THERES A MEETING THERE WILL BE A FAREWELL

ohoh didnt i mention that tml will be a farewell party for Mr Jay Cheong the Bouncy,Intellectually Smart teacher?? Hahaha.
im only providing utensils. somemore im sharing with Stephieee hurhur.
guess i'm bringing alot today, i mean tml.
heehee so i need someone to help me carry those things. i can think of someone.

you know, usually, those longkang boy can carry alot of things like the construction workers.
Haha someone, you know what i mean. i need you to come earlier tml.
&i obviously not gonna sleep during SS tml cz its gonna be his very last lesson with us.
so sad. i cannot sleep anymore ;( (relax. im not crying)

SO,
Byebye Mr. Bouncy.
may you bounce happily ever after. :)

OH MAMAMIAA hur

Mommy, I MISS YOU. OMF ma, can't i even hear your voice? imissyou imissyou sososo badly. :(

mommy. i miss her so much. omf i want to call her but she isnt ard. maybe having a dinner now? im glad she even rmb to eat her dinner. she doesnt usually eat. actually not only mommy. i miss my dad and cutey brother also. i dont getto go back during cny so hur i dont even know what to do. seah said she wants to sneak out and come over to my place. hope she will sneak out successfullly.

grandma where are you?

bubble tea, can you come?

chilli padi is such a funny blurry bunny. Hahaha :')

i love you. i always do

WHEN TIME MEANS EVERYTHING, YOU

OH well. the day started quite well, i guess.
HAHA isnt today same as any other day?? i dont know what im talking abt. whatever

met glen the i-can-get-ready-in-15-minutes-boy HAHA. wahlao superb
took the same bus as Mr. Cheong, my so-called former form teacher. ;p
thenthenthen after that the morning assembly was as boring as ever. [grins]
Mr. Boo is rly a good speech-maker. he can make me sleep so so successfully Hahaha

the very first stupid lesson was emaths and we had a test. :(
shit i think this is another roses in my report. fck.
oh didnt i tell you that i had amaths test ytd & i practically didnt know hw to do even a simple bloddy simultaneous equation?!?!?!?!!?! go and die
& another 'good' news, i got 13/20 for geoggy. fuckit

then after that was what?! oh mother tongue. chinese.
we listened to ohsotouching butterfly song HAHA ew so boring.
& SS, well, as usual. i slept through the whole lesson.
oh, what an understanding teacher you are, mr Cheong.
great great achievement! yeee

ET didnt come today so we went to Conference Room & borrowed some books.
uhkay candies, stop your boring storytelling!

cut short huh. i went home and had English tuition just now.
ohoh tml is the last day of Mr Cheong presence in our school.
yueahh although he is our form teacher in less than a month time,
he is one of those teacher that let me sleep in class.
usually, they will irritatingly wake me up & ask me to concentrate.
wtf how can i concentrate when i am in spiritless(giggs)

Sec 3 has been ridiculously busy. oh i barely have time to have fun.
for your info, i havent buy any single bloody piece of new clothes.
pathetic, isnt it??

WHEN LIFE HANDS YOU A LEMON, YOU MAKE A LEMONADE.
im trying to make some effort here, but what's the stupid points if you don't have that mindset?

TOTAL SCREWED UP DAY

FUCK.FUCK.FUCK.FUCK.FUCK. FUCKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

today was a total embarassment. okay total disasterrrr
this morning o forgot to do sth. dono how many ppl noticed it.
obviously, huei min who saw it, laughed hard and told me.
SH!TTY LAAAA. it was such a routine, please!

then after that lesson was boring, only during PC there was a lil life, i guess.
after that was choir. the sec1s were there and HAHA im quite tired, as usual.
i received a message on my way home, so aft i reached home, i looked at the swimming pool.

Apparently, i saw someone who is the last person i want to see.
i mean, erm, after i saw i got hysteric and screamed.
i hurried jessica in and unfortunately, the others followed.
& im so fucked up by someone who actually shouted his name out. FUCK
im pissed pissed PISSED PLEASEEEE!

i typed sth on my phone, decided to send it,
but i couldnt find any suitable receiver.
nowadays, i just dont know who to confide in./
so i deleted the message and just keep my anger.

i just cant find the right person. the real he/she.
almost everyone just seemed so fake, to me.
i mean obviously you are not fake, maybe im too sensitive. i always do.

okayyyyy i have amaths test tmrrr shit!
guess i will be receiving my geog paper tmrr.
no doubt, i shall see my marks and decided whether to drop it anot.

i need somemore time to think. this is certainly not the right time to answer

REST IN PEACE, PAK SOEHARTO CENDANA

Today afternoon, at 13.10 WIB, at "whatever" hospital, Indonesia former President, Mr.Soeharto Cendana took his last breath and leave his family and country behind. Hope you rest in peace, thanks for all your contribution. Although you corrupted alot alot alot, but you contributed alot for your very own country too. maybe my grandmother will have another friend up there, so she wont be lonely anymore. 86 years of service for the country, he has finally gone due to multiple organ failure. Rest in peace, on again.

anwwwwwwwwwww, i went to tpy just now with olivia. then we ate at fork&spoon. saw a couple sitting a few metres away, the guy was wiping the girl's mouth with tissue. ew. can't the girl just wipe her own mouth. i think she isnt mentally disabled. Hahaha anyway. then aft that went to popular bought files for the stoopid choir and english. aft that i went to giordano & myself a white pants and black tee. then yeah aft that no more. guess my day is pretty, should i say interesting? whatever/

I WARNED YOU A THOUSAND TIMES

hey spammer i dont know wtfuck you are up to but hello can you stop acting childish & please get the hell out of my blog. you have so no right to spam my blog. i don't entertain spammers. its childish, you-not-even-a-living-thing. don't you have any brain? or your parents never teach you courtesy? HUH tell me what you are up to. im not scared of you & get growing, you LOW CLASS

whoever you are, you certainly are creating problem with me, or you have no brain.
GO
AND
DIE

byebye

SMILE A SECOND,YOU WILL LIVE A MINUTE LONGER

i wish i have someone who i can confide in.
someone who will never complain & listen to me willingly.
someone who wants to be my dustbin for me to throw everything.
someone who knows every single secrets of mine and keep it save.
someone who can make me high when im down. make me smile when im sad.

