haiyoo.lala.its 6.45 more hours to 2008. i feel fucked up

put your hands off ass

hi i am at mel's. and choosing outfit for melissa. and listening at 'shut up and drive-rihanna' hahah very funny. im counting down with dione. yes,only both of us and so sad.yes.so pathetic. :(

PS: but your hands off my boy.

show me some love. if you know what i mean.

i reached Singapore just now and now im feeling kinda tired. why not? after i reached my hostel, i packed my goddamnhell alot stuffs into my wardrobe and not even taking a short breath, Mel called me and said she was at the lobby waiting for me. so i went down and brought her up and yeah we chatted and she saw what i have shopped.

i bought numerous T-shirts and handful of jeans. not forgetting purse and sling bag. i bought tons of DVDs and an adidas shoes. i bought dresses and stockings. in the end, i must carry whatever i bought myself and my luggage was bloodyxtra heavy it was like 30gazabibillionxzxzxzxz kg. HAHA maybe its abit]exaggerating. okay not abit, but alot. :]

after looking at my 'shopped stuffs',we went orchard and walked ard to find presents. and in the end mel bought a wallet for d and we bought a shirt for j. i still havent found anything for h.as for c, i bought a ****** case.

we bought sushi and ate it outside Taka. after that home was the last destination im looking forward.

PS: i love you

thanks god its saturday night!
this sentence will be said every time satuday arrives.
but i dont feel like saying this sentence.
cz this is the last saturday im going to be here. i dont want.

tmr i'll be going back to sg.
what it means?
it means school is starting and i will soon feel the struggle.
i hate school. but i miss it. :)

you know, two months here, i dont miss Singapore.
(i say singapore.not you :))
i love the atmosphere here. not singapore's
i just love Medan so much that i wanna bring it along with me.
maybe this is what people say, there's nowhere better than home.

oh yeah ytd i went to watch The Warlords.
quite exciting but there were lots of killing
so for me its kinda disgusting. my god
my brother slept through the movie. funny kid.

ookay shall stop now.
omgomgomg i havent packed my things.!

PS: im blue

i dono what happen to mommy today but she told me that we're going to cinema later at night HAHA. you know this 14++ years i live,she never go to cinema with me and this time, with my father who admit that he never go into the studio for his entire life. HAHA damn funny i feel weird.

its 2 days and im back to sing. my family is planning for a brastagi trip and i cant go. aiyo i dont feel like blogging. shall stop noww. byee :D

semenjak ada dirimu,
dunia terasa indahnya,
semenjak kau ada disini
tak ingin melepaskanmu.

since you are here,
the beauty of the world can be felt
since you are here,
dont wanna let you go

i think im in love with that song Semenjak Ada Dirimu and then, Sempurna, Cinta Dalam Hati, Cinta, I'm Fallin in Love, Butterfly, Biarlah, 11 Januari and many many more.

i haven't buy any xmas gift for Singapore friends and i rly have no idea. but i will get it done soon.by the time i reach Changi, its in my luggage. you know i bought so much that i must packed it in a box. which means i have xtra things to carry.

but im so happy that God sends me this two people, cat and sausage, maybe to help me carry the things. HAHA kidding. <3

i love you.
aku cinta kamu.
aishiteru
je t'aime
wo ai ni.

maybe young cute kids,even teenagers believe that santa claus can fulfill everything that you want.
but i just realised that he has sonthing that he cant fulfill for sure.
that is, making someone return from their death.
noone can make someone dead breaths again,including sinterklaus
maybe only god.

i still think that it was a dream.yeah it was.but now it travelled to the real life. im so xtremely sad.i thought i dont want to share this out,but joshua told me that,maybe if i shared,i will feel better.grandma was the great woman that can bring up her 10 kids with blood, tears, perspiration without asking for pay a single cent.she is kindhearted,warm,lovely,and sometimes funny.she always cares her sons,daughters,grandsons/daughters.she always worried me when i took the plane to Singapore,she called thousand times just to make sure im fine.she can sing all her hokkien songs when she is bored.she was crying for her bitter life, that she never feel pleased,with pain in her whole body,the only thing that make her stronger,was to see her generation become a successful,great and big-hearted person. she has a will to life. she fought all her pains,diseases with all the strength she could.and when i visited her,she would say that she is happy and she loves me. even till the last moment i saw her,which i remembered so clearly,she kissed my hand and told me that she loved me very much. i will never forget her last sentence for my entire life.

now,we dont have someone so great anymore.everyone feels vry lost.we cant listen she sang her hokkien songs anymore, and listen to her stories.even though she is blind, she tells us that, 'maybe i cant see you with my eyes,but you are so clearly pictured in my heart'. i dont know,i felt so regret,why dont i show more love and till her last moment, i wasnt there with her. that moment,when my mother told me that she has gone,i whispered to myself, 'grandma, may you be more happy there and candies loves you.' now she has gone, she doesnt need to feel all the pains,cried for her bitter life,and fought tiringly for all the diseases. i hope you will live a better life there.

im still sad but what i do? everyone will die someday.we just dont know when. so,when he/she is still here, please treasure your time together and love he/she before its too late. dont regret like what i do. even though i cant hear she say she loves me anymore, but her love will always stay in my heart. always.

grandma, selamat jalan.

I WISH YOU A MERRY WILD CHRISTMAS! :D

take a look at it! im typing it for you and appreciate it! cz it takes xtra effort to create it. :D

its weeks since i last blogged.
lots of things happened.
whether its planned or unplanned.

im kinda erm not, very sad.
bcz i lost someone that i love so much.
i suggest you love and appreciate your loved ones or else when they are gone,
you will feel very regretful :[

maybe i didnt spend that much time with you.
and i never express my love for you.
but i will tell you that i love you although i never realise it.
may you have a better life there.
guide me along in the other way your world permits.
i love you, grandma. :)

okay i love santa claus so much.
he gave me a soft toy HEHE :]
when i walked ard SUN plaza, suddenly he put sth on my palm.
sth very big packed in a green box with red ribbon.
and when i opened it, it was a santa claus soft toy :]

i miss lacro oh lacro send me an elephant please
cz mandy cant do so. HEEHEE C:

people i want to learn how to drive
mum doesnt want to teach me.
and i begged my cousin for milleniums,
but he doesnt want to teach me SO SAD D:
btw, we bond closer now :P

okaay laah huh shall go now.
im sick and i need to punch someone.
pangsai.

omg lisa mellisa eheh.. you make me laugh until i fell of my chair okayy. haha she says the phillipino idol Mau Marcello stole her name cz she is mau. omgomg mamamia my Daniel vry cute. i've got three future husband. Hadi Mirza, the Rivermaya molly guy, and my Daniel im vario,what abt you? HAHA mamamiaa.

Selamat Berbahagia kepada sepang mempelai.
Candies Sutanto & ???

" santa claus is coming to town! "

i love you santa

cz you sent me what i wishh and yeah im happy.

and don't be suprised if someone knocks your door in the middle of the night, cz i asked santa to give you a xmas gift

and once agn thanks cz i met someone i have been dying to meet so much.

but sth else disappoints me ow.

the stars are filling the sky beautiful tonight. just like how my mind is filled by you

and i've got an old pair of socks contained a xmas greeting card in the coconut island.

PS : it is rly unbelieveable

i'll be posting up my xmas lists here
gonna be more or less, tons of it yeah :D

1. i want want the m]phosis dress okay.
2. still m]phosis. but now the slippers.
3. i want that Roxy camp bag. pink and black YEAH.
4. of course a very big big big xmas tree in front of my bedroom door. (like u used to do)
5. i want the pair of old socks from santa. cz it usually contains lots of sweets/
6. the love shaped long necklace with glitters in it.
7. the I LOVE PARIS shirt i saw ohohohoh.
8. more and more DVDs with good quality.
9. the flowery ring i saw at Ubud.
10. and of course a hug from someone i want

dy man dy dy....
please tell me why you are pissed okay.

cz i am pissed also. cz junia told me that she bought alot at Jakarta.
you know how i wished i went there.
unfortunately, the tickets was fully booked.
and i feel rather soory for Monica D:

PS i rly hope something good can happen to grandma.
santa i dont want all the above list. i just want grandma to get well soon.

