:)

Yo. I'm back. Good. Haha full now. Eaten.
My day pretty much sucked today because i forgot to bring sth impt so it kinda made me feel uneasy until Mandy my saviour saved my day! Love you Man. Haha

I was very frustated during Choir haha. I just felt like storming out of the room before Ms Pua finished today's session. She still wanted to talk to me. Ugh. I don't know. Thank god only 5 more practices left. Can't wait for the moment of freedom from choir!!!

Okay then after that I met Arwin at the gate cz he came to school to collect sgc. I couldn't recognise him at first cz he's so dark now. Hahaha then Agnes and I wanted to go to buy Bubble Tea but because of the cat on top, we were stucked for idk how long. Then we had this tootles walking competition when we walked 0.1cm/s. Good huh. Yeah and i'm home.

I had good food today so let's hope my brain can cooperate cz it hasn't been working when its supposed to these few days and i'm quite concerned since i have two tests tmr. *cross your finger!*

Okay bye. Arwin you suck!

I have to get rid of anything that reminds me of him.
Unfortunately, that'd be everything

www.straightjacketfeeling.wordpress.com

You'll never understand. Because you're so used to the glamour. So used to being admired, being known and everything. Oh you don't know how people feel. Or maybe you simply don't care. You're so used to being on top. Even when you walked into a new school, by the end of the day, everybody know who you are. And when you logged into Facebook, hundreds of your schoolmates added you. Yeah, you have that kind of life. But not everybody does. Sometimes i think your life is pitiful. Since you've already gotten everything, you never learn. You never appreciate what you have. You look down on other people, you think you're the best thing that has ever existed because you have the coolest style. You underestimate your friend because you think they can never be as good as you are. But isn't that perfection defeat the purpose of you, living? Sometimes i don't get it, why do people crave for popularity and admiration so much, that they tend to overlook other things that may be more important than those 'spotlight'. You cover yourself entirely with branded stuffs from head to toe, only want the perfect and only ask for the best. I'm not saying that its wrong to be 'branded' or to be wealthy. But for me, that's just one way of you to bury your self-esteem. You throw on those expensive stuffs to boost your confidence, to hide your flaws. I thought we ought to be ourselves? I think these people are just trying too hard. 

I find this world very, very unfair. Some people are extremely overwhelmed by wealth, often taking their richness for granted. But they don't think of the needy ones. While you're deciding if you should take this Prada bag or that Channel tote, or BOTH, others might be suffering from starvation, can't even eat three meals per day. Ugh, they don't even get a chance. But they deserve a chance! Can this place be a better place to live in? Not only for those starving-to-death people, but for others that, you might not know, need some love. 

Honestly, i'm really sick of this. How to make it better?

Tell me why, you're so hard to forget

Memories are supposed to fade

Long post sia.

Yo. I woke up early in the morning to have chinese my most beloved subject tuition, and after that, i did my chinese newspaper essay, and finished my laundry, and now i'm moving on to emaths! Then at night, i'll do my long overdued amaths coordinate geometry. Then after tuition i will do a bit of chem and i will go to sleep. I have to stick to this plan no matter what!! I wanna excel (ahem ahem) yea.

So yesterday was my dearest Stefanie Kurnia Jaya's birthday. (I'll leave out the pentolan this time haha) Yeap. So i told her the previous night that we will all celebrate her birthday in the morning cz we all can't make it at night, so she told me she'll wake up earlier. Agnes and I were supposed to be quarrelling so that she would think we wouldn't celebrate her birthday. So the next morning she called me and i was still sleeping. i could tell she was angry la cz she woke up so early to wait for us but none came HAHAHAHA okay then after that she went out to meet the aunty and ard 730pm we changed to emergency plan cz her schedule was brought forward hahahaha yeah. Agnes and I rushed to buy her cake and Jesslyn fetched Bobby and Vincent. They stayed in position, then i called her, 

C: Stef, hehe, sorry ah just now all of us couldn't wake up that's why we never come

S: Walao go die la youu i wake up at 8 just to wait for you guys leh!!

