find the acceleration

Heyyoooooo! Long day in school just now. I almost died of hunger. Of sleepiness. Of exhaustion. Imagine, after four periods of maths, i had to have 2 hours of chinese. I almost died and idk. Oral's in two days' time and i'm so unprepared. I don't want to screw it. Anyway who want to.

Reached home i went to jess's room to talk and gozzip so i had dinner later than usual, and i realised i still have tonnes of homework await me. Look at those chipmunks. What a free life they have! Anw i'm done w emaths prelim paper. I wanted to smack mr ng just now. I stayed up to do the stupid rev prac 12 and he didn't even ask for it. :( i could've done my SS or sleep in earlier. :(:(

You're really cute my dear.

edit.


Candies ; kenapa.kamu.imut.sekaleeeeee says (10:37 PM):
omg if only someone also captured MY moment....
OUR moment
the moment of LOVE
Dione likes her beer cold and her tv loud. says (10:37 PM):
OMGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG
Candies ; dione let's climb the tower of love together says (10:37 PM):
look at my nick
Dione likes her beer cold and her tv loud. says (10:38 PM):
IM SO NOT TALKING TO LOVE GODDESS

HAHAHAHAHA i'm still laughing

Tweeeeeeeeeeeeet

Heyyyyyy i'm super stressed now. I haven't do my homework, all thanks to Oliv hehehe. Went out with her after going to library and then we had super late lunch @ crystal jade and ugh i miss the act-cute girl teehaaaa. Then we went around and i bought TWO headband i'm so screwed right. uh mom i promise i won't spend so much anymore. Promise *pinky swear*

I'm kinda in no mood to study esp with my house so noisy ughughugh. OK not study, do homework. I still have tons to do omg i better go now or not i can kiss my pillow goodbye for tonight.

TO-DO LIST!:
.English Situational Writing
.Chemistry Alkanes&Alkenes (wth is that?!?@$)
.SS full paper
.Emaths chapter 5
.Amaths 9.1
.History full paper
Chemistry Fuels (that's long overdue)\
.English Vocab
.Emaths Rev Prac 12

Die die die bye bye bye

edit./
done:
english situational writing
half way thru em rev prac 12.

still need to do:
amaths 9.1
chem alkanes alkenes
chem fuel

TELL ME HOW NOT DEAD I AMMM

when leo meets leo

OH MY GOD.
OH MY GOD.
OH MY GOD.
OH MY GOD.
OH MY GOD.

CHINESE GCE O LEVEL ORAL IS THIS THRUSDAY FOR ME.
AIN'T I DEAD? I HAVEN'T BEEN TALKING IN CHINESE AND AND I DON'T EVEN KNOW THAT ORAL'S THIS SOON. I THINK I'M GOING TO SCREW IT. SOME MORE I'M LIKE, THE FIRST DAY KIND OMIGOD OMIGOD OMIGOD ORAL ORAL ORAL HOW HOWHOWHOW. I CAN'T EVEN SPEAK PROPERLY, LET ALONE READ THE PASSAGE. HOW LONG HAVE I BEEN MISSING MY CHINESE BOOKS. OHOHOH TIME TO DIG OUT MY CHINESE BOOK.
THAT'S ONE THING. ANOTHER THING, I AM AFRAID I CAN'T FINISH MY ORAL IN TIME TO GO TO AIRPORT BECAUSE UM APPARENTLY MY FLIGHT TO KL IS AT LIKE WTH 1940 SO I...I DONT KNOWW HOWHOWHOW I'M SO FRIGGIN DEAD DEAD DEAD TO THE MAX. SOMEBODY HELP ME......!!!!!!!!!!!!!(*&%$%#&^$&%*&%*&$#@*&
THAT'S ANOTHER THING. ANOTHER ONE, YEEHAAA SHE'S BACK WITH A LIP RING AND FIVE COLOURS IN HER HAIR. HAHAHA NO LA STILL NO RING AND ONE COLOUR. BUT...THE PROBLEM IS, SORRY UH, I'M SO USED TO LIVING W/O HER AND I CAN PUT MY STUFF ALL OVER THE PLACE AND DO WHATEVER I WANT AND SLEEP WHEREVER I FEEL LIKE.. THEN... NOW... I CAN'T EVEN BLAST THE MUSIC, I CAN'T EVEN LOL, I CAN'T PARADE IN MY ROOM ANYMOREEEEEEEEEEEEEE. NOT THAT I DON'T LIKE HER PRESENCE. SHE'S CUTE ANYWAY *HOEK* SORRY BUT IT JUST FEELS DIFFERENT WITH SOMEONE AND W/O SOMEONE IN YOUR ROOM UH I GUESS.
THEN TEH LAST ZING. MY MY MY ANOTHER TALKING LIVING CHIPMUNK IN THE HOUSE. HAIZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZ I RECKON I'M JUST DESTINIED TO LIVE WITH CHIPMUNKS. THANKYOUVERYMUCH MY BLOG IS BORING HOH.