Hahaha. of course this is the person who will never be here for me.
im just wishing to have one, praying that God will sent me an angel.
people can get sick people can get tired.
now i dont even know who to confide in srsly. Huh :()

anywayy, today was full with laughterrrrrrrrrrrrr. Hahahahahahahahaha.
i woke up in the morning & had a bloody tuition, aft that i have my lunch.
then i met someone and smiled. :)
went to dione's house and baked chaoda cookies haha.
we didnt know how to bake and we just did it anyhow-ly. HAHAHA :]

thnthn aft that we went to orchard to meet glen & walked ard rd rd.
headed to novena got Pastamania for dinner. yummy.
then sat at Starbucks til late at night, walked home and smiled :)
aft that dione went home and smiled agn :] Hahaha

i smiled alot today riteee haha cz today is simply damn funny Hahahaha
blablabla i dont like you, i seriously dont. :*

IM THINKING OF WHAT YOU ARE THINKING

ohmy dumbshit !! my nose is like a highway with a traffic jammmmm all the stupid liquid just keep on coming out and i must blow my nose non-stop. now i sound like a horse and my nose as red as mr.boo's. bleh i think i must get a sleep. damnit i have bloody tuition tmr i dont wanna see his face anymoreeeeeeeeeeee!
person, if you are reading my blog, im telling you this. i dont like you. i seriously don't like you. if you think i am, you are so wrong and so incorrect. i must get this very clear. those words on my hand weren't meant for you. and please, dont be so bhb. thank you
oh i miss my dad so much i dont know why. this feeling suddenly come and i just miss him so very much. i texted him just now & i am so relieved to know that he is fine now. i feel pit for him. he has to work very hard to feed his family. he sacrifices his own time just to earn alot alot of money to educate his children and wife. he is such a great dad, and friend. i just miss him so much. he cant even spare sometime to come here just to visit us cz he is too busy with his work. he works from morning to night, run here run there, simply cz the love he has. i dont know what im saying. but i just miss him very very much. :[
he hasnt eaten his lunch yet until now. omg im so worriedwhat if he gets sick? who will take care of him whien he's at Banjarmasin now? he is in hunger right now, he hasnt even eat his freaking lunch and im here eating so muchhh! i wish i can just transfer those foods to him. dad, you are rly working too hard.
i love you

COLOURFULLL AHA

baka. i found this conversation very colourful so i just put it up as im sosososososososo boring now.

im not doing anything except for reading my au pairs book and transferring songs.

i hope i have better things to do. someone ask me out??

its soooo colourful, isnt it?

OMG ITS FRIDAYYYYYYY

HELLO ITS FINALLY FRIDAYYYYYYYYYYYY!!!!!!!!!!

i notice that everytime i write a sentence i hardly put a coma or any punctuation. see?
i also dont know why but maybe thats my trademark. hahaha

you know what? i think im the dumbest person on earth i anyhow talk anyhow laugh anyhow etcc.
i dont even notice who is behind me or beside me that maybe will hear or see anything. whatever maybe you dont understand nvm.

just now first period Physics SPA mymy still as boring as ever.
aft that SS i didnt sleep lah Mr Cheong like kinda surprised cz i always sleep during his lesson.
i tell you ah, the lesson which i can sleep or eat. Hahaha.
its Social Studies, Chemistry, Physics(eat only), History.
now no more IPW, music, so not fun woof.

thenthenthen after that Geog test. ah i screwed it up.
i dont even know how to calculate that fcking gradient. aw~
flunk.flunk.flunk. (i wish i can take re-ass if theres any)
then the stoopid Amaths 3 hell period myfuck.

i wish i could sleep but cannot. Mr Ng was teaching Logarithm so i cant sleep.
even though my eyes have no more strength to carry on,
so i had to use my hand and open my eyes, then when i write, i close my eyes. Hahaha
imagine how i do that it was the dumbest thing.

after school, there were alot alot alot of ppl buying TYS i dono why this book is so popular.
luckily i bought them ytd so i still need to queue for mel and dione.
we ate lunch buy ice laugh smile scream and yeah homieee.

huh bloody hot singapore.

CRIES SOBS LAUGHTER SCREAMS IN YOUR FACE

oh hey!!! im kinda sleepy today i dont know what's wrong with me. even though i slept practically for 7andahalf hour. i dont get myself. i slept during ss and chem. as the result, i dont get a single knowledge. but i did on chinese. i learned a few phrases and recognised words.

oh hahaha after that was assembly and end of school. the 'o' level results were released just now. i went there and watch the momento. its kinda furious cz some of them were crying, some jumping ard, hugging, screaming, and all. i saw practically all of them but the one i want to see the most wasnt ard? i was dying to see him but he wasnt present. urgh nvm. maybe i wont getto see him agn for the rest of my lifee. :(

thenthenthen i went home nothing to do sosososososososo boringggg! i have Geog test tmr and nxt week coming up will be emaths and amaths. argh!! sec3's life is just so tough.