C: Sorry la that's why to make it up, you come down now, we go to 711 i treat you k.

S: Heh? Now ah?

C: Yeah i'm downstairs alrd. Faster (before i change my mind)

S: okok i come down now.

Soooooo, they all gathered behind the wall and tried to light up the candle but the stupid wind kept blowing and they gave up. i hate wind when it comes to lighting up candles hahaha. okay so she went down, and i pulled her to their hiding ground and we sang happy birthday, a few people stared at us, and the security guard never failed to join as extra(that's what happened to william's birthday also) haiyaa. then we went to her house and ate and had this mini whipped cream war and so yeah. i had fun la. idk if she had fun. (i hope so) Then after that lisa came and we played card game, this hit-the-card-when-the-number-mentioned-appear kinda game so obviously I made a lot of noises and her maid got irritated so we went to swimming pool and apparently, the security guard got irritated there. 

Sometimes i just feel like slapping those annoying busybody security guards that never fail to say, 'Who's the resident here? May i talk to you for a second? What's your unit number? What's your phone number? Please don't make so much noise.' AS IF OUR CHIPMUNK VOICE ISN'T SOFT ENOUGH SO YOU WANT WHAT, PREGNANT TIGER VOICE? WEWE GOMBEL MIGHT AS WELL YOU GO DIE!! EVERYTIME HAVE TO DISTURB PEOPLE'S FUN!! DEPRIVED CHILDHOOD HUH I CAN SEE! WHO ASK YOU SO ANNOYING!!!! I HATE TRELLIS TOWER'S SECURITY GUARDS!! (okay not all but most and the one that top the list is the scrawny, skeletal, almost  bald-headed man!!! 

Okay so we didn't care la. Played several card games and the loser had to have whipped cream facial treatment. Jesslyn got twice, Lisa got once, and Bobby got, twice. Yeap funnn. Then the usual camwhore moments. The guys left, left the girls, and we had girls talk, discussed about the current issue(yeah kinda serious) and other matter and then Agnes and Lisa decided to stay over so i think they stayed at Jesslyn's. Yeah i got home and received a text that made me unable to sleep for the whole night because i was bungee jumping inside :D 

Ps: Thank you for everything,:):).

Pps : I hope you guys enjoy yourself. 

Moment of truth

C: He isn't like other guys.

S: Exactly! Other guys are better!

Ah, i bet she got that from a book or something, but it was totally true. Well, what can i say, she sees thing from my opposite point of view. Yeah. Great, S.

I miss your phone calls. That ringtone hasn't been ringing for long.

Yo

Those are pictures of us trying to annoy the security guard. Haha

Those pictures are attempts of us trying to be, you know! Haha okay its so retarded. Its for me to laugh at myself. Bye

Ps. I hate William

I don't know, i think so, i'm overly sensitive. 

Anw,

HAPPY BIRTHDAY STEFANIE!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY STEFANIE!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY STEFANIE!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY STEFANIE!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY STEFANIE!

HAPPYBIRTHDAY STEFANIE!

love you alotzzz banana boat crazy partner!

Rockon!!!

A feeling my heart just can't deny.

Why do i have to fall so hard? 

I don't feel like blogging actually. Somebody is absent from msn.

goodbye

You always know the right thing to say and do to trigger those memories.
Please don't. They hurt.

ARGH !!!!!!!!!!!!

Stop this i hate myself.

Quote of the Day

Quote of the Day

"To some point, I now believe that one can never achieve everything. Maybe you can, and if you can, then consider yourself lucky. If you can't, you're very lucky."

-for those who can't get everything will always try harder, and so they'll keep on learning...which is good. when you already have everything, then what else is there to have and work for?

Ah, i got this from Diana's blog i think its really inspiring. :) 

Keep your head down

Happy Birthday Valerie Quek Huei Min!!!!!!