listen to the beat and play along

Heyyyyyy i wuz bored to the max then i decided to explore my wardrobe and take pictures of them hehhehe okay my poses are weird i know but i'm not photomodel AND photogenic so pardon me hehe a little entertainment for moiself and mayb when i'm having headache choosing my outfit, i can come here hehehehe. Ok so you can actually see how messy my room is hehehe pardon moi again. I'm juz too bored laaaaaaa and i can't sleep yaya i know i should do my hw instead rightzo haha i know also but i dont want. Erm eh i have dance class which i haven't go for one thousand years so i better go if not Morning can kick my ass. (that's my instructor's name)

I want to go to school but i'll probably get chased out so byebye i'm sleeping whoaaa sleepy.

i got the point

Hey, good luck. You will do well.

seems like just yesterday i was laughing with you

I haven't been in a good shape lately. And i freaked myself out this morning. I didn't sleep the whole night yesterday because my brother's departure was at 7am. So i went to airport with him. I went home with MRT. I really didn't know what was up with me. I took MRT to Tanah Merah, then blindly took the wrong train to Pasir Ris and i alighted at Tampines. I walked out of the MRT station and just walk and walk until I didn't even know where i was anymore. I was very scared because it's still early in the morning and not many people were around. It's like, i didn't even know what i was doing, where i was going. I just kept...thinking. Until i got lost and the station was out of sight. I didn't know how to get back bcz i've only been to Tampines twice so i took a cab back. Ugh and then the cab fare was about $14 but i gave the uncle $54 and just came out of the taxi like i didn't expect any change. Luckily the taxi driver was honest, he gave me back my $40. Ugh i was like a walking corpse. Then i went home, on my air-con, silent my phone, and had a real deep sleep until like 7pm. I totally didn't get myself today.

Because my laptop was repaired, i lost some of my documents. And some of them are precious. Like all those funny pictures we drew and those retarded photos that we chanced upon. :( i lost them. I was very miserable but then i realised i cannot be because this just means i have to take the past as memories. I have to move on. No more imissyou-s.

So say it isn't so

Hey i'm still awake because i planned to stay up until 5 then bring my brother to airport, then i go home and sleep all the way. But i'm kinda sleepeh and tired hehehezz so i think after this post i'm gna just sleep sleep sleep. Ugh don't be surprised, but i'm kinda pink crazed nowadays hahaha maybe because i googled barbie too much teehee :)

I wanna spill something. Sometimes i think my brother is treated, unfairly. Like how he was pulled back from studying in singapore, because my parents thought he couldn't cope. Then how he always gets to use second-hands. Be it from me, my mother, or father. I feel kinda bad. No. I feel really bad. I realised mostly, whatever i asked for, whatever i want, will be granted, will be fulfilled. But my brother, I often think my parents looked down on him and treat him unfairly. I mean, he's their son but he's not being priotized. Like, i just told my mom that his phone fails and prolly he can't contact her and she started saying that he can't take care of things, everything goes wrong in his hands and let him use the old technologically challenged phone. Then i looked at my phone, and my heart skipped a bit, how i'm using a BlackBerry while my poor brother only gets to use fugly big phone. He's playful, yes. But i think nobody has the right to completely control him. While he's here, they constantly check on him, which may be a good thing, but when they overly do that, it feels a bit too much. No days without scolding for him. I feel really really bad. I know he feels outrageous inside but he always has no chance to talk it out. And what makes it worst, I think i'm treated quite the opposite. I have the freedom and the trust from my parents. Something that i think my brother quite deserves it as well. He didn't say anything when i came back home all overjoyed and proud, holding a BlackBerry, just a mere sentence, "Can i take a look?". He was over the moon when my mom allowed him to buy a Nike shoes he's been longing for. And frankly speaking, if it were me asking for that pair of shoes, it won't take me long to get her agreement.