HI OMG OMG i am so so so so happy todaaaayyy
i went shopping OMG so shiokk i love shopping man..
i bought 3 tees from Fashion Outlet
then one dress from erm Gudang Stock.
its black colour and not to expensive
well,at least it doesnt make my wallet brokee HEE :]

you know what?
i cooked myself you know.
for both breakfast and lunch.
i feel so girly. cz i never cooked before/.
except for instant noodles HAHA :D

im not going to eat dinner laterh.
cz i ate too much just now.
wow lets see what i've eaten today. only today
instant noodles, chickenballs soup, choco milkshake+ice cream,and satay.

i am rly expanding in size
and i think i shall rly register for Marie France Bodyline.
although im not sure whether it works.

eheh i have finished the song i composed.
but just the lyrics without notes.
i dont know how i want the song to sound like.
lets think abt it later lah huh.
i'll post up the lyrics maybe next time okay

shall go :]
bye i love you madu. */

hello people anita is coming over so im happy now.
she comes cz i complained that im all over emo agn.
so she will b here to confide me. such a gd friend huh.
HAHA i guess so.

HOHO i got mommy's card back and she says i an shop.
just that i must control the amount.
she is back to the gd side.
she used to annoy me so much HAHA thats what all mommys behave like.
sometimes that can be your gd friends but they can be a dictator too.
(only if their monthly guest comes HAHA)

huh you know just now when i was having the fcking amaths tuition,
suddenly i feel so sad and i feel like commiting suicide HAHA
i dont know why also but yeah you know its cz of someone.
this kind of disease only can be recovered by shopping damnhell alot.

i read a book discussing abt where people goes after they die.
its really scary and i feel so afraid to die.
i mean you will go to hell and face whatever punishments given.
thats what they say,

if we conducted guilts during our lifetime, all the kindof ghosts will punished us.
isnt what we do and what happen was fated?
isnt God the one who control it all?
so he is the one planning that we will do some guilt?
so there is this word 'destiny'?

like,
son, you are destined to be in jail.
HAHA i heard someone says that
this world is a stage and the people are merely the player.

so who is the scenario writer?
it must be God, isnt it?
so indirectly saying, God destined us to do sin, make decision and all.
yeah if we are scientifically saying,
the main brain asks ask to do all, but when we come to religious?
everything is connected to God

if he taught us not to conduct guilt?
then why people are saying, this is planned by God

i rly dont understand this concept.
and i also rly dont know why i am talking abt this.
can somebody just tell me?
Beatles.

everything i do reminds me of you

HELLO world!
i've got a hole on my right foot now so sad! :C
so disgusting you know imagine a holey footey HAHA :]

and i bought alot of DVDs today! HAHA yes yes im so happy (11)
they are:

gossip girl 1a-1d - you're nobody until you talked about Gossip Girl
just my luck -everything can change in the wink of an eye
because i said so - she's just an overprotective mother
Lincense to WED - first came love, then came RF
No Reservations - Life isnt always made to order
Love and other disasters - you always think you're the first one
the VALET - a refreshingly good time!
RATATOUILLE - oh ima cute rat

im bought a xmas hat so cuteee :D
then a paper snoopy wallet HEEHEE
im sooper brokeee now yeah so sad :E

im composing a song lyrics.
its halfway alrr but my brain is still stuck and i cant think
its like my story lah but i dont know how to place all the notes
its just nicely done lyrics without notes ;]

ohhohh i saw a wedding gown damn long i think got abt 1 metre
vry nice ohh i feel like wearing HAHA
i cant stop this urge to have a wedding soon yaw.
i think im like madly in marrying YO

&&& i dont want to go back to sg so soon.!
monicaa dont forget my orderss!muahh

PS: i just can't explain this feeling :C

" oh and i hate that guy. whoever he is,but he makes me feel annoyed."

PS: please understand. this girl here is,well, in love

my right foot hurt alot! :C
i went to electrice my foot or whatever it calls cz it has something so painful
so i screamed damn loud and cried HAHA

&&& i dont know how im goin to watch movie tmr :
i hope i can walkkk *
employee of the month, here i come!

mandy teoyibin can i know have you come back from thai?
the beautiful THAI? (you know what i mean)
btww, dont forget my elephant.

ohoh i knew sth abt sth and the sth is so shocking.
you know?
cheeks burning,stop breathing,heart pumps very fast and etcccc
are they the shine of love?? HUAHAHA

okay lah okay
im so lazy to type nowwww
so stop bloggin now BYEBYE

" happy 17th birthday Mr. Raymond Suryaa! "

i hate wedding party/dinner/ceremony/whatever!
it makes me feel like getting married soon!
when i see the loving couple walking on the red carpet,
i imagined myself walking there instead.of course with someone i love so much.
im pretty much sure that i rly want to get married :]

i went to wedding dinner.
its my neighbour's.
i drank galloonss of Cokey Pokeyy.!
crunched alottsaa iceey!
&&& i went to toilet alotsa time too!
pictures are to be uploaded real soon kayyyy

friends, hehee if you get married next time,please ask my favour to help you :)
be it bridesmaid,guest receiver,or the MC also cannn
hehehehhehehe like that i feel so needed. :]

im borrowing the License To Wed from Eric cz the cinema is showing so latelyy.
its a midnight show and im sure mommy wont allow me to watch.
ohohohoh i havent do my HW but heckcareeee!!!!!

my cheeks are burning and its so hot now.
and btw i changed my phonyy.
its a touchscreen phone and its kinda biggg.

PS: love is blind

hello readers its 8.29 pm here and its 25degree celcius so shiokk!
mommy is teaching my lil bro and its kinda noisy.
&&& candies sutanto is just getting weirder and weirder.

ehm. i get so emo these days.
not these days, but it has been long.
i get so excited suddenly for sth i dont need to,
and i keep on thinking that everyone dislikes me and don't care how i feel.
i feel like a loser. just for you to know.

i transformed into somebody so unlike me.
like the cloned candies.
now i always assume that the past was so beautiful
and the future seems so uncertain for me.
i cried. for those who know me inside out, you know i aint that strong.
for no reason or unreasonable thingss.

now,im not more so enthusiast when someone ask me out.
i cant feel the butterflies inside my stomach when i see him
they are like dead now.

more of it,
noone picks up my call and noone replies my messages,
which make me feel more like a loser and hated. :(

srsly,i dont know why this feeling strikes me
but yeah since that incident, i feel its true. its right.

1020% sad :((

i dont know why. when i see that piece of picture,i feel suddenly tearful. i thought that feeling isn't inside here anymore, but i was wrong. i can't breathe! plase help me. i want an oxygen tank. :( :[ and i just know ytd. i rly rly need to accept this fact. candies, calm down! that isn't yours and you dont need to be angry when somebody has it. okay.

" kenapa seh gw harus selalu sakit hati kek gini? "

btw congrats Diana for being a Macphersonian soon. :)

rly no mood today i need a hug*

and oh to add more of my sadness. monica johan my love isn't coming cz my beloved ohsobeautiful airport was attacked my the fireeee! hot red thick fire. and im not sure whether i can go back to sg on time. :[

PS: sherley i need ur help.

i went shopping with sherlyy just now.
bought hanakimi disc,a superman shirt and a words printed shirt.
im very happy

im watching mamamia super seleb show and its like so funny
oh yaaaa just now i also went for facial.
goddamn shiok but then they pressed all my pimples.
and it hurts! till noww. :[

monica the ice cream is coming till mon. YAY!!
haha im vry happy.
going out with her tmr.

the Indo Idol result show is at 20.00 and
im supporting Delon for suree.
Koko Delonnn *ih jijayy*

thx friend for the sweet birthday present.
even its like so late, but you still care to give me
and i think a mp3 is a bit too much :D

" terima kasih kau telah mengajarkanku arti kebersamaan hidup ini,sahabat! "

hola im at home real bored now.
but it will end soon cz i'll be going out.
guess im getting the superman shirt i saw that time.
hope they still have stocks left.
today is 30th nov which means the Panasonic awards day.im not gonna miss that surely!

tmr is saturday weekend and i hvnt planned anything to do.
my pals are all up for exams and im being left alone
kinda sad but yeah,i must accept.

hereee it is raining..so heavily and so heavenly :] i love
i want money now im broke i spent all my money at the cheese popcorn i've been craving since 10 years agooo!!

nowadays,im starting to think of sth to do when i grow up.
i dont want to leave it and go undecided until then.
so im thinking of what i shd do next time.
but im still undecided,cz i keep on changing.

ytd i wanted to do graphic design, then today i change to photography
and maybe now im thinking of advertising. or mass communication.
im not gonna do marketing for sure. and maybe yeah i shall take photography as my second subject cz i like photography.

you know,sometimes i just cant understand my mom's thinking.
she insists me to be a doctor
and i just found out it is cz doctor can earn alot of money.
or she says i can do medicine. just sth to do with life health.

i thought we must do sth we like and enjoy,
not sth that we can earn money but uninterested in it.
what's is the point of doing sth we dislike?
when biology is the sub i hate the most,she wants me to change my geog to bio.
she says,why study geography? no use! do you want to be a farmer next time?

but please mom i like it. and i hate bio.! you should support me instead of discouraging me like this! studying isnt what that is useful and can make us earn alot
but its more to what we like and enjoy studying.
if the whole world want to be doctor,
then who take up the rest of the job?

im pretty angry with that kind of mind set
yeah but im her daughter and i have no right to face my opinion.
she will just say,"you no manners!"
okay im tired.
once i say i want to take photography, she started scolding me.