Love you to bits and pieces and parcels. You're the best pepper consultant! My chilli hunting partner! Ahhhhh we have to resume our hunting again! I hope you enjoy today :)

I sneaked out of my house, rushing after tuition with my PJs on. Omg i swear i look like a runaway chicken dumpling omg. Haha changed then met Mandy, Joshua then Dione @ J8 and we took 58, met Mel on the bus. 

When we reached her condo, we tried to blow the balloon but some bursted so, we created noises and many neighbours complain! (annoying). We hid behind the wall while Joshua called her down. Ah, something dramatising happened and we went ahead singing her happy birthday song. Ahhh i think she was surprised cz she told Joshua, something that made us ROFL. Hahaha so cute la. So we went to her house and took pictures, ate the cake, and home with Dione and Joshua. Lucky he's smart enough to walk back or else Dione may have to call the police! HAHAHA. Okay good. Photos are up. Good. My job's done.

:) Sweet





We just can't get enough


Do you love her hawaiian hat?




Love you Quek! (L)

National Youth Business Challenge 22.03.09
Top view 

Mrs Peters and Mrs Ho
She's very cute la
Wth.
Look at me. tired
Our boothhhhhh

Beatty Secondary, please step backwards




Whoooo i'm proud of you guys!
:)


Ahhh thanks people for the support!

I just wanna thank those who supported us, spiritually, physically, and even involuntarily. I love you guys a lot. Even those who can't make it but bothered to text me a support msg. I'm super touched people! People like Mel, Cwei, Sarah, Sera, Shahnas, Yongkui, May, and many more. Teachers that came to support us, Mr Boo. They came down to help us :) and thanks Ms Leow for supporting me throughout the whole presentation! And those who texted me like, Arwin, Monica, Stef and many more! Love you guys to bits and buts! We won't achieve this without your support! Trillion thanks! 

PS: ah, pepper. 

I have to come to the point where crying out loud doesn't help anymore.

DAMN

I'm still feeling terribly angry and pissed. I don't know what that person wants. I don't even have to breath to scream, to curse, to bitch about that person(whoever you are). I totally have no faintest idea who this freak is. Whatever. Do whatever you want. Its already messy so even though you want to mess it up, it won't make a difference. It'll just be worse. 

Besides the fact that my legs felt disjointed from my body, and i had to crawl to my bed, my eyes were extremely big, like a punched frog (you probably know why). So i didn't go to school. I couldn't sleep last night even though i know i have nothing to worry about because it wasn't from me, but still,