ITS SWEET TO HAVE A SURPRISE PARTY FOOTFOOT

YEAH i just came home from Astina's unit. they were celebrating her bday. they planned a surprised party for her. so sweet! we ate, took photos, make up-ing each other with chocolate cream, screamed, messed things up, and yeah all. & my maid has to clean all those. HAHA
poor thing. :(

i wish we have more of these times, fun instead of sorrow. haha next up may be Wileen or Diana. either one im not sure.

just wishing the birthday girl a great success for her 17th years of living. LOVE

WHEN YOU GET OLDER, YOU GET SMELLIER hahaha

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ASTINA ~
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOUUUUUUUUU!!!
darling you are 7teen this year HAHA congrats you are finally sweeeeeeeeeetttttttt!!!!!! HAHAHA
you are the hostelmates that can make me laugh and brighten the dinner time, dont you? :]

anw, today is another boring day. i saw that dumbo just now. then apparently, i just found out that Brando is a Beattyian. how pathetic? this is the 4th week and i only know it now?? OMGGG.
another indonesian in Beatty huh.

after sch we had choirrrrrr and everyone was like so boring, waiting for the clock to turn 5.30. &miss phua wasnt in a good mood too. after that we had meeting to plan the welcome party. & the frog was sooo farney mel dione and I kept on laughing at her, its so obvious that we know her table is full of frogs. HAHA

after that went home with Monica & Novi. mon was like kinda pissed cz someone just pissed her. haha yeahh but im rly disappointed in seni. he can actually ignore his friend who has been so good to him. (mon, dia bkn satu2nya seni di dunia kok. masi ada seni2 lain)

thenthenthennnnnnnnnnn i went home you know i was chased by a dogg agnnnn!!! this is the 2nd time in 2 wks. omgg! it was damn scaryyyy please whoever protect me..fortunately, i am a good sprinter soo yeah the dog didnt manage to bite me cz he was so big he cant get through those gates. HAHA yes yes!

okaay i think im gonna bath soon im so lonely noone is chatting with me :( they planned a surprise party for Astina & im sosooso goinggggggggg!!! not forgetting i have hws to be completed. -.- byeee!

SOMEONE IS JUST SO PRECIOUS WHEN SHE HAS GONE

i was listening to itunes when suddenly this song i believe i can fly was played. & all of sudden i think of my grandmother. she is always in my heart. you know she liked this song i believe i can fly and i always laughed at her when she sang. she told me that she believed she can fly. cz someday she will touch that sky, run through the opened door,spread her wings and fly away. she also said that no matter what she will always be there to take care of me, be my guardian angel.

i dont know what she meant cz i was a young little girl. but now i know. this feeling of missing her presence, makes me realise, how much she loved me. im sure she still does now. im regretting now.

remembering the last time she touched my hand and kissed it, saying that she loved me. she told me to respect my parents and be a good girl. never to let myself into trouble. i thought she was just conducting her usual nagging session. but i was wrong. that was the last time she nagged at me. it wasnt a nag. but it was her last moment message for us. it goes to all her grandchildren. her hand was cold and she was trembling. doctor said she can go anytime. but she chooses until all of us was there, then she took her step.

you dont know how sad it was when they criminated her. they put it in sth like xray then close the gate. after that we were supposed to say our last words, but noone seemed to be able to speak. there was tears, sobs, screamings, and all. she is just one great great person.

HUNGER CAN'T STOP YOU FROM BLOGGING HAHA

HUAHUAHUAHUA im still figuring out what shall i eat and i have been asking everybody in my msn list to ask what they had eaten for dinner. its kinda lame, but i rly have no idea. cz cz cz ytd someone recommended me LAKSA & in the end my stomach rioted, which showed me that they dont like laksa. imagine eating laksa, instead of using the longlong noodle, i used macaroni. only stupido will do that. the macaroni-es turned out to be totally out of shaped ehmagawd! im totally like Massie Block now. whateves. (u dont understand then its ur problem. actually i also dont know HAHAHA)

then plus the disgusting lizard incident i can't continue cz ewww i keep wondering how it looked like. of coursse i didnt look at it or else i may be lying on the hospital bed now. wth~~~~~

i dont feel like studying today loh~~~~ but i have got hws to complete. siaannnnn!!! blabla black sheep have you any wool? omg noviana so cute lah she said she led a group of cows like she was the HAHAHA nvr mind. WHOAwhoaWHOA

someone recommended me fried rice, vegetables, then dont know what sushayee i completely ignores, chicken rice i completely adores blablabla. okay i settle to eat air. bye!

WHEN YOUR STOMACH REBELS ITS BETTER TO TAKE IMMEDIATE ACTION

OHOH EHEH UHUH yaya i had stomach problem today i dont know why.!! maybe cz ytd's ohsoweird laksa that i ate. ehmagawd & im stoopid enough to eat laksa agn during recess =.="
i can see now why my stomach keeps rioting non-stop. even until now.

not to mention the lizard i killed ytd, cz im afraid it will take revenge on me. HUH i dono how im going to sleep late laaaa. just pray for me that its friends wont come KAYY.

i found a tutor for chemistry & physics. i having tuition with dione seah ah ah. maybe we will start byyy next week? probably.

today, alot of things happen that marked me as the stoopidest person on earth. not to mention what. beside stupid, its embarassing. HOW THE HELL CAN HE BLOODY KNOW????

blahblah nvm i shall stop what im feeling right now before it gets deeper and deeper. OMGZXZXCCZX what am i talking about?!?!?! im sososo sad + embarassed = mei you lian.