I know he'd been begging for god knows how long to be able to come to singapore and visit his friends. My parents finally allowed but that was accompanied by thousands of must-fulfil promises and rules and restrictions. I thought it was scary. When we're going out with our own friends, i notice i always get more money than he does. He didn't even complain. Like, i get twice of the amount he got, but i spend it alone, while he had to share with my other brother. My mother never restricts me from going with friends and didn't get all mad when i use the house phone too long. But she'd scream her lungs off when my brother gets home a minute later or when she caught him lying in his bed talking on the phone. I mean, what's wrong with talking on the phone with friends, or even girlfriend? I know i earned my parents trust hard and they think i'm grown up enough to take care of myself. But shouldn't they give my brother a chance as well? Can't they just take it as the immaturity of a young boy and lack of responsibility he has? Sometimes i wonder whether my parents grasped the idea of teenagehood or they're just preventing my brother from having one.

I love my brother. And i really hope he lives a happy life.

because of you

I don't know why i can't put everything behind and just freaking move on.
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
why. why do i feel so shitty. why is it this feeling again!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

you know the words so sing along baby

my brother is going back tomorrow morning, i'm very sad because the fact that all the times he's here, i think i haven't spend my time fruitfully with him. i'm gonna miss him and althou we're meeting again very very soon i'm still very sad because you know he's still the best roomate and uh yea i'm really sad because he's going back and i'll be all alone, noone to talk to in the room and everything. see, you always take things or people for granted when they're aroud. idk where he is now but surprisingly he came back early today so yea i was quite glad. idk why i'm typing this but one more time, i really wish he doesn't need to go back and i can have him as roomate forever because that's yea.

I stayed home the whole day so you probably know how BORED i am. I'm talking shits and i should probably grab sth to eat because i have been starving myself since morning

I'm such a lazyyyy pig. I'm sorry. I'm supposed to go to ko shendy's place @ 10am but I overslept and now I'm still lazing ard, haven't bathe some more. Anyway, my laptop is fixed, by the almighty ko shendy hahaha see I don't need to go all the way to chinatown and got stared as if I'm naked hahahaha.

Call me lame, but I never want to wear revealing clothes that show too much skin because I feel insecure haha and you know you just feel like slapping those man that stare at you from head to toe as if you're idk what. Yup ytd I went to chinatown, wanted to repair my laptop. The technician looked at me disgustingly and wildly omgee idk how to describe la huh I got very scared, and the place was quite remote and his boss talked to me for daaaaaaaaamn long so it gave him more time to whatever ew I don't want to think of it bcz its just gross and ew and ew. I don't understand. I don't look like a striptease dancer nor did I wear 'kurang bahan' aka revealing clothes. Uhhh what did I wear... I wore my father's collar shirt long sleeve, a short and stockings and flats. So? Weird right. Uh okay forget it. I'm never going back there.

I should bathe and go to ko shendy's place to take my laptop then go home and complete my holiday assignments. Sher just cancelled our date ugh I'm quite pissed byebye

get your people to call my people

You know the feeling when you open your eyes, and as you come back into consciousness you remember something...and you take a moment to distinguish if it's a dream or if it really happened? And you realized, to you wonderment, it really happened.

That's how I felt when I woke up and remembered how you used to be so sweet and caring. When you'd be all crazy and high, we would just talk about anything under the sky. It is hard knowing that you aren't the same anymore. Its hard you know. You thought you know somebody well enough that you thought you know what he's thinking. But then you realized you don't know that person, at all. And it becomes obvious when you quarrelled and said hurtful things to each other. And you thought you could call it off and end everything but then you realise you can't because you just miss that person real badly.
In time like this I wish you never stepped into my life.

f pissed

I'm so pissed. So damn frigging bloody pissed. Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhh. My laptop spoils again. I just kicked it. I felt like throwing it down into the swimming pool. Damn fcking annoying y' know. I just got it bck a few weeks and its alrd like this. Same fault some more. Uhhhhhh I hate dell. Annoying annoying!!!!!!!!!!! I can't stand it. How!!!!!!