UGH MY GUARDIAN JUST CAME IN AND SHE ASKED WHY DID I LIE TO MY MOTHER AND WHY DID I ALWAYS COME HOME SO LATE ALMOST EVERYDAY AND DO I REALLY COME BACK TO SCHOOL AND DO PROJECT. SHE THOUGHT I WAS LYING. SHE THOUGHT I WAS LYING. SHE REALLY THOUGHT I WAS LYING. THEY THOUGHT I WAS LYING. ALL THIS WHILE I HAVE BEEN TELLING THEM WHERE I GO AND I THOUGHT I HAVE THEIR TRUST BUT THEY SUSPECT THAT I DON'T DO PROJECT BUT I END UP IN SOMEWHERE ELSE. WHAT THE HELL CAN YOU TRUST ME? IT IS THE LEAST I NEED, WHEN WE ARE THIS FAR AWAY. I HAVEN'T SORT OUT YESTERDAY'S BLOODY INCIDENT AND NOW YOU HAVE TO WORRY ME AGAIN AND DO YOU THINK I CAN COMPLETE MY HOMEWORK IN THIS KIND OF CONDITION? I TOTALLY HAVE HAD ENOUGH OKAY. I DON'T NEED ANYMORE PRESSURE FROM YOU GUYS, FROM STUPID HACKER, FROM SCHOOL, AND FROM ANYONE ELSE. AND YOU LET ME LEAD MY LIFE PEACEFULLY I TOTALLY CAN'T TAKE THIS ANYMORE. DAMN WHAT KIND OF LIFE IS THIS AND WHY AM I THE ONE LIVING IT. I WAS ALREADY TIRED BEYONG ANY EXTEND AND FOR GOD'S SAKE I NEED MY SLEEP AND YOU CALL ME WHEN I'M ASLEEP, ASKED ME THIS AND THAT, AND WHEN I SAID I WAS ASLEEP AND TO CALL ME LATER, YOU THOUGHT I DIDN'T WANT TRO TALK TO BYOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! CAN YOU BE A LITTLE MORE UNDERSTANDING I'M SO MESSED UP NOW I STILL HAVE PILES OF HOMEWORK PLEASE. I REALLY BEG YOU. MOM, WHY? I THOUGHT YOU ARE UNDERSTANDING BUT WHY CAN'T YOU LET ME SLEEP AND JUST GIVE ME A LITTLE TRUST IN THIS? I KNOW YOU'RE WORRIED OF ME AND I THANK YOU FOR THAT,  BUT KNOW YOUR LIMIT. I DON'T LIKE BEING PUSHED LIKE THIS. AND RELAX, I AM NOT CHILDISH. I DON'T DO STUPID STUFF. AND DONT WORRY I'M NOT GOING TO END MY LIFE. INSTEAD OF THINKING THAT I DON'T WANT TO TALK TO YOU AND FORCING ME TO TALK TO YOU WHEN I'M SLEEPING, WHY NOT YOU COMFORT ME FOR EVERYTHING AND MAYBE A LITTLE WARM SUPPORT. I DON'T GET THAT MOM. AND WHERE CAN I GET THAT APART FROM YOU? I REALLY LOVE YOU BUT I AM A HUMAN TO. I HAVE TO BE A GOOD DAUGHTER AND TEAMMATES AT THE SAME TIME MOM SO CAN YOU LOOSEN A LITTLE BIT? I THINK YOU'RE WISE ENOUGH RIGHT.

AND YOU. WHOEVER YOU ARE. I STILL DON'T KNOW WHO YOU ARE. BUT IN CASE YOU

RE OBSERVING FROM BEHIND YOU COMPUTER WHAT I AM TYPING, I'M TELLING YOU, DON'T DO THIS ANYMORE. ONLY UNEDUCATED PEOPLE DO THIS AND SINCE YOU CAN HACK PEOPLE'S COMPUTER TO THIS EXTENT, I'M PRETTY SURE YOU'RE WELL EDUCATED. WHAT KIND OF PEOPLE SEND DISGUSTING PHOTO LIKE THAT UNDER MY NAME?!?! YOU MAY BE DOING THIS FOR THE NAME OF FUN, BUT REALLY, TRUTHFULLY THIS ISN'T FUN AT ALL. I HAVE NO TIME FOR THIS SHIT. 

AND B, I ALREADY KNOW EVERYTHING AND THERE'S NO USE EXPLAINING, SO CONGRATULATIONS, AND I HOPE YOU DO WELL, WITH, YEAH. STOP TRYING TO EXPLAIN IT'S USELESS. MAYBE IT'S BETTER THIS WAY

Whoever you are doing this, please uh this isn't something fun. Go and die. Why do you have to like, do this kind of low-class act. I don't like this and i feel extremely insulted. It's like, what the hell, you didn't do that, but it came under your name, and no matter how much you tried to deny, it still seems like you sent it. Please i know you're good in hacking and digging people's privacy, but, just mind your own business? This is not even privacy, this is piracy. What people will think of me if they found out? I feel really humiliated by this, but i have no way to prove it so i can do nothing.

Don't make me look like a sicko or freak, even though i know that's your main intention. Wasn't the previous incidents enough for you to have a good laugh? Just, step OUT of my life, whoever you are

I feel thankful

Thanks Arwin for cheering me up. 

:)

Pictures

So i'm kinda bored and got nothing to do haha i don't feel like sleeping. So might as well i post the photos right right haha k. This is Kelvin's Bday pictures.