he has been different these few days & i've tried to ignore it. okay nvm. lotsa things happened & they made me grow more mature, wiser, and whatever. i just look for the good side.

i dont know what happen to everybody they seem like wearing a mask. or isit i wear the mask till i cant see them clearly? whatever. im just trying to be nice. =.=

i was chatting with yohanes. he will be back by the 23rd. HAHA its been so long since the last time i saw him. yeahyeah. he is going out now i dont know what Ciputra. & im obviously jealous. he is enjoying his life and im here struggling. anw he wont stay here long. he may be going to KL later. i might not be able to see anymore. :(

im not looking forward to Valentine's Day. you know what i mean. Singapore Discovery Centre

okaay you wont believe that i just killed a lizard cz someone doesn't. you know how disgusting the process was HAHA i dont want to say. i tell you i kill it using scissors now you can imagine. okay damn damn gross please dont puke. i dont know why im so brave HAHA. maybe god protected me just now..

you better believe me, j

YOU WILL FEEL THE BUTTERFLIES INSIDE.

HAHAHAHA im very hungry now i havent eat anything YET. just now dione & glen came to my house and we did hw. they stayed until 7+ liddat then after that i had my tuition till 9.30. so yeah i have no time to eat my dinner im so sad =.=" can someone please recommend me sth to eat??

someone recommended me LAKSA. yeah i think so IM GOING NOWWWWWWWW~~~~

IT IS FUN NOT TO BE YOURSELVES SOMETIMES

ohoh im chatting with Dione now so farneyy. she was trying to be chilly and she acted so real that it seemed like chilly. HAHA okay shall show you.

silly days says (12:14 AM):
it's alrught al long as i can see i on monday on the beach
beauty lies in the eyes of the beholder [: says (12:14 AM):
HAHAHAbeauty lies in the eyes of the beholder [: says (12:15 AM):
(dione nobody say 'we hold hand in hand with each other on the beach' one lol)
silly days says (12:17 AM):
sorry for my bad english honey. i will brush up my english just for u
beauty lies in the eyes of the beholder [: says (12:17 AM):
HAHA
beauty lies in the eyes of the beholder [: says (12:18 AM):
be dione now
silly days says (12:18 AM):
the switch is done

ok i didnt save the first part of the conv. it was damn farneyy i tell you. HAHA okay now i saw the mushrooms growing in my toilet so so disgusting can you believe it??! it's damn big and disgusting. i feel like puking when i see it. OMG i cant take photo of it cz later my phone will be full of mushrooms yuck disgusting man!

SOMETIMES, THINGS ARE JUST BETTER LEFT UNSAID.

CURRENT MOOD : ENJOYINGG.! wouiss...

huh as a sec3 student i know that i have alot of burden, its not only from teachers, sometimes it also comes from peers. yeah but that doesnt mean i can't enjoy my life right! come on ppl! life is just once and hello enjoy it before you regret KAYYYY.!

i went to orchard with Jessica Diana Olivia Vincent and Andrew. we watched Linger. it was kinda boring at first so i slept for the first part of the movie. i was waken by a loud sound & after that i cant sleep so i just force myself to stare at the big big screen. it was actually touching and so-called scary. yeah but overall its okay.

we went home straight away & in the bus we were like talking about w. so i didnt realise that his friend was actually down there and yeahh. i think he heard i said that w is hot sexy and (okay im too embarassed to say it out) just after Olivia told me then i began to OMGOMG-ing. HAHA it was kind of stoopid but nvm. since there were alot of embarassing incident that he saw. anw he also has one what! !@#$%^&*(

i have reflected on every thing that has happened. actually i dont need to think abt it. i have people that love and care for me so why should i think of that stoopid matter that will just lost me my concentration?! wtf i dont care. maybe i shall be oblivious to my surrounding and heckcare of all the stoopid worthless judgement.

to that stoopid girl :
if you say that you are brave enough, why don't you have the courage to say it infrontof me, instead you talked abt it behind me? HAHA you are sososo stoopid. you say other people are narrow minded you don't even know that you dont have any mind at all. you think ppl are rude, you dont even know that you are totally a bitch. you think that you are the best, the cleverest, the blablabla. hey you are so oblivious to ur surrounding. look at the mirror you hang in your room and see how pitiful you actually are. huh if you dont have i will buy one for you. open your eyes and see how the world is laughing at you. bhb.

PS: sorry if these days i posted sth not so pleasant but this is how i feel right now. i will soon find my way back to my ownself.

this world is changing. not physically. but the circumstance im living in is totally different. i thought i was trapped in some strange place that i didnt recognise. but its still the same old place, same old people. im not sure. is it there's some problem with my eyes, or are they rly changing. seriously, i can't tackle any problem or any of your fucking attitude furthermore. whatever you wanna do, i am a human and i have my every right to do anything i want. and you, who are just one-of-those-people, have no right to judge me, both inside and outside. i quit. if you wanna continue the game, for me, its already game over!

i have had enough!

ya ampunn gw bener2 nga tau mesti gmn. baru 1 masalah selesai, stg lg masalah br. emang knp sehh? yng bermasalah itu sbnrnya gw ndiri ato dunia ini?? kno semuanya tambah rumit & berat buat dijalani? trs trang gw uda nga kuat. kaki gw ini uda capek menopang semua beban pikiran gw. terllu byk yng hrs gw pikirin.

mulai sekarang, gw nga akan lagi perduli sama apa yng lu pikir. gw nga mau tau. terserah lu mau gmn. capek gw mikirin perasaan klian sementara klian nga prnh mikrin perasaan gw. suka2 marah, suka2 kesel, GW UDAH CAPEK NGERTI NGAKKK??