OKAY FINE MAYBE I WILL JUST GO AND JOIN MISS TEEN ASIA. OR MISS UNIVERSE.
HECK CARE ABT ALL MY STUDIES. :S

yay yay!!! stephanie is going to move to trellis real soon and im soo happy. HAHA i've got friend to go to school YAY. ohoh i am so dangdut now.

jatuh cinta berjuta rasanyaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

" hidup ini panggung sandiwara cerita"

okay.i forget what to blog now. so sad.
btw,i bought a watch from Levi's vry nice one i like it! Love.\
and i am so sad cz i cant go shopping today and i've spent alot from mommy's credit card.
i hope the billing won't come before my departure *pray*

i must also consider the money i spent.
cz my mom often tells me that money aren't easy to earn now.
and my father doesnt have any moneymaker machine.
hope he has.so i can just click whatever amount of money i want.
oh so shiokk!ah i want.

now sing dollar is incresing so much that my parents' burden is incresing now.
that means my daily expenses is getting more and more.i must think more maturely.
i know i cant stop my shopping hobby,so instead of using the xtra money,
i must use my weekly allowance.
so i must save more money. in case of emergency*
(emergency here means HEHE godaan buat shopping)

time flies rly fast. its one more month to my departure to sg.
and my brother hasnt confirm whether to continue his study here or sg.
sometimes i feel i rly dont want to go back to sg and i wanna stay here forever.
but sometimes its the other way round. i rly feel i want to go back to sg at that moment.
that second. :]

HAHA i am watching one extragavant show vry funny i keep on laughing.
they are talking abt what do you think beauty means?
then they say girls look beautiful if they are confident and carefree.
they are okay with the way they are. which i think its quite true :]

whatever.i am so sad now.
i ate alot and now i feel so lazy to move.
and this candies sutanto here is becoming more and more studious.
maybe i am the next top student :D

oh btw congrats for Honey for being accepted at CHIJ Toa Payoh
and jia you for Diana. hope she gets a school soon :]
and the others, good luck for the upcoming test ;)

im rly missing the satay from Kalimantan. so nice
i want to eat and im going tmr. maybe.
"oh-oh" i am dying tmr i have tuition frm 8-12 yaw
chem then physics. shitty right?!
my head can just explode and my eyes can just burst out 0-0

and this holiday isnt relaxing
but its burden-ing .huh
i have lot tons hell of homework to do every single day and i have no time to break.
except for weekend and maybe during 'some' tuition i have some entertainment

i need a break. i rly need one

I need a hug

yo! and YO! and YOOO!!! if you are asking for my feeling right now, okay,now much.im still the emo ones.im not sure what i feel now or who am i exactly thinking of. why is my life getting more and more complicated?please,i want to go back to my usual self.i cant face this condition.maybe i aint that strong but whatever. this is getting me very sick.

i laugh lesser than i usually do. i cry more than i usually do.i keep quiet more than i usually do.

yuck alot of mosquitos bite me. and amaths is rly killing me. i hope someone can calm me down. i need a calmer machine right now that can calm me down at the speed of light. you know,before i plug in this internet cabel here,i think of alot of think to blog. but once i log in to blogger,i have nothing to blog. huh,weird,eh?

i went tuition like usual,then had lunch with my brother,sherly and eric.=.= it is a vry short lunch nearby.sherly was as usual,noisy and straightforward.and eric,yeah as usual too.except that he is getting more and more weird. i wont tell you why.

how many time must i say? please people please.dont ever ever gimme hope if you arent sure whether its possible or not. dont dont ever bring me high up and drop me down. just like that. i've encountered that before.and i dont want that to happen for the second time.
maybe you guys just dont understand me quite well. honestly,i aint hard to understand.its just how you see me from different angles. thats why,dont judge a book from its cover

PS: and i cant stop thinking about you

hello living creatures :D i am in a big big confusion right now.i dont know which to choose,what to decide and all.i tried my best to change this emotion.so i can look more lively and cheerful.but i failed seriously. :( i am growing more and more fragile these days. i dont know what happen to.this life is just leading me blind.i dont know why i am doing this,what i should do,and how come that can happen. i am like a blind person looking for a right way.i need help! SOS!

okay my mom is in love with credit card.she made 3 credit cards in a day. i dont know why and how :] but i forced her to gave me one and huh,she refused.but she "lend" me one lah HEHE.i hope i can make full use of it. pray for me she wont change her mind.

i rly feel that my holiday is going to end.and it is so soon. i dont even realise it.cz maybe all this while i am leading my life blindly.so i dont even know that yeah,this is going to be the end of nov.
and someone's bday is coming.i just hope i dont forget to wish a happy bday wish. i am watching Miss Teen USA and its so curious-ing.hehe,i just look at olivia's photo and its funny.she wore this sea blue pail on her head and she looked like witch. HAHA.

actually i am looking forward tmr.but he isnt going to attend it,so im kinda disappointed. D: soso just hoping tht miracle does come true. and guys!!!! i am rly looking forward 31dec to countdown with you guys together. maybe that's goin to be the last outing together or what i dont care but i wont miss it!

ytd,i talked wih james abt friendship.realising that actually this kind of ship tht we built isnt as strong as we think it is.our friendship is actually fragile,too.like my feeling now 0-0 once we dont see each other and nvr talked for awhile,we will separate each distance and we dont even realised it.i am not being framatic or what,but yeah,what is done can't be undone D:

gtg see you soon!

PS: brastagi i hate you

hola!! heehehe im so happy today i've got my mom's HSBC credit card.im so happy i cann shop!
grr this room is cold im freezing. no rain today so sad :[

hola yeah yeah! junia has came back from here very short trip to singapore.she said she bought alot of stuffs which make me so jealous now.but nvm.i also shopped today.bought alot cannot say alr too many.so shiok i shopped with mommy so she paid all -yay!- thats the pleasure of shopping with ur mom.sometimes theres the disadvantage.she knows which outfit suits you which is not.but when you come to like sth and she doesnt,she will insist you not to buy it. HAHA but nvm.most of the thing i pointed,she will buy.dont know what happen.maybe she just won a jackpot. i hope she will win everyday.HAHA :]]]

oh talking abt mom,she received harsh sms-es from the fake-buttock lady.im not sure if its the bitch but its pretty much yes.cz theres no one that's as childish as her. yucky women. wait and see,i wont let you go!! this incident remembered me with the 25/10/07 incident.the sms-es from the so-not-gentleman lil boy kid.that was the first time i saw a guy who doesnt appreciate girl,or should i say,woman? this lil 'gaychick' here is wiyogo. he said sth tht hurt me,even it wasnt meant for me,but i bolded tht before tht i dont like someone tease my friend. yes,i dont.

these days have been rather boring and empty.maybe without his presence,i feel quite terrible. kinda enthusiast to welcome him back HAHA. but too bad,when he came back i will be flying off to jakarta.i just hope he can make it earlier. :[

i am rly craving for tops and bottoms and shoes and accesories and stockings and all. i will only be satisfied if i have fulled my wardrobe ^-^ shopping in indo seems like so fun cz i can practice my being-a-customer act HAHA.dont know what.cz we can reduce to price from what they gave us so i guess its pretty fun :D i need a programme which can make me lose my eating appetite and increase my shopping appetite.oh no,better reduce both. and the lighting so loud im so scared now so scared.omg im crying i cant bear the soung shit mommy where are you?!?!? hiks help me pray so that it can go softer or just go away and get lost!!

listening to a song vry nice vry nice i love it.love and oh ya i miss them. shit gtg!