Gives you hell

At hueimin's. Trying very, very hard not to let her sleep. Thank God so far she hasn't. She just hit me with a pillow because i played loud music and she can't sleep. Ha ha ha ha ha i'm so happy.

Anyway, I'm quite angry. If that's the way you're going to treat me, then I will issue you a one way ticket out of my life. You don't need to act all ignorant and disgusting because you know what, you're long forgotten.

I HATE PEOPLE WHO THINK THEY ARE PHOTOGENIC

Hello i'm at quek's now. Looking at banana's photo. I'm staying over at her place tonight and she's busy playing restaurant city and neglecting me :( and i'm hungry already. What a bad host.

Anyway, i stayed at sherly's last night and it was really fun. We played throughout the night and watch the movie-The Art of Seduction. HAHAHA we couldn't stop laughing because the movie was super funny. Then this japanese movie Tegami, we couldn't finish it because it jammed halfway, now i'm curious which girl the guy will end up with. I hope it'll be the cute one. :)

Sher has a really cute dog her name is cookie. haha she's the first dog that i cuddle. I mean, except for the dog i used to have. she's cute but sher just doesn't like her. What a bad master.

HUEIMIN I'M HUNGRY.!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Oh yea i'm quarantined. All Indos are quarantinesd. Hahaha we're banned from beatty whoo means no need to go for lessons heheheheheh.

Ps. I wish you'd mean whatever you've got to say.

look @ my disgusting fringe

Look @ my disgusting fringe. It keeps poking my eyes and covering one of them i look like, ahem, ahlian. Its very annoying, i just want to cut it off but then again, i will look like a nun so forget it. Uhhhhhhh.

I have school tomorrow and noone agrees that rocks.

Anyway, went shopping with quek and dione. i bought two hats. i'm like a hat freak hahahaha. then i bought a bag from mango, quek also! haah very happy :) then mandy came, dione and quek left. mandy got a yellow sexy dress and i got nothing hehehe. okay i'm very tired. i met agnes stef and bobby just now i vry happy! :)

SCHOOL SUCKS. MY FRINGE AS WELL

Ps.

There's often this someone, someone who you look forward to meet, to catch up with, to joke around with. Someone who will keep you motivated, someone who made your day so easily and decisively. this someone who will be there whenever you need to talk, and make things better and simpler just by sitting beside you, listening to whatever you've got to say. someone, who knows you in and out, someone who carefreely confide in you, or vice versa, giving each other trust. someone who could make you smile when the rest of the world didn't manage to, someone you're so confortable with. someone who, you wish, you wish would mean what he said, or...pretending to mean it. There are just times when i wish you never exist. Like the time when you start to put me off, unfairly.

my boyfriend is hospitalised.

I'm a happy girl today! Happy! (:(:

Let me explain my title first. Okay so i was driving. Then idk why i'm always always so unlucky, i got caught by the traffic police. As usual, he asked for my driving license and i used the old tricks.

Police: May i see your license?

Me: Oh wait. (ransack my bag)

Me: (put on a pleading look) um sorry i kinda forget to bring my wallet.

Police: Huh? Kinda?

Me: Yes. I forget. Um can i go plz. My boyfren is come in the hospital, that's why i rushed and forget to bring my wallet. Plz i might not be able to see him again. You'd do me a great favour if you let me go.

Police: But you can't drive w/o driving license!

Me: I know i know. But i didn't do anything wrong and you caught me. Besides i'm rushing, yea.

Police: Fine, but at least give me so $$

Me: I dont bring wallet, how to give you?

Police: (Rub his jaw) ok i let you go, but plz rmb to bring ur license next time.

Me: :D okay bye! (brum and tancapppppp)

Hahaha, the truth is,

1. I don't have driving license.

2. I don't forget to bring my wallet, its safe in my bag

3. No one is hospitalised.

4. I don't have boyfriend.

5. I just don't want to give my precious money for him

6. Because i really didn't do anything wrong.

Okay it was really fun. Just that now i'm alone, not like last time :(

Went out with Jun. We went for lunch, then ice-cream then walked around and we got real bored, we decided to go to saloon. She had pedicure and i had my hair washed. :)

(rambut gw berkilau man, serasa kek gadis sunsilk hehehe)

Then went home, had dinner at this really cozy place @ taipan. Don't feel like blogging. Watching TV!