gw emang shrsnya dr dulu ikutin apa kata monica. jangan pernah terlalu dkt sama seseorg & jng prnh mikirin apa yng org pikir ttg kita. mgkn org bkl bernilai kl kita kurang perduli atau apalah terserah! tapi yng jelas, konsep ini bnr. & hrs dijalani secptnya.

gw uda nga sanggup lagi. shrsnya aja ada org yng mau menerima sebagian beban gw. pasti hidup ini lbh berarti. skrgg gw uda nga bisa menilai, apa yng berarti di hidup ini. terlalu byk liku2. liku2 yng terlalu tinggi menjulang sampai sulit dicapai. liku yng dalam mencuram sampai sulit di lewati.

yah inilah hidup. tidak berarti tanpa masalah. & org2 selalu blg, dibalik smua masalah pasti ada hikmahnya. tp gw sama sekali nga bisa menemukan setitik pun hikmah di blk masalah ini.

apalagi kl bkn persahabatan.

sahabat.
dia bisa buat kmu mabuk kepayang dilanda ketulusan. tapi dia juga bisa bt kmu pusing seribu keliling lantaran dia bwt kmu mikirin dia trus. sbnrnya nga usa dipikirin lge. smua org butuh teman. tp nga ada yng blg kn kl kita nga bisa hidup tanpa sahabat.
hati2. kata ini beracun. lebah bermadu.
manis tapi menyakitkan.

whatever im saying above if you dont understand then its your problem. the whole point is, PLEASE APPRECIATE CANDIES SUTANTO AS HUMAN/WOMAN/LADY/GIRL/LIVINGTHING/ OR WHATEVER. please dont make me suffer more. thanks

WHEN YOU ARE BORED YOU TEND TO KILL!

can you believe im eating m&m's right now. doing my ss, blogging, and copying my brother's song lyrics. omg im so pruod of myself i can kill 4 birds with one stone HAHA whatever this is to kill boredom!

WHEN FRIENDSHIP IS ALL THAT MATTERS

to mandy:
im so sorry i dono that you will think that way. its seriously not you. you are not the one. you are such a great friend i dono how to expain okay. i mean you are enthusiastic, caring, loud, emo, scary, blablabla. you've got your good and bad side. but that makes you even better. cz you know that nobody is perfect.

and abt the separating thing, its just what you think. you know that time i felt that way too. i was treated by a friend of mine, but in the end, i realised that that was all my thoughts. if you think we are friends, we will be friends. but if you think we cant keep this friendship, then we wont. all of us are making the effort not to create a gap between each other, and you shouldnt think that we're not gonna be friends anymore.


okay im saying alot to mandy. i understand how she feels, bcz i feel that way before. okay im going to swimm HAHA. kay byee mandy dont think too much okay i love you!

WHEN IT CAME LESS, YOU VALUE IT MORE

ohmygawd im brokeyy now. cz you know what i cabbed home just know & it costed me $4.40 just in less than 2 km distance. i was trapped in alot of red traffic lights. arghh i just took my allowance & now im broke agn =.=''.

can you please tell me why?

you make me wanna call you in the middle of the night
you make me wanna call you through the lonely night
you make me wanna love, you make me wanna fall,
you make me wanna surrender myself!

NEITHER I WANT NOR I CARE

im bored im bored im bored im bored im bored im bored im bored im bored im bored im bored
im bored im bored im bored im bored im bored im bored im bored im bored im bored im bored
im bored im bored im bored im bored im bored im bored im bored im bored im bored im bored
im bored im bored im bored im bored im bored im bored im bored im bored im bored im bored
im bored im bored im bored im bored im bored im bored im bored im bored im bored im bored

aiyoyohh im rly bored to death mann! can i have some entertainment in my room? like theme park here? so i can play and enjoy myself. like doraemon can create montaineous scenery in nobita's small room. HAHA im ahb-viously dreaming. whatevs. oh yeah just now mandy teo yi bin gave me card so nice im damn touched! :)

this is my desktop in case you dont know. cool?

whateves. okay im feeling to urge to tear all my textbooks and burn it all. so i dont need to feel the burden and can relax myself. but i know it wont happen. :(


listening to mp3, blogging, chatting, reading novel, checking friendster are way better than flipping through those stoopid books that bring me headache.


of course if i have a boyfriend now i wont feel sosososo bored :D im always bored when it comes to weekend but i always looking forward to weekend. i dont understand whatt im talking about.


so sad i didnt see chilly today :[ so after school mel,dione, and I went to alter my skirt. then we met hocksiong, wenbin,and ck in basketball court. we sat down eating nachos and drank coke. okay my body is full of scratches now. those flies just love me so much! MUAHAHA.



i dont know why. these few days, i see her, i dont feel like usual. theres always this feeling that she is so self-centered. i know she doesn't. but i just feel that way. im confused. i dont even know how to start a conv with her. fuck*

WHEN I GIVE YOU TWO YOU ASK FOR THREE

HAHAHAHAHAHHAAHHHA its 10.37 now and usually i will be on my bed sleeping! but not with my computer on. i think today i sleep the latest. i supposed to be in the dreamland now.

i forced junia to make a blog and finally she made it! yeahh blogger you shd thank me cz i recommend you to my friends. indeed, dione also right! HAHAHA. i love to be an inspiration!.whatever im talking.

i feel like rearranging my room as it looks more like a messy kitchen than a bedroom. i want a sweet bedroom that can make me feel like hugging it. HAHA but that wont come true huh as you know my brother wont want those so-called sweet thingyy. HAHA yoyoyoyoy. im feeling high now/

im sleeping soon people sleep soon okay dont be the eye bag boy so scary.

