Journal de la vie extraordinaire

hello living creatures :D i am in a big big confusion right now.i dont know which to choose,what to decide and all.i tried my best to change this emotion.so i can look more lively and cheerful.but i failed seriously. :( i am growing more and more fragile these days. i dont know what happen to.this life is just leading me blind.i dont know why i am doing this,what i should do,and how come that can happen. i am like a blind person looking for a right way.i need help! SOS!

okay my mom is in love with credit card.she made 3 credit cards in a day. i dont know why and how :] but i forced her to gave me one and huh,she refused.but she "lend" me one lah HEHE.i hope i can make full use of it. pray for me she wont change her mind.

i rly feel that my holiday is going to end.and it is so soon. i dont even realise it.cz maybe all this while i am leading my life blindly.so i dont even know that yeah,this is going to be the end of nov.
and someone's bday is coming.i just hope i dont forget to wish a happy bday wish. i am watching Miss Teen USA and its so curious-ing.hehe,i just look at olivia's photo and its funny.she wore this sea blue pail on her head and she looked like witch. HAHA.

actually i am looking forward tmr.but he isnt going to attend it,so im kinda disappointed. D: soso just hoping tht miracle does come true. and guys!!!! i am rly looking forward 31dec to countdown with you guys together. maybe that's goin to be the last outing together or what i dont care but i wont miss it!

ytd,i talked wih james abt friendship.realising that actually this kind of ship tht we built isnt as strong as we think it is.our friendship is actually fragile,too.like my feeling now 0-0 once we dont see each other and nvr talked for awhile,we will separate each distance and we dont even realised it.i am not being framatic or what,but yeah,what is done can't be undone D:

gtg see you soon!

PS: brastagi i hate you