PS: i still miss you

hi everybody.i am here o share something for you.if you have read mel's post them you will understand. its right. what's the point of living when it just gives us miseries,worries,sadness and yes,in the end we will die.we will.noboby can escape from death.i dont know. i am just getting more and more emotional these past few days. besides,i am starting to show my fragile side. i dont know why.i keep on crying and crying.sometimes,even,i dont know why.

and people,please.i plead you.if you cant fulfill your promise,dont ever,ever give me hope. you dont need to try to make me happy while in the end, you will break everything and downed me.
its like you bring me high up to the sky and drop me down so so suddenly. and i still cant figure out why i am still crying. i know it isnt the best solution. but sorry,its just how i express myself.

i dont want to make the same mistake again for the second time.

lets stop it candies. stop being so emotional. HEHE i used the face mask and its damn damn shiok.so nice so cool so cofortable but HAHAHAHHA i look like ghost. but vry nice.now my face so smooth. and my hair,,eventually it grows very fast and and i quite happy. :] i want shopping shopping shopping and shopping. yes yes i shopped alot but its not enough!! oh god i am getting more and more shopaholic.hehe but you can ask those shoppers, shooping gives you this kind of feeling when you feel very satisfied,very rich,very very happy and you will like to carry many many bags so that you will look like you shopped alot. maybe thats not you. but that is me.

theres nothing but the rain here. and isnt anyone trying to find me? i just hope tomorrow will be a better day.

PS: i miss that guy
PPS:i dont miss singapore
PPPS: but i miss beatty

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MONKEYYYYYYY!

hehehehehehehheheehehehehheehhehehe

may you be a better per son next time.

and grow a bit more mature

MONKEY OH MONKEY

20/07/2007

what a special day for you,eh?

sweet 7teen nowww

im happy for you :>

happy birthday to you

happy birthday to you

happy birthday to monkey

happy birthday to you

and and and

i am so happy nowwwwwwwwwwww

my ice breaker machinee is working nowwww

so i can enjoy ice-ing now -yay-

today i am soo happy

i shopped alot alot damn alot

if i were far from you, i am worried but missing you

if i were with you,i dont know what to do.(my cheeks burning)

if you were active,i become silent.

if you were quiet,i become curiouss

is that love? if it is not, then i dont know what love means

ima eating alot these days i dont know whyyyy!!!!!

and my hair is as shit as shit ouch i dont dare to look into the mirror nowwwww

i want to cut it botakkk!!!

hehe but the smell very nice hehe :*]

and can you please tell me why ii can become soo studious noww?

i studied non stop and so seriously

i dont understand why.

is it because influenced by someone?

i want cup noodle with coke now

yummy!

aloha!
haha tell you something
i cut my hair yess
NOOOOOO!!! now my hair is as short as monkey tail. ahhhhh
i dont like means i hate
i feel like crying nowwwwwwwww
although it was cut by pieter lim, the most 'yaw' hairstylist in town.
haha but whats the point adow.please i hate it
now i look like erm ten years older hoek

and i mistook my mom's slimming pill as my headache pill
it causes me to pangsai more than usual people do
like i go to toilet every 5 minutes
abit exaggerating.
even just now when he cut my hair, i went to toilet twice
imagine he cut halfway i said,'sorry i want to go to toilet'
hahahahaha ii am laughing!!

sosososososososo i will be up for a shopping trip agn tmr yay!
gonna get myself a pair of stokings
mom just gave me money sooo i guess im quite rich now ^^

mandy is enjoying herself at thailand the elephant
i hope she remember to get me an elephant
and maybe dione alsooo hahahahaha
i miss genting highland ohh

okay i will end here cz im studying physics now
become so studious now.
effect from someone heehee

PS: happy advanced birthday.hope you grow more man oh

i am rly totally fucked up now
i have blogged damn hell alot but suddenly it went hibernated shit
okay nvm

this post is going to be goddamn long
i have alot of tuition

chinese was okay lah
i didnt do much cz i was lazy
i dont know why but lazyness keep pn growing in me like cancer and tumor.
even my teacher can notice tht.

maths have been boring
both amaths and emaths
shitty. totally shitty.
i was totally confused by the bloody emaths matrices
and was ttally fucked up by the anaths polynomials.
at least i know how i am going to suffer nxt year. :[[

chem was okaay laah
calculating the no of compunds and naming it was quite fun
but too bad i had the lesson alone :[] (it means sad and happy)

physics HAHA physics
pathetic lah.
but the subject.but the teacher,students,and environment.
i didnt study at all cz we practically talked the whole damn 2 hours.haha
me junia sherly cindy and eric chitchatted and gossiped alot.
okay maybe i am wrong. eric wasnt tht much.
but my teacher tell you his name, joni, rocked and rolled with us too.

ytd we went to pizza hut to have our lunch.
joni the great (hoek) treated us (yay!)
6ofus.joni eric me junia sherly cindy.
we ordered alot and i was pissed by the ballon-maker waitress huh
she actually thought i had a child cz i asked for a baloon grrrr
then went home sleeeep

today i went to sun plaza.
honestly saying, today has been a real great day :)))
i went with eric and junia.
we had our lunch at sunday cafe
i was so dumb as usual. i ordered something and ate it (tht was normal)
but i didnt look at the price and when the bill came, i screamed okay.
totally screamed til everyone looked at me.!!!
eric couldnt stop laughing at me :(
met jess and her friends
after tht went to guardian
i bought plaster cz my feet ouch was hurt.
eric and junia looked at face mask and she bought alot. i bought one.
he didnt buy lah cz theres none for anti-sleepy haha
he intended to buy tht so tht he wont go sleepy. he funny ass.
eric had to left halfway and we said goodbye.

oh boy, by the way you are leaving tmr.
goodbye! come back soon.
then anita came and we walked ard.
i laughed aalot.
going out with them remembered me when i went out with mel and don.
met the oh-i-am-the-most-perfect-person-on-earth-and-i-have-the-sexiest-backside women
i hate her alot since i was born HAHA
also met my chinese tuition teacher with her sons.
met my maths tuition teacher with his gf
they wore matching tees. greeny couple.
i wanted to call him but he seemed like forgotten me heehee

aftah tht i went to met mommy.
bought me clothes from citysurf.
syderbilt,insight,roxy,and ripcurl.waahaa i am so satisfied.
going on a shopping trip with junia nxt week and i am going to buy whole lot tons of clothes.
i am happy happy yay!
tmr is sunday and i am going to experiment with my face mask. yo!

okay okay maybe from just now you are wondering who the hell this eric person is.
he is like the mostmostmostmostnice guy i have ever met i swear to you
okay he is so mature and gentle lah omg so different from monkey.
okay,can,stop comparing.
he is damn nice haha but he was a bit cool to me.
thats what i think.
he seems okay and open to the rest of them
but he is like so avoiding me i dont know why.
you say he doesnt like me i think it is wring cz i know him be4 the rest do
he was my classmate at hua.
we were friend since then but too bad our classmate thought we were more than that.
so maybe that's why haha.
but i swear seriously he is damn nice. not childish. not selfish.
but he sell kindness,gentleness,politeness,and honesty.
and lemme tell you something. this kind of people will be treasured.
i am not exagerrating.but wait till you see him.
*and i really hope he doesnt read this post*
cz his head will grow as big as an elephant
but i believe, this type of person wont betray you :)

okay you bitch yo wassup
wanna have a fight
come on here baby i dont scared of you.
i warned you bitchy bitch dont ever ever tease my friend or you will know
okay so now you did that i am going to give you something rly delicious.
if you say she is copying you by having the same shirt as yours while she didnt even fucking hell know, you better fuck this whole damn world up.
cz no one will like your childish thinking.
if everyone agrees with you, then everything we do now is copying.
i can say you copy me by eating while i am eating
i also can say that you fucking wear garments cz you want to copy me okay fucking bitch
you know i am damn fired now.
i am not kidding and i wont be kidding abt this okay.
go and tell the whole world and see the result.
you are contridicting yourselves,fake backside not lady nor woman.
come hell and say whatever you want to say, but sorry hello mad
i wont be amused or whatever.
no from-th-bottom-of-your-heart sorry and i wont let you go.
i told ya be4 i dont leave things hanging.
so,go and think abt it.
dont mess up with me or be responsible for the mess you made.