STICK OUT YOUR TONGUE AND TWISTTTT

hello everyone i know i've away since yeah last week.
apparently my guardian confiscated my laptop. cz she said i must concentrate on my studies.
how childish.

btw this week have been so busy. (wait i refer to my handbook first)
homeworks, projects, tests, choir practices, miseries have been controling my life.
i dont even know what life im leading nowadays.
sigh, maybe i will just go with the flow.

im currently doing my homeworks that have taken up most of my times.
now i finish school at 3 from mon to wed. plus choir every tues and wed.
if i just can voice my opinion, i rly think that Ms Pearly Lim is quite unreasonable.
theres no need to treat us that way okay.
its childish.

she marked my attendance as late. fuck.
she treats us like primary kids. or UG.
she rly makes us lose ur sense of belonging towards Choir.
we even steal as many minutes as possible to slack from Choir.
i shall stop talking abt pearly. yeah

im talking to melissa, junia and glen now
dione came to my house to do hw and we r finding tuition teacher.
so if you have any recommendation, just tag me kayy.

chillychillychillychillychillychillychillychillychillychilly
monkeymonkeymonkeymonkeymonkeymonkeymonkeymonkeymonkeymonkey
im not thinking abt any of them anymore.
okay maybe sometimes. fine, alot of times.
but HAHAHA dont laugh , im trying to forget it.
just forget it. (im serious)

i shall end.
btw do you know this,
beautiful love can stand only for awhile

I want a boyfrienddddddddd :D

i dont know why but yeah i just wanna have one right nowww.

im so jealous whenever i see a loving couple togoether, so loving. omgggggggggggggggggg

but for this damn 2 yrs im stuck with the sickening face. how can i move on then?

i confessed before that i would move on. but what's the result?

life is life. my motto was, lead your life and dont let it lead you.

but i dont know whether i can carry on with this motto. :(

okaaaayyy todayy was CCA open housee. i woke up at 7.30

(omggggg so earlyyyyy!!!!!)

then i went met mandy and we went to the canteen.

the canteen was filled with the uniform group's booth.

there were NPCC, NCC(land), volleyball, girl guides, and NCC(air)

if im not wrong.

then i went up to the hall, Mr Boo Hian Kok was giving his long speech

so yeah we just walked ard the school and i saw chilly guy quite alot of times :]

then dione introduced me with new faces its the toilet bowl boy HAHAHA :)

we have alot of names, dont we?

the chilly guy, the sex man, the toilet bowl man, the attendace guy, bugs bunny, banana, the eye bag boy, blablabla

we went ard promoting the sec1s to join choir.

but when i came to a boy and asked him to join choir, he looked at me and laugh

candies : hello boy, join choir okay!

the boy : hey i am a boy you know!

candies: i know you are a boy, then so what?

the boy : aiyo join choir like cc liddat! (walking away)

candies: ~!@#$%^&*()_{":>}{">::

why are the boys so sensitive when they were told to join choir.

then some girls were like so 'tao' until i want to smack their face grrrrrr!!!!

we shouted and followed behind the uniform group to march ard the school.

we were like some people rioting like that HAHAHA damn funny.

we shouted like mad ," JOIN CHOIR!JOIN CHOIR!JOIN CHOIR!"

to be honest, i dont even know what's the purpose of joining choir.

& i did intend to quit choir. my god hello,! for godheavensake!

i worked so hard for this whole year and i got only 3 fcking points mygodddddddddddd

dono how the count lohhhhh they must at least give me 1 point for each hour i spent therreeeeeeeeeeeeee :S

but we did try lah okay.

we walked ard the school shouting like seeking for food HAHA

in the end we got only 11 peopleeeee so saddddddd :(

but nvm im not gonna care anywayyyyy

then aft then mel,mandy,dione and i went to Botak Jones to eat.

the cashier was so rude lah my godddd

then sth funny happened HAHA sosososo funny

i went home i slept straight awayy i dont care

after that i went to toa payoh and eattt with Olivia.

rather boring right. so i just end here.

PS: i love you

GET CHILLED HEEEE

walao im vryy irritated by the eye bag boy i feel like smacking his faceeee!!! grrrrrr. stop irrtitating me and dione and mandy okay. haiyo go and get your 20 hours sleep.!!!

hellow i saw chill guyy justt now on my way back with dioneee HAHA im very happy i dont know whyy :] someone told me sth and now i feel alot better. i wanna swimm swimm but seah and tan havent comeeee :( okay looks like the rain's gonna tearing soon HAHA i dont know what im saying

buhbye and stop laughing at that embarrassing scene okay ==.==''

today was erm monday. what a tiring day i have! we had moving monday. and we kinda planned for the cca open house. & choir practice started tmr. i feel sick. i dont wanna go to the boring practice. btw i cant go tmr also cz mommy is going back tmr and i must bring her to the airport right. yes i hope that's the valid excuse ^^.

then it was PE. we took our height and weight. i dont know why im growing shorter and shorter. & i gained 3 kgs.==.== ohoh btw agnes lost 7 kg. i wonder how she did that. in a month some more.omg im going to ask her for the tips. yeah. maybe she can publish a book. How To Reach Your Ideal Weight by Agnes Sutrisno. HAHA kinda cool isnt it!

aft that was history. its normall lesson. then it was recess. HAHA mel checked the schedule & im only having the same recess as someone once a week. oh yeah forget to tell you, dione and mandy came to my house just now wanted to see the sickening face, but they didnt get to. HAHA.

hmm. what else? i think after that was boring chinese. omg i went to 3e1 which is the hopeless class 4 chinese. i slept for the whole one hour! i missed the time when i can sleep for the whole lesson in sec2. now i dont get to. english we had a diagnostic test and amaths the teacher went as fast as MRT. i understood only a single bit.

okay i must start revising now or else i can die like the mouse in the middle of the road. HEHE <3
bbyeee happy revising ppl!

