im not going to let myself into that problem for long. forget it. (thats my motto)
today i will be having Chem tuition with Dione the GoldFish. JK is coming at 6. sososo mybe i shall be a nerd today and study non-stop. bleh

CNY is ard the corner. so corner & guess what, i havent get a single piece of outfit. SAD. seeaskdo. (Mr.Ng's motto)

its raining now. the shiok-est moment of the day. Haha its getting dark i dont know why, although its still afternoon. btw i havent bathe so ciao.

COMBINE BECOME PURE

E is the dao-est person on earth. whatever.

Dione finally came and we went downstairs to eat. Stef came and we called JK to change our tuition schedule. he was damn funny and urm gay. (i just hope he wont see this) thenthen we went to the swimming pool and sat down there. Stef went off and came Glen the longkang boy. after that Darren joined us. they were like sitting at a corner and we were at the other. so funny. so aft thst we laughed and laughed and laughed until finally the stupid black color security guard came and 'warned' us. huh whatever.

i pointed middle finger and i guess sth is very wrong with my stomach. maybe cz of m&ms. Hahah colourfullll m&ms.

oh shit luh i havent study my chemyy but heckcaree i think im dropping to combine science. too tired of that class luh. i dont like.
shall i?

you are just so hard to understand. i dont know why.

HELLOGOODBYE

Hello Saturday the Boring,

I went to TPY just now to meet Dione, May, Doreen, Mel, and Mandy. Huh we were supposed to buy the stuffs for Choir Welcome Party for the sec1s. Guess i am throwing alot of party nowadays huh. 3e2 class party, choir party, 2e3 class party, and my ownself party Hahaha*

We went to Value Dollar & NTUC. we are under budget, which is good :) [so smart]. I saw Monica and her friends just now and quite a few Beattyians. thenthenthen Mandy came to my house and we talked. We talked alot & only 2ofus know whats talked. Haha yeah i was studying Chem (so intelligent) and now ima waiting for Dione Seah Yen Ting the super slow girl. she leaved her tuition at 6. she hasnt reach now. what happened, huh?

Im so boring, xtremely boring nw uhkay. walao i hate you man i seriously hate you. don't say that ppl have nothing to do. of course they have sth to do. they just can't resist you. too annoying. look at yourself before you can judge anybody.

you don't understand what im saying? i don't need you too understand. & don't understand.

whispers hello i miss you quite terribly

WHERE ARE YOU. OH

Moo~ i am currently surrounded by books. oh how studious and nerdy. [ anw, nobody will see]
i checked my blog just now & i realised that only Mandy Teo Yi Bin tagged my blog :)
so special thankyou to mandy Haha who sincerely tagged my nobody-visited-blog!

anw btw highway, today is Friday yeah i had usual boring Physics lesson with Ms.Lydia's bf Hahaha
then aft that SS, okay i slept, but not the whole thing. i did listen to him uhkay.
thenthenthen Geog huh, quite interesting idonowhy but yeah, it kept me awake. at least.

recess was damn funny uhkay. this guy was buying at Malay Stall, he is Chinese but he was trying to talk in Malay, so when he asked for a lil bit of chilli (ehm) not much, he went : cabai sikit sikit, tak manyak manyak.
i was trying not to burst out laughing. then after that he wanted the fishball so he went: itu itu bola ikan iyaiya.
that's when i laughed and he still said, te..terima kaseh. he is funny uhkay.

then i had 3 period of Maths boring boring boring uh i wanna die.
aft sch the PSL went to AVA room and had a meeting.
aft the meeting we went back to our class & we had our farewell party for Mr. Cheong.
but when we came back, he wasnt there so we just ownself party Hahaha fun~
we watched some funny videos on YouTube thats when i bursted out laughing.
actually i didnt understand what the man was talking abt, but i saw the was Mr Cheong laughed, i felt funny and whenever he laughed, i will laugh at his laughter. funny,eh?

thenthen i went home with Monica, Noviana, & i-dont-know-his-name guy.
i slept until my tuition teacher came and aft that here i am trying to study Chem.
praying hard not to stick with this laptop and ended up knowledge-less.
Hahaaha btw chilli padi was nowhere to be found today :(