PS: i am in love

candies sutanto in indo

oh hola people.!
oMG HALOHOLALAHOLOHA!!!!
i miss those in sg
i miss those in indo but havnt get th chance to meet
i miss beatty. so much.

huh i can blog
i can go friendster,facebook,hi5
but i cent fucking hell go online
which is what i am dying for.
i have been trying till i half dead
but my bloody internet just dont want to damn connect me
and i dont know what freaking hell happened

HUH HUH HUH HUH 350%
here so shiok only 26 degree HAHA
dione must be damn jealous now.
and she is holiday-ing to genting highland
you wont regret,don!

mandy teo is going to thai
i want to order an elephant HAHA
i wonder how she's going to bring it back.
nvm,i will bring you burung kakak tua
okayokayokayookay

probably i am flying to jakarta
PROBABLY
now i am kinda excited
my days are fully packed with tuition
yes,lemme show you my schedule
mommy planned it all

Monday:
10-12 : A-maths
13-14.30 :chinese

Tuesday
10-12: physics
13-14.30: chinese

Wednesday
10-12;a maths

thrusday
10-12: e maths
1-2.30:chinese

friday
10-12;physics

saturday
10-12: chemistry

see how busy i amm!!!!!!
but its better than staying at home
doing nothing except for sleeping and eating
i will be a potential pig by then

OKAYOKAYOKAY!!!
someone is nagging me
to off my internet asap
cz its damn ex here.
okay end here

ps: cant wait for the 20th!!

Hola guys.! this may be my last post since i am going back to indo today. :)

kinda sad though.:(

i wish you guys have a rly enjoyable holidays and have funfunfun :DD

okay i collected my streaming result and

as i expected, i go to the 2nd class

taking chem, phy, ss/hist, pure geog, and amaths.

i got to the same class as mela and dione :)
kinda sad cz mandy,james,hs and huei min didnt get into the same class as me :((

350% sad (i am acting like mel's cousin fred HAHA)

i guess i wont enjoy my holiday much cz alot of tuition are coming up :(

have a painful and stress holiday candies is going to face :(

now i am 700% sad
and with th fact tht i am leaving my friends temporary and cant see their funny faces,

now i am 1050% sad :(((((

HAHA yeah but see the bright side lah huh

i am rly looking forward to this coming up 19th november.

HAHA abit excited and planning something kinda special :)

i bide a big sad farewell those these following groups of aliens from different planets:

2e3'07 (this is going to be forever farewell )

choir ( lalala i am so HAPPY haha YAY!!!!!)

trellis tower ( since i am bored here, im alright)

SINGAPORE ( i have been here like 5 months and honestly ima bored)

lastly i want to thank everyone

Thanks for the memories :)

AH this damn thing

HAIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIII!
i dont feel like blogging now.
damn sleepy and tmr we have the bloodeh choir prektis.
so, i will just tell you something
I AM VERY VERY ANGRY NOW BCZ I CANT GO TO THE CHALET OKAY!!!!!!!
they will enjoy while i suffer HAIKKKKK
okay today was basically fun. very fun indeed!

HAHA now my room got this friction sound vry sickening
i think got some some insects dancing or fcking HAHA
i dont give a damn
just get the hell out of my room and stop making that annoying voice ouch!
ohmegot today i am vry fated to meet lizard and friends.
wekkk i met a lizard just now damn disgusting one. shit lah man

my left eye is red now and i better take out my lenses or else i will go bling WEE
i dont want that to happen.
later i cant see his beautiful smile anymore HAHA~
joking lah who the hell want to see his freaing face huh?!
i am sick lah. HAHA just bear with me, will you?
cz i have moodswing one.
sometimes i can like him so much and want to see his face so badly
sometimes i can feel so sick of him and feel like kicking his flat-ass.
my god now i am sick soooo HAHA i may perform my awesome kicking soon!

okay lah just now i say i dont feel like blogging
but i end up blogging so long.
okay maybe not so long. quite lah huh.
bye people see you ard
ciao!

ps: (bloodeh choir and bloodeh pearl)

wi o

I RLY RLY RLY MISS YOU ALOT LAH WI~
MAY YOU PLEASE COME BACK?
I MISS YOUR YOUR ONLINE STATUS.
MISS YOUR BACK I MISS EVERYTHING OF YOU WI~

"and every night i miss you i can just look up
cz i know the stars are holding you holding you holding you tonight"

THINGS THAT YOU DO

THIS IS WHAT YOU WILL FRIGGIN DO WHEN YOU ARE DEAD BORED

AT MIDNIGHT DOING NOTHING BUT MAKING FUNNY FACES :DD

I THINK WE MADE ALOT OF STOOPID FACE TODAY HAHA

AND SHE IS SINGING 'NANA' NOW

OKAY SHE IS CRAZY AND I AM INFLUENCED ALSO HAHA

THANK YOU AND PLEASE COMMENT :D

*FOL A THOUSAND TIMES*

today was HAHA

hola hihi. i am back from orchardie crowdie withie peopleiee.
went there with melily tan.
HAHA we did alot of stupid things.
laughed alot at stupid stuffs.
bought alot of stupid stuffs. now i feel so happy and broke.
wekk, just gained alot of money and now i feel so broke agn.

i bought a pair of shoes from topshop.
a pair of KIWI vry cute earrings from heeren.
took a damn unglam neoprint HAHA (pictures are to be updated)
yellow and blue colour hairband
black colour nail polish.
a pair of slippers. i boughht it cz of a reason.

i met mela at wisma atria.
thn whn i walking halfway thn i noticed one couple was looking at me thn my slippers.
thn i looked down and oh shit. HAHA my slippers torn and produced a big mouth which can eat up crocodile HAHA.
i was like ermmmm. thn i walked like a duck and mela kept laughing at me. =.="
thn went to cotton on and bought th $5 slippers.

after that i forget alr we went to starbucks and bought drinks.
thn what else aiyah alot. oh yeah i met jen just now with kevin.
i tot they were some loving couple cz they were like smiling to each other.
very loving kind HAHA apparently its not.

we went to taka and walked ard. :D
thn to heeren and took neoprint. HAHA damn funny lah
there were two cameras and we didnt know which side
so when we were still figuring out, suddenly we heard 3.2.1 pret!
omg HAHA the picture turned out to be damn funny HAHA
i laughed until so hard and the rest of the pictures are as unglam as the first one.
HAHA thn after tht decoration part has two sides thn we waited at one for damn long
thn eh why nothing har?
haha i went to th other side HAHA the time left was 170 seconds
mela faster ran there and decorated.
HAHA funny you see later.

went to paragon and looked ard toy r us.
nothing though.
we went into the toilet painting our nails.
weird eh?! and 1 auntie looked at us until like she looked so dumb.
cant imagine lah..

oka went bck to taka we asked for the subaru baloon bcz at first i tot it was cute
it turned out to be annoying and distracting. my god
i gave it to one girl and mela threw hers into th dustbin
poor baloon. poor dustbin.

HAHA okay lah huh i think that's all for today lah huh
tmr i will be meeting dione seah and mandy teo.
see you guys tmr!

PS:thanks mela and strawberry jam for sending me to airport nxt tuesday.
appreciated!

oh my life is friggin bored

Oh lifee ohh lifeeeeeee
it can get so fun exciting and enjoyable
but it also can get so bored dead and colourless.
and yes you're right i am encountering th second one.
oh my god my holiday has been boring and dead and ah i feel like smacking anything
i edited thousands of pictures,listened to billion songs, read million books
but still still i cant get through these daysssssss.
i miss the school days. duh i miss them so much
and yes sure i cant wait for the 6th nov.canttt wait..
i am not nervous. okay fine maybe a little bit.
but i am more excitedd HAHA cz i get to see my beloved friends yeah
anyway people,suggest me something to do rather than sleep,eat and read.
i've had enough of those.
ciao!

something found at e3's blog HAHA laylaylay the potato barbeque chip he dmn funny right?!

zxzxzxzxz

i miss Monica Johan :]]]

oh hi people i am hehe as usual. not bathed. heehee.
but eh today i am not smelly leeeee.
shit lah i must catch up with my reading speed.
i have been reading so slow these days.
like squirrel? no.like tootles.
oh, speaking of tootlees, hock siangg got his job at mcdonalds.
yes mcmcmcmcmc mac
haha he was vry happy. who dont??
congrats everybody got their job.
nicole.hueimin.hocksiong.mandy kind of lah.

i also want to work lah
but too bad mannnnnn
i am going backkk ah i dont feel like
shit damn fuck!
heeheee i am currently doing nothing
using jess com as i fed up with mine.
lul i think i am going to get new one YAY

mamamia here we go again!!
mama how can i resist you?!?!
went to shaw plaza just now with donyy.
saw hs work in mc uniform
he looked tall and not that childish lah huh.

honestly i cant wait for the 6th nov
i wanna knowwww my resulttt soooooooooo badlyyyyyyyy!!!!!
gosh they keep me waiting for so long
and th fcking emaths 3a book is outofstock!!

yeahyeahyeah my bro's result came out.
he got damn bad but nice result.
34 for english and 65 for mathematics
huh i was better hehh
hope he can get into school i dont care he must!
yeahyeah having mood swing now i've torn zillion piecess of paper.!
including the library book :]]]]]

okay lah huh this is ppl's laptop so i kind of must go
heheee i wanna know my streaming result so badly
bye people see you around!

yoyo gogo!

everyoneeeee!!!!!!!!!