C : hey you, why you blocked me on msn?
W: did i?
C:don't act stupid i knew it. tell me why.
W: i don't like you.
C: as in?
W: i don't know how to explain it.

i dont know why this boy keeps on blocking me on msn. i rly feel fucked up by him okay. its been like a couple of times then he unblocked me agn. & now he blocks me agn. i have no idea why. when i ask him that was his answer. okay, well, blame everything on me. i shall, nope, MUST be blamed on everything OKAY. well, i understand, you can blame it on me i dont mind. to be honest, im tired of all those attitude that you guys gave me. DID I DO STH WRONG? whatever.

i went to Sim Lim Tower just now with mommy. she went to repair her spoilt projector. and we were there for quite sometimes. after that we went to orchard and walked ard. you know LV? their boutique is always packed with people. there wasnt any single day that no people queued. Zara was like a fish market. clothes everywhere and people everywhere. i bought the slippers i have been dying for.

i dono why im blogging so monoton-ly today. i have no mood you know. im not even sure that anyone wants to visit my blog. or anyone had visited my blog. i always think that people who commited suicide was the stupidest person on earth. they did that usually cz of overly depressed or facing problems that cant be solved. back then, i didnt know how they feel. but maybe now i come to understand their feeling. fuck. why am i thinking this way? fuck those assholes. fuck.



am i that unlikable?

i rly rly must thanks all those who have tried to cheer me up. all those who gave me comments and told me what to do. i feel better now. alot better. thanks noviana, anita, jessica, james. you guys rly made me smile :) noviana with the w-on-the-bed HAHA. anita with the chocolatesugar. jessica with all the HAHA, james with the nice touhing song. i rly appreciate it guys thanks so much.

what they had just told me is true. its just what i thought. my thought that has dictated me to think, act like this. you know,some people are ther help make you feel better, but some are there to make you feel worse. sad to say, he/she is the last person that ever goes to that list. what to do, yeah life is life and i must get go on.

i know some of you may feel like i do. just dont care abt it and lead your life like what you want it to be, and dont let your life to lead you.thats the most important thing. nvm if you dont understand. im just trying to make myself happy. cz thats one of my 2008 resolution. so assholes, just don't spoil my 2008.

PLEASE AND THANK YOU/

HELLO everyone can i ask you one question. okay whatever. WHY MUST I UNDERSTAND YOUR FEELINGS WHILE YOU GUYS DONT EVEN EVER UNDERSTAND MY FEELINGS? (that goes to you) everyone. AND WHY AM I THE ONE THAT ALWAYS BE LEFT OUT ALONE EVERYWHERE? maybe you are doing it without or with realising, HUH i dont rly know why you are so cold to me. and they are not only one of you. its actually a bunch of you i dont know. whatever you can say ' i didnt do that/ sorry i didnt mean it' WHATEVER. but im rly rly rly so down now. and now im asking myself, are those words 'true friends' really exist? maybe it does for some of you, but for others, you dont even recognise this word. im rly feeling the gap, guys.

not talking about them agn, now i want to congrats 1N1 for winning the best flag in the whole entire sec1. HAHA good work guys.! and congrats for 1N2 for winning the best cheer and the best collection. congrats to nicole for winning the best PSL, congrats to gladys for winning the best camp commitee. :) 1N1, sorry if during this camp, i've done something wrong, shout at you, scolded you, or maybe hurt your feelings. sorry okay, & i hope you can enjoy your secondary school life like i did.

i dont feel like blogging now cz i rly can scratch anyone's face right now. and that sickening faces shown up just now. oh my it completed my anger.

PS: whether you do it with/without purpose, you hurt my feelings.
just for you to know.

OKAY my nails look short fat and retarded now. of course aftah i cut ittt. omgomg im so sad its been so long and i have to cut it cz tmr Mr Jay Cheong is going to check on it. sosososo im so sad. 350% sad. :(

okay i show you some pictures of my nails. farewell nailyy.

tan hui chi will say its disgusting and they look like worms.

my nails after i cut them off D:

okay since im so sad now why dont i just upload more pictures so i can brighten up myself. this is one way to chill myself down. *menghibur diri* (i dont know what is the english words laah)

Happy Bday Don Marco Sutanto

he is my brother btw/

okay now i dont feel like posting anymore cz momy just scolded me. junia wanted her to bring sth and i just want to help my friend. so if thats the case then dont scold me cz i dont want ppl to think that im not helpful and she doesnt want to help me when im in need. so i dont want anymore. dont ask for my help if its involving my mother. enough enough of scoldings.

i am angry. now and dont distract me or else you cant see your face tmr. okay. my adrenaline speed s running up.

you know, sec3 starts, means i must work hard from now on. or else i will see all the roses in my report card. and i obviously dont want that to happen. i promised my mom that i will do my best and make her proud and i swear i wont disappoint her. mom you can keep my promise. im not like some sickening face people who doesnt keep his promise. :)

OHHH OMGOMG MOMYMIA!! i feel like throwing myself into the swimming pool and flow to nowhere. HEEHEE. i dono why today i feel so fucked up whether its in school or what. but being with my friends, i think they were able to calm me down and now i am okay.