Ciao

spring cleaning

I think its about time to clear my MSN contact list. I have many contacts that i don't even know who, and those that i'm not even close with anymore. Everytime i come online, its always the same old people that's online and i always find it pointless, why have them in my contact list if we don't even talk before or whatever. Its too messy and i don't even know everyone. Ahhhh yes maybe tomorrow. Also, too many contacts confuse me. Hehehe

GOOD NEWS: Junia Kok is back and i'm meeting her tomorrowwwwww so happy! :)

heartachekills

I admit, okay.
I still feel the same old way.
But do you see the difference, just by the things that we used to talk about, and the things that we are talking about. Things've gone weird and, i just feel uneasy.

I'm sorry, you.

Pissed to the max

I'm pissed.

1. My computer loads damn slow today and its damn noisy with the fan thingy
2. My computer doesn't recognise my memory card so i can't upload any picture.
3. My room is damn hot and so pissing.
4. My nose is still runny and i have to recover before i go to china because i don't want to get quaratined.
5. Junia Kok isn't online, isn't replying my messages, is unreachable, while she's coming back tomorrow, idk how to contact her.
6. My computer still doesn't want to read my memory card.
7. My camera spoils. Stupid.
8. I lost my medicine.
9. There's only a few days left here :(
10. Somebody's making me damn curious idk what happened.

Okaay i am really pissed. Ugh. And the fact that i haven't been going out because Sherly is super busy, adds on to my-pissed-off-list. I'm really pissed. Everyday without fail after tuition, i lock myself like some heartbroken bitch and watch tv until dinner is ready. Ahhhhhh and i refuse, i repeat, refuse to do/touch any of my homework.

I'm so screwed.
and pissed.

AHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!

No. Tell me it isn't coming back.

Three cheers for five years

Yay a new skin for my blog. :) Got kinda sick of the last one. Okay, got really sick of the last one. Its raining cats and dogs here uhm ahh. Hey you know what, i went to rooftop yesterday. Feel kinda empty y'know because i am not usually alone there. We'd talked under the stars, under the cloud cover, w strong winds and sometimes, raindrops. Uh i really miss that moment. How it used to be so fun, hanging out together, without letting anyone to find out. And how we often took it for granted and now, I can't take that back even though i want it really badly. I mean, do you really wanna hangout with a heartbreaker? I bet not.

Okay so yeahh wake up early today and went to temple to pray. It's been long since i stepped my feet onto a temple. I just got different feeling everytime i'm there. Like, i don't feel pressured to go. My hands got burned a few times because i carry the joystick carelessly :(  Spend a few hours there and got my name changed! As in the chinese one. I'm not even sure how to write it. :O 

Went to eat and and went home and sleep all the way til 6. I'm like a pig. Shoot i haven't bathe which i'm supposed to one hour ago.

Let me list down what i want to eat, before i go back to Singapore.

- Kalimantan's fruit ice

- Asek Tok Tok

- Char Siew Fan

- Taiwan Porridge

- Shark fin soup (benteng's)

- Udang loncat aka jumping prawn (jumbo's)

- Kepiting saus tiram

- Sate padang

- Nasi prang

- nasi adang

- nasi pagi sore

- mie bebek kalimantan

- mie andalas

- nasi ayam asen

- mie soup barokah

- mie ayam polonia

- nasi isi elizabeth (old time escape place)

- mie awai

- mie keriting asiong

- bakso siantar

- mie bakso lebong

Only Medanese will understand and know these food. Which is like heaven and i haven't got a chance to eat them. Wait til Junia comes back, we'll have food marathon. :) Of course i need to exercise like mad if i don't want to get too elephant-y. I'm like a pig from sleeping, a goat from coughing, a hippopotamus from sneezing and what, elephant from eating? I might as well stay in the zoo, where i belong. Wth.

Medan, food paradise. :-)

i. miss. you.

Oh.My.Gods.