HAPPYHALLOWEEN :]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]

yo hola people i am currently painting my nails pink colourr..
but how abt the ehm-ehm teacher oh shit!
huh who cares??!
i mean, its school holiday okay and, HELLO?!
who wanna care abt the fcking school rules?
huh please dont distract me holiday please. its not healthy.
whatever you want to say woman,i am damn pissed by you.
'dont try to test my patience huh i tell you' she said that
degh, who want to test your patience by the way? i think you are impatient yourselves.
& i am not going to care abt whatever bloody hell she's going to say.
the most i quit. that's it. end of the story.
maybe i shd test your patience some other time.

i went to the lions home just now :DD
the old ppl there were so cute and i felt so pity for them.
some of them are poor and some of them even, homeless.
so sad.
now i know how fortunate i have been.
i shd respect people except for someone. heeheee.
i talked to a grandma. she's damn skinny
if i didnt hear wrongly, she stayed there for 55 years?!
my god and she was so cute lah.
she touched my hand and cheeks and said something that i didnt understand ;]]]
she reminds me of my grandfather that has gone.
he also liked to touch my hand and cheeks saying that ima good girl.
i think of him agn. and ima so sad. he took care of me when i was young. but now he has gone.
im so sad. xtremely sad ;[[[[[[
he always sing songs for me and played with me gosh grandpa i miss you so muchh. love.

i've got one more grandpa with me around and he's as great as the other one.
he loves me alot and always gimme money heeeeheeeee :))
he is a great man. he survived his life although he is an orphanage.
im so proud of my grand-s.
without them there will be no candies in this world.
i mean is this candies lah.candies sutanto. not the tang guo.heehee
okay,cut the story.

i want to sleep early today. yes i feel like
this is abt 8pm and i am yawning thousand times alrd.
omg i am listening to th song Kiss Kiss damn nice man.
so sexy and jumpy.heehee

you know something?!
i dont feel like going back to indo nowadays leh
i prefer to stay at singapore
i can work i can surf the net.
its weird,i dont usually feel this way.
i will always get vry excited when i am going back.
mayb bcz what happened recently.yeah maybe.
but i know i can deal with it.
it will be over soon lah huh.

okay okay i am stopping hereee :)
shd continue with my storybook th Girls on Film-The A-List Novel
omg i live this novel man.!
oh shit havent finish painting my nails. ciao!

my heart will go on

ohmygosh human! i am in love love love with this song!

My Heart will Go On - Celine Dion

Every night in my dreams
I see you, I feel you
That is how I know you go on
Far across the distance and spaces between us
You have come to show you go on

Near far wherever you are
I believe that the heart does go on
Once more you open the door
And you're here in my heart
And my heart will go on and on

Love can touch us one time and last for a lifetime
And never let go till we're gone
Love was when I loved you
One true time I hold you
In my life we'll always go on

Near far wherever you are
I believe that the heart does go on
Once more you open the door
And you're here in my heart
And my heart will go on and on

You're here, there's nothing I fear
And I know that my heart will go on
We'll stay forever this way
You are safe in my heart
And my heart will go on and on

dammit its crying mellow song like someone says,'' you jump,i jump!''
damn romantic man but the movie damn horny lah huh.
yuck but noel will like it lah huh, i believe.

medan i miss you

this is something ripped from friendster. medan people are like this. i really think so man.

-You carry handphone to pasar {market] and call your neighbour "kha me lai la, kia jite kangkung ane phi lo" (come faster,today vegetables more cheaper wor..)
-You manage to buy expensive stuff to show you are rich.
-You think durian is your life.
-You take a becak just go to "nia angpau"..(take red pocket)
-You send your kids to US just for pride..
- You go to a park and drink 'liangteh'in stead of kue ci seng(fruit ice).
-You travel Medan-Penang more than 3times a month.
-You mix pisang(banana) and huan cu (ubi) at the sametime and you call it kolak.(mixture of banana and huan cu)
-You have more credit cards than your namecard.
-You wish to have a car with "platmerah"(its new man oh) forever.
- You call your friends in jakarta "pasia khiau seng"(jakarta i dont know wwhat)
-Your stomach growls when you don't eat"Kalimantan Asek e toktok" for a day.(haha i miss that tok tok omg love it)
-You talk even your neighbour were sleep.
-Y ou eat kue tiau goreng(fried kwe tiao) in themorning
- You preferChristian Dior orYSL than red A or Mirabella.(indo's brand)
-Y ou know Pak Tungtung more than greatpolitician.(pak tungtung i love his story miss that man)
-You carry a 10 Kilos of kue Bika Ambon (i miss you too bika acai)whenever you travel to jakarta .
-You listen to "Wang Cing Nien" songeven you prefer "Teng Lie Cin". (mommy loves them both)
-You are willing to travel 25 miles to buy a thing that you think will Rp. 25Cheaper. (yes i did that)
-Y ou are "Dreaming of a winter and snowing chinese new year"(who said)
-You are very good at avoiding policeofficer. (ohyes i learned tht from mommy)
-Y ou have ever successfullyputRRp.10.000 in yourpasport topass the immigration officer.(sorry its not what i did)
-You have ever successfully put envelope in your suitcase to pass acustoms offcer.(i didnt know they are so tricky?)
-You have extra pocket to put USD and pin it with peniti (i forget what it means.you know the thing you use for the badge to hang?yes that one)when you go abroad.
-You tight a pita(ribbon) to your kopor as asign.( my grandfather always does that.pink colour somemore)
-Y ou have ever wear a sandal jepit to shopping center.(everybody does lah huh)
-You have ever compare naik taxi ornaik becak mesin(its three wheel vehicle) lebih murah.
-You do your shopping in Pasar Ramai.(market lah huh)
-You bring your whole family or even neighbour to a wedding party.(not so gross degh)
-You know exactly how many people living in the same street with you.( no i dont)
-You have ever eaten sate padang in Jln. Kalimantan.(of course lah man love it too)
- The first thing that comes to mindwhen hearing the word " Jakarta "is "Juak(hot)"
-You use the terms "Ai khi ta lok(where you wanna go)? Aikhi ciak hong(i wanna eat air?)", "Ciak pa bo kang co(eat already got nothing to do)","ce ai anna bo ka si, bo tua bose(omg my father loves to use that sentence. this people no manners huh. no big no small. what??)",as a basis term.
-Your daily conversation may include your neighbours.(maybe some OKBs)
- If your neighbour buy one, you willbuy two.( my old neighbour did that)
-You use bang hio(this one i not sure) more than baygon(mosquito killer) inyour house.
-You have at least 1 pair of Bakiak inyour house.
-You always compare your kids class ranking with another: "Lu e kia gia tekui mia(what is ur child's position?)? Wa e kia gia te it mia lo(my child got first)".[ciak pa sio eng(haha yes.i agree)]
-You always ask your friend: "lu kuikai kia liau?(how many children you have?)


haha damn fun lah i remembered every single thing i used to do. and i miss that rly.NOW I WANNA GO BACK MEDAN.omg medan i love you..

when someone gone crazy and mad

hola people yoyo haha i dont know today i feel quite well. went to choir in th afternoon. planned something larr. hehe :] went home earlier. cz i went to doctor. i felt quite dizzy. ah. then met up with telissa and sione deah. sione went home first. tellisa and i went to orchard and we bought something. haha not to say what it is. cz its quite embarrassing if i publish it here. :] we went around taka taka then ate at KFC erm-so-delicious. aiyo

I WANT TO ORANGY ADIDAS OMG LOVE.

didnt buy in th end cz i am broke. i am fucking broke. shit somebody donate me money. i'd love to receive. some richass person be kind please. i will give you my goat milk soap sample if you donate me money :) haha if telissa's reading ths shell be grossed out. haha. okay stop th crap sandies cutanto. i dont know why. i love to reverse people's name. maybe its bcz i reversed hula & co become cula & ho. haha damn funny lah aiyo i laughed alot alot.