HAHA i tell you something.this post is like for 2 hours alr. i was typing halfway and suddenly they asked me to tag along cz they wanted to go library. so yeah i went. and aft i came back here now i am HEHE trying to finish my post. okay

i seriously have no idea how i am going to deal with all the sec1s tmr. you know just now i tried to talk to them, but all they did was just smiling. OMG i can die. seriously. i need some help from some PSL senior. but not the sex guy for sure. and yeah tmr camp, no electronic devices are allowed. get it.

Quote of the day : can die one leh

i dont know why but i keep on saying this quote for like maybe 743256543247897654 times today. HAHA can die one leh. very funny.

SO, how was your first day of school? everyone was excited and me too! but im kinda sad cz im not sitting with all the e3 anymore. its more like a new class, new classmate, new classroom, new sitting position. everything new. i feel kinda weird cz my classmates are mostly new to me. i am afraid that i cant adapt and this class wont be as united as e3. i rly hope i can click with them well.

i came to school with mandy. didnt see the sickening face. then we proceeded to hall. Ms Fauziah was giving like all kinds of instructions and rules and one very funny part when she was talking abt the girls skirt. she says :' if you are not sure of the length of your skirt, come and find me, i will draw for you.' AHAHAH that time i was like laughing so hard. i dono why and the rest of the day just went so boringly. PSL briefings, classes, and the day just went boringly. i can die.

after school, went to popular with mela and mandy to find our files. and after that went to eat KFC. mela went off to meet her mommy while mandy and i headed to my house. we talked for awhile then i just sent her to bus stop and here i am blogging.

i seriously think that my sec3 life is going to be tough and plain. monoton. please tell me how can i colour it up? and oh btw how can i deal with all the silence sec1?

i feel so lonely now cz no one is online and im talking to mandy. actually we have nothing to talk about. as tmr school repoens, i will see all the sickening faces agn. i mean some of them are sickening. you know, the one i meet everyday at the bus stop. the very very sickening dog face. oh emily my emily i wanna meet you tmr i cant wait! ohoho. i miss you.

i listening to songs, downloading songs,editing pictures, and blogging. HAHA i feel very weird cz just now i studied. yeah i studied omgomg! geography some more. i dono why im so studious. i thought i wont be studious after i am back at sg. but i think im wrong. i am half happy half sad. i want to feel a new environment. you know, new house,new room,new laptop yeah. i has been so saddening cz i can't move to anywhere. mommy says she doesnt allow me to move to anyone's place cz she trusts this guardian. (woek).im so sad. so sick. i feel fucked up i dono why. hehe maybe school will make me better or worst, lets see tmr.!

bahbah i dono what im posting SO boredd. i went to toa payoh just now with andrew. ate KFC and bought some books for him. he is feeling jubilant now cz he is accepted to MacPherson. but im so sad cz he can't tell them that im his sister cz i was blacklisted from MacPherson. cz i transferred to Beatty. well yeah whatever. but i feel happy for him.

HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE! byebye 2007!

firstly, i want to thank everyone that has made my 2007 a meaningful and memorable one. be it friends, family, relatives or what. i thank you to the deepest ocean in the world. i love you guys so much and please dont forget everything that we've gone through together. as a team, as a pair, or as a group (whatever). although some of you may pissed me or i pissed you, you are forgiven and forgive me. okay i dont know what am i talking about. i just one this new fresh year can be better than the year before. and everyone become wiser and all the bad attitudes were brought by 2007 so this 2008 there will be no, or maybe less bad attitudes showing. :)

okay, before i forget, thank you to those who gave me chrismas present. i really love them so much please dont forget that whenever you need me i will always be there for you. and 2e3, thanks for being such a good class that you guys made me feel accepted. everything that we did, be it the bads or goods one, just seems so precious now. yeah we cant turn back time, thats why we can only flashed it back. class performance, be yourself day, racial harmony day, valentines day, exams, excursions, crying moments, laughing moments. whether we realise it or not, that things that we did bond us closer and we became more and more united. and of course i made a real good friends there. mandy,melissa,dione,james,hocksiong,emily,lay,tianyang,nicole, nengjie,muizhen, charlene,denise,kelvin and some more that i cant list out one by one. beatty has been such a good school. it doesn't only give me knowledges, it alo gave me experiences,challenges,pressures, and yeah friends. agnes,stephanie,monica,noviana,anita,junia,olivia,casey,jessica,myta, are those that also had made my day.

last but not least, my family. mom,dad,my naughty lil brother, and cute lil brother, they really tought me alot and you know last time i used to be an egois person. maybe i still have it now, but i came to realise that egoism doesnt give me and benefits. its all cz of them, trying to open my eyes and all yeah i just cant say anything else, i feel so embarrassed that people made alot of things for me, i didnt do anything for them.

2008 means i am one year older, i must grow more mature, be more realistic, and dont be childish. maybe one way i will prove it, i wont stuck in this very feeling that i actually like a jerk. HAHA when i came to think about it, i feel so disgusted. how can i like someone like that. the word 'promise' opened my eyes, that he isn't deserved to be loved. Promise is a big word and maybe he doesn't even understand what the word really means. when you say 'i promise', means you must really fulfill it, mustn't you? an one incident, makes me realise that he doesn't recognise promise as a word. whatever im saying. im done here. i gotta go my own way. from now on, i will just laugh at myself. how stupid i was,liking someone so horrible.? and what my friends said was true.

i feel alot better aft i wrote this long. my goal this year, is to flip more pages of books.