I'm finally, finally using my laptop.!!!!! Miss it so much. I'm typing with my laptop now :):) so happy!

Okay so, i'm back here. Ytd my guardian talked to me, yeah made me so pissed off and exasperated. I felt like ending the conversation asap but cannot because, yeah you know. Whatever. So, Bobby came and thankfully i was able to escape. We went to airport but because he thought that there was circle line in paya lebar, we took the wrong train. So yea and i have to pay for my luggage. Annoying annoying annoying. Ate @ Burger King and i was late for the boarding. I was the last person on board omigod so scary i thought the plane was leaving w/o me. Anyway thanks Bob! :):)

My nose is intolerable now. I can't stop sneezing and blowing my nose. When i blew my nose on the plane, everybody stared at me and haiya i don't have Swine flu la relax.

Okay so yeah. Today i had tuition, thanks. Haha then went to out because mom wanted to buy phone and she got herself BlackBerry Bold. Damn cool its just beside me hehehehe. Omg do you know something. Mom got a nose piercing and she's like, very proud of it. Omg my mother eh!! I also don't have. Wth she's damn cute la. She was so tired so i drove home just now. omigod i was like a driving moron. Sorry to fellow road user hahahahha. Thankfully i didn't forget which one is brake, which is accelerator. Cool rightz.

Ah, i'm loving this. I did homeworkz just now, and watching TV now. My brothers are out with dad. Mom's bathing. I'm sneezing. (uh i need a hug)

Hey baby, when we are together,

doing things that we love.

Every time you're near I feel like I'm in heaven,

feeling high

I don't want to let go, girl.

I just need you to know girl.

I don't wanna run away, baby you're the one I need tonight,

No promises.

Baby, now I need to hold you tight,

I just wanna die in your arms

Here tonight

here in your arms

Honestly I'm in no mood to sit down and talk, and discuss about my future. That's what my guardian is about to ask me. I'm trying to hide from her and planning answers in a way that would end the conversation asap. Maybe when she asks me what I want to be, I'll just say, "housewife with a very cute husband and have a castle by the beach". I tell you, I really have no idea what I want to be and can't see what I will be next time. Good I just need to wait for another 3 hrs before bobby comes and escape to airport hehe.
I just came back from bty. Hehe bade farewell to my beloved lovely school. I'm so pissed now but nvm. Ugh, this dont-feel-like-going-back syndrome come again and I'm sure I will feel the same two weeks later. That'd depend on my mood then.

Ahhhhhhhhhhh shit I miss you. And my ipod has been playing all the songs that reminds me of you. :( hope you're having fun.

There's something. This something in me I can't explain. It makes me uneasy and pissed off. And what's worse, I know I shouldn't feel this way. I mean, that's the past. Come on. Forgive me man I suck.

flying coaster w spiderman

Yoyo back from malaysia! Omg yes, it was a total blast man. I mean, I expected it to be fun, but not so fun. First night @kl we walked around the lot 10 area and ate our super late dinner, reach the cool hotel, it was like heaven man. We had this really cool room w living room, kitchen, two bedrooms, dining table, and toilets hehe and a working desk. Damn cool haha then at night we gathered @ living room and did homework (omg yess pathetic rightz) but it was only vincent and I. Bobby was fast asleep and yea.

2nd day we shopped. Okay, I shopped. A lot. Hehe. I was like, the shopping queen of the day, in only abt 2 hrs I spent like, nevermind... Then off we go to genting!!! Played the indoor theme park and dinner @ a chinese restaurant which was damn nice. Walked around, but the hotel room was nothing compared to times square's. And we had to walk sooo long before we reach the lift my godd.

Third day was the blast omggg love it. We bought the express pass and didn't queue for anything, I missed the feeling of queueing heheh. (Omg my room is like a total mess) shouted my lungs out and we took pirate ship for 3 times, and flying coaster abt 3 times also haha and many others, I felt like flyingg hahaha. Cool omg love it and took many pics but all are w agnes. Cool omg I miss genting liaozzzzzzzzzz

The last day I rode flying coaster agn and made new friends. Haha yea okay have my lunch first bye.

no promises

Hello baby hahaha I'm finally done w packing. Finally yeah. Hahaha I miss you already. People I'm going off for malaysia from tmr til monday so don't miss me k. (I know dione will) and and and then on wed I'll flyyyyy to medan my lovely homey. Ugh I'm coughing severely, put all the fault on arwin.