olivia is going back to jambi tmr. :((( i feel like smacking her face cz she promised to accompany me until 6th of november. so many people didnt keep their promise. anita also. she didnt keep her promise. i feel like smacking them both. nvm. aiyoyaaa i want to eat THAI FOOD now i dunno why why and why. but too bah lah huh. i cant afford it now lah huh. i am saving my money for the omg-so-expensive-but-nice adidas shoes and topshop shoes lah huh. shit lah huh. this is what happen to people like me needing money lah huh. maybe i was too spendthrift lah huh. damn it lah huh. feel like smacking anybody's face lah huh.

hehe i tell you something. i feel so happy now. somebody came back from indo. i dont know why also. just saw tht person just now or ytd? dont ask me i dont know. ask candies. :) i think i am crazy now lah huh. you know why? i am craving for so many things lah huh. and everything needs money lah huh. aiyo shit lah huh. how i wish everything were FREE omg GRATIS shit MIAN FEI omg MIEN LUI omg i can just grab anything i want shit shit i am dreamy now.

aiyo i am currently chatting with two monkeys and they are talking crap lah huh. i cant connect with them at all. hihi. they were talking A i answered them B. haha damn funny you shd see our conv. i am damn bored. Xtremely bored. i want to watch movies. any movies also can. but i dont want the Parental Guidance one. i want the Mature 18 or Rocking 21. forever 21 lah aiyoo.

tmr i am going to haha LIONS HOME. haha. i wonder why not TIGERS HOME. at least tiger is less scary than lion right. lion is the king of jungle while hehe tiger dont know leh. maybe the king of the bathroom. haha i dont know what to say. i dont know what to do. you better off that way eyehhhhhhh. oh oh shit i am talking from nonsense to crap but i am sure you are too curious you cant stop reading right haha i guessed that. shit lah i havent bathe bathe bathe. i am damn smelly yuck anybody dont come near me. dangerous lah you come near me you can faint straight away.haha oki poki then.i am going to bathe. with the goat milk soap. omg shit lah damn nice yoohoooooooo goat milk soapppppp!!! here i comeeee!!! :)

ps: telissa man, dont be grossed out!
pps: tandy meo i miss you alot.

these two days

I was encountering some boredom fever thank god he sent me 2 sweet angels to accompany me. dione seah and agnes sutrisno. hehe dione accompanied me ytd and today was agnes. i had a great day with dione ytd. we went to the gym HAHA and we saw a guy HAHA omgomg the way he did his warm up omg damn funny lah like pregnant woman liddat.omg damn funny we kept on laughing at him. then then we went to novena cz dione was craving for donuts. omg dione seah! then we went there but unfortunately,they closed.we were complaining said that we flied there just to get the donuts. we were told tht toa payoh has one donut stall they just opened 2 days ago. getting a new hope, we flied back to toa payoh and yes we got the donuts and met some annoying people. nvm. we sat down and enjoyed our donuts and took some horrible candies and dione eating donuts pictures. after that we went to library and its closed :(( went to buy sushi finally. ate and went home. you know what?! my day with dione is always full of laughter. we talked abt ms jamie (again) and how we act blur and stupid when we get to work.omg damn funny lah dione. hehe

today went out to orchard with agnes. we watched balls of fury omg damn funny lah i kept on laughing till i dropped my crispy chicken :) :( omg the movie damn damn freaking funny omg i think i laughed the loudest. okay nvm. after that we went to taka. shopped around i bought one stitch shirt and pullandbear shirt. both are cute. i think. went back home and i dont know why today i feel like sleeping early. OH YAH forget! i went to library and borrowed quite number of the a list novel :)))) omg feel so happy. dione will scream lah i tell you.

you now something?! i am currently missing 2e3 so much.omg. mandy melissa dione james mz hs char denise huei min germaine emily ty aiyo all lah all. i dont know why i miss them i feel like crying nowwww. okay maybe tmr i am meeting the choir girls but how abt th rest?! i miss you guys lah. i wanna have one more outing before ima back. can? i wish i could. two months without them. see if i can stand it. the most i call them or online at msn lah. but but i want to see their face listen to their jokes see their laughing faces. omg i rly cry now. even mandy told me not to. cant help it yes i miss them. what mrs peters guessed was totally right. i rly do love that class so much. maybe they are just awesome. i think they are and i rly think so. :(

this next paragraph is going to be about something which maybe a bit boring and annoying. dont read i f you dont feel like it. but don't be curious ohhhhhh..... :)))))

someone. i am sure some of th human out there know who th someone is. he has gone. now he is miles away from me. honestly, i feel quite empty here. i rly do lah. my day is so bored without looking at his online status. remembering those embarrassing yet funny days. HAHA i feel like laughing now. seriously i did try. but as you know, for this matter i always fail. maybe i should just give in lah huh. maybe i shall follow what dione said lah huh. i am tired of all this lah huh. haiya yaya give in lah huh give in lah. yes. give in lah huh. (dont ask me why i put 'lah huh' at the end of the sentences cz i dont know why :))

the break ups

okay i am so sad over the fact that two of my friends broke up with their gf/bf. joshua and anita. joshua said,' omg that girl.she played my heart.' and now i am finding out what happened to anita. okay and now i think i am breaking up with my candyman thinking. honestly,i feel quite empty and sad. but, you're right.what's the point of thinking and loving that jerk/bastard/coward/gay that doesn't deserve it at all? he deserves my slapping more. am i right? i am sure i am. wadeva. now i am trying to get him over. getting myself busy works relatively well. :]] i will tell you what i wished just just yesterday before th fucking slapping incident took place.
i hoped that we can see each other without having to pretend as stranger.
i hoped he can smile at me every morning and send me to school.
i hoped he can give me good night and sweet dream wishes before i go to sleep.
i hoped he can give me good luck wish before i sit for my exam.
i hoped i can chat with him everyday without having him to give fake name.
i hoped i can do webcam with him just like how mel and i do.
i hoped i can sms him whenever i feel bored and lonely
i hoped we can go out at saturday afternoon and enjoy our day together
i hoped we can take photos together and went into the neoprint box.
i hoped he can advise me and encourage me whenever i need them.
i hoped i can receive morning messages/calls/smiles from him
i hoped everything is not just in my dreams.
i hoped everything was true and real.
i hoped i know where he is and what he is doing.
i hoped to receive calls from him and chat for hours.
i hoped i don't get that cold feeling and get the warmth instead.
i hoped i can spill everything to him not anyone else.
i hoped to see his encouraging smiles and touch my head saying that everything will be alright
i hoped he can hug me and calm me down.
i hoped i had him as someone to share my sadness over the splitting of 2e3.
i hoped he never say that oh-so-immoral words.
i hoped i never slapped him before.
i hoped alot.
i hoped just as high as the sky.
but you know, when i fall, its vry painful.
now, you know what?
i am glad that everything is how they are today.
i am glad that what i hoped didnt come true.
cz he is just a jerk.
ohmygod he is a gay. cz he didnt dare to face me. he lied to me. and faked everything. even his identity.
boy, you know what? you are just a piece of b-u-l-l-s-h-i-t,bullshit to me.
and i will never never think abt you any any more.
i will not denied on anything that i've said earlier on.
cz firstly,i am candies. i am not gay like you. i dare to face the reality and i end evry problem to the root of it.
dont leave anything hanging. cz the image on you that you left on yourselves, spoils your impression on me.
and secondly, no matter what, you are part of my life. you made me feel happy before.you made me feel excited before. you made me feel nervous before. you made me feel like ordering tonnes of oxygen tanks before. i appreciate that alot. but too bad, that's pieces of old,torn bad sad memories. you are you now. not more candyman. and i am me now. not more monkeygirl. bye gay boy! and now i welcome TEBs

last of all

tmr is going to be the last time i step into B2-06

tmr is going to be the last time i am an official e3.

tmr is the last day of school

tmr is the last day i hear mandy scream.(mandy please scream)

tmr is the last day im going to hear hock siong's james' muizhen's jokes.

tmr is the last day i hear they bully vincent teo.

tmr is the last day i am sitting at parade square no 11 beside nj and kelvin.

it's gonna be the last.

it's gonna be the end of it.

and i am going to treasure it

cz i believe that th memories aren't just going to stop here.

like what people say,

there's meeting there will be separation.

last day of 2e3?yes.

but the name of 2e3 is forever.where?here.in my heart.

although my heart may stop working some day, it will still be transferred somewhere else where it can be kept save. just save. just nice.

th memories with 2e3 are just unforgettable and precious.

all the ups and downs.all the talls and shorts.all.all of them.

are gift

priceless gift.

im trying not to be sad. i know this is gonna be the end. not the end.but the splitting.

but just see the good side.

we are progressing and we are improving.

we are getting ready to deal with everything that is coming our way.

you guys will always be remembered.

and remember me too!