Idk if there'll be an internet connection, just pray haha if not will mish euu de nehz. Ahhhh, when can I see euu ahgain.

Take care, you. (:

take my heart and please dont break it

Tau apa yang ada di dia yg buat gw kagum?

DIA APA ADANYA. DIA NGAK SOK.

Something that most people doesn't have. :)

Why? Why do you have to do this to me? You made it sound like as if I have to choose between the two of you. What, is it wrong to voice out my opinion? Why are you always so stubborn and think that you're the right one when you don't know half the story. Or maybe if you're willing to listen, and not jump into conclusion like this, you'll understand. Is it wrong to defend someone that means so much to me? Don't you EVER consider my feeling when you call him a jerk? Have you ever? Have you ever put yourself in my shoes and understand how much this anguish is causing everythinga and the least I want is you, condemning him. I don't care how many million times or how bad he'd hurt me, but you have no whatsoever right to call him a jerk or asshole. I don't care if you say I'm stupid for defending someone that's hurt me badly but you have no absolute right to judge because you don't know anything. I repeat, ANYTHING. I am willing to put everything behind, forgive and forget, and pretend nothing ever happened but why are you the one being selfish? Okay, if its because you care for me and you don't want me to get hurt, I appreciate that, and I truly thank you for that. But please, I know what I'm doing and what I'm facing so don't force me. I mean, everybody deserves a second chance, right? And for all I can think of, I feel extremely guilty for this because you know what, he doesn't deserve being called a jerk. I don't give a damn what you think or whatever that may be, but please, don't act like you know everything and just by seeing one episode of the whole movie, you make judgement. Maybe he doesn't fall under your high standard of 'acceptable' but hey his sincerity wins everything under your category. I don't care if your boyfriend is a 10/10, but you don't assume everyone's has to be compared to yours. And I don't freaking care of anything but I care when you make false assumption about him when you don't even see him in person before.

Please I hate this. Its like an insult. Although you were trying to protect my feeling.


_________________________________

Okay enufffff. I'm angry. Hahaha but whatever. I still can't sleep ugh :(

Sooooo, today was spent awesomely with win. And I changed my name to cindas today haha. We wanted to look for my brother's shoes and my father's prezzie but didn't so in the end he bought a baseball and I bought my ipod casing. Ahh walked around orchard and couldn't find nice shoes for my brother. Oh yea there's this barbie exhibition @taka and I went crazy over there ogling (yes ogling) at the barbie dolls and the barbie car full of barbies, and the five feet tall barbie house, barbie phone, barbie clothes, barbie stationary etc, that I forgot he was waiting for me hahaha. Sorry manz. Yepp we went to heeren and found this reaallly cute fury shoes by puma omg I couldn't stop touching it hahaha it was nice la but andrew will probably puke. Hahaha.

I just don't understand why a baseball glove costs so much. And a tiny ball costed him like $13. -.- but anyway he had fun with it. We sat @ gloria jeans and talked, then went to paragon, supposedly to find my dad's wallet, but we ended up eating @ thai express. Hahahahahahaha ah yes he has camp tmr. And I have school tmr. And it sucks. Huh...

Then trained home with a bunch of sardines ughhhhhhh I hate that man who kept pushing me when I was already at terminal point. I felt like stepping on his shoes.

Heeeeeeeh okay I'm tired and I think he passed his cough onto me because now I'm coughing pretty badly.

hollaback

Salut!

I just wake up hahaha supposed to go for english lesson but I overslept so yeah I'm skipped it together w dione and stef hahaha good!good!

Went orchard with stef ytd and I did shopping and we bought food for the bus trip hehe omg I can sense fun and excitement! This week(apart from cheena o level) rocks my socks off man! Haha spent the whole day with amaths girl and we were drop dead when we reached trellis. Yep consider we walked abt 10km from bugis mrt to golden mile the day before hahahha. Okay so yeaaaaa I feel like a pig, because I refuse to get down from my comfy bed. Haizz.

What time is it now? Oh shit almost two. Gotta meet dione first ciao!