2e3 oh 2e3 i love you

2e3 omgomg tmr ish th last dayy lahhh im so sad. evrything that we've gone through together makes me feel extremelyyyyyy sad. :[[[[[[[[[ i visited james and hs' blog and they made me rolled my tears.honestly,today seems to be the most suitable day for me to cry.i cried alot today.i cried bcoz of 2e3.i cried bcoz of my dear friends.i cried bcoz of something.and i cried because i am so thankful to god that he gives me such a gd frens accompanying me walking through the path of life. but we are separating soon. so soon that i didnt believe it at all. the poem that hs made was so touchong it really touched my heart and i rly cried. even though i just joined this year,but they rly made me feel inside. i cant describe how sad i am. the idea of splitting was rly not good. and today has been a horrible day. you dont know what happened,do you? how do you feel when a guy scolded your friends and talking as if he wasn't th one in fault and he was the right one.how do you feel when he said that your friend has thick face and scold her back when what she said was true and realistic??how would you feel if he said as if your friend was cheap and whatever it was. i was vry angry with that jerk. in fact, i am. i rly feel like sending him to the grave and let him stay with those ghosts. whatever that person thinks, he is rly immature.and never count tht kind of person as the person you know.he doesnt even worth to be your friend.LOSER. okay lah dont talk abt that jerk cz i am damn pissed.!!!!! and here i am now crying cz mandy typed something. and i will neve eget being an e3.

2E3 D CUTEST CLASS EVA!NVR REGREAT BEING WIF UR!!!!!LUV is lyk a golden thread tat ties the whole 2e3 family 2gether..til the END says:hey guyz...feelind bad now yeah???2mr last dae of sku...last dae of all the E3s being 2gether as a family...joking 2gether laughing as one..bullying teachers lyk we used to...having sum quarrels wif each other...all the screams...tears and joy...it will all soon b ovr within hours..frm now..juz 2 quotes tat i found..why don't we hit restart and pause it at our favorite parts?yeah..y cnt we hit2E3 D CUTEST CLASS EVA!NVR REGREAT BEING WIF UR!!!!!LUV is lyk a golden thread tat ties the whole 2e3 family 2gether..til the END says: restart and pause it at our favorite parts?yeah..y cnt we hit restart or play back and stop at our favorite part..the part where all of us had fun...laughing smiling..wen it's juz all hapiness tat u cn tink of??but too bad..there is no replay button where you cud go back 2 the past to feel wat it was b4...u cn onli go on...
a stranger stabs you infront,a friend stabs you at the back,a boyfriend2E3 D CUTEST CLASS EVA!NVR REGREAT BEING WIF UR!!!!!LUV is lyk a golden thread tat ties the whole 2e3 family 2gether..til the END says: stabs you at the heart,but best friend only pokes each other with a straw.a true friend is sum1 who sees the pain in you,while evryone believes the smile on your face.true friends are hard 2 find,difficult 2 leave and impossible to 4get..probably bcoz we are oreadi each other true frenz..tat's y it's hard 2 leave...
hope tat all of ur wud tink positively and stay in contact..our class may chang2E3 D CUTEST CLASS EVA!NVR REGREAT BEING WIF UR!!!!!LUV is lyk a golden thread tat ties the whole 2e3 family 2gether..til the END says:our teachers may change..our look may change..but our relationship stays the same...good bye to 2E3...

here are some pictures taken

& th memories are not just gonna end this way. :((

count downn

2e32e32e32e232e32e32e3 is LOVE LOVE LOVE

shall start counting down now

happy days with 2e3 left with : 4 im-going-to-enjoy day!

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i am webcamming with tantan huihui chichi ;*

omg people i cant describe how sad i am now! i cant face the reality that 2e3 is splitting so soon and i really cant imagine how my life without them. honestly, i hate streaming. it separates us. it places me in a strange place where i have to adapt and you know, its hard and not easy. rly, i will miss them no matter what. 2e3. this is the omgsorocking class lahhhh! even our class is famous in bullying teacher, but all the fun jokes and laughter are just just memorable. even you cant buy that with money. james tagging sad faces, melissa and mandy cried and huei min's innocent face said," candies, i will miss you nxt year" really make my tears nearly rolled down. once again, i should say, thanks mandy melissa dione hueimin charlene denise james hocksiong muizhen aida lydiana lay nicole minjung pris pavi shahnas. thanks teachers. and thanks 2e3. :((((

todayy i am going blog in this green colour. cz i am feeling green now. people say green means jealousy. really,eh? haha. i am curious abt my lite marks as i didnt go to school on friday so i couldnt see my paper. and all of then didnt seem very please with their result. im warning you, this post is gonna be damn freaking long. maybe longer that MRT, maybe not ^^

now i change mood to this teal colour. you know what? time flies really fast. sometimes i just wish that time may just walk instead of run. one year has nearly gone. my sec 2 life is going to end soon. it's going to be the time when i flashed back the memories throughout the year and reflect it. i have gone through ups and downs with my friends,shared laughter and tears, created problem with teachers and made dirty secrets. i aint going to forget it,of course. in fact, it will be keep save in my heart. 2E3 has been a real rocking class, and beatty has been a great school, although some teachers aren't that great. but still, there's these teachers who will touch your heart and make you love and respect them. they have their own way. that's why they are called teachers. and my friends,well, they are just a great great friends. i cant explain what the word friend really means.but i know that real trus friends are the only one that will be by your side,no matter what. and this kind of people really exists.i am so grateful that these people want to be my friend. my life will be like delilah's without them. plain white t's

OLIVIA ROSELINI: thank you for always being there whenever i need a pair of ear to listen to whatever crap i wanted to say. you always make me laugh by making fun of his name and saying that i have a real bad taste. yeah,eh no. he is an exception. but still, anyway, your jokes really work on me. although sometimes i have mood swing, you will always understand and didn't turn out moody too. you will always comfort me whenever he hurts me and you will scold him bad words and in the end,we will laugh out loud together because of his stupidity and how 'chicken' he was. you lend me your shoulder whenever i need one. thanks honey!

MANDY TEO YI BIN: man ti. that's your nick name right. thanks darling for always being there for me and listen to all my craps. you comfort me whenever i feel sad, understand me well, and always tell me about hot hunks and stuffs, but hey, thanks! those hot hunks stories sometimes make me laugh and you usually will angry and end up hitting me. oka i must admit that you hit hard and painful. although sometimes you will give me black face and have mood swing, or sometimes the other way round, we can go thru it together cz we are good friend! and i can't escape from the reality that i love you! thanks sweety!

MELISSA TAN HUI CHI: mela dela. this girl has alot of nicknames. mela dela banana meow cat and etc...but you are my darling yes cz...everything you've done for me is just great. all the help, all the fun, all the funny faces and stuffs. your companion in msn whenever i am bored and the 'haha hihi' we had. thanks for all darling. you are real great good friend. hoho and also, thanks for the inspiration of shopping. maybe because of you and fishy, i am soo shopaholic now.! thanks for all the hugs and loves, the jokes and EVERYTHING. and and i still dont get why you like to call me pangsai. hehe. pangsai girl. but anyway. just a million thanks to you!

DIONE SEAH YEN TING: dione seah fishy thick eyebrow! thank you also for you darling! honey bunny sweety baby! thanks for all the laughter and silly jokes. being with you,i can laugh until i get stomachache. and you always have great idea how to show attitude to ms jamie. and we will end up laughing so hard. you are a very good friend. thanks also for your act blur response that successfully make me laugh and you tie-your-hair-high-and-retardedly fashion! i really appreciate it! i thought you were very snobbish and arrogant,but i was wrong. you are simply sweet, kind, and great. i cant describe it lah dione. just thank you for everything! muach :)

CHARLENE TEE I MIN: charlene. thank you also to you. you were my first friend in beatty. when nobody cared about my presence, you were the one who came to me and guided me along so that i can adapt to the school faster and better.even after that, you still stay as my good friend. i really can't say much because what you have done for me were so great. thanks for all the kisses-in-th-air and hugs ad smiles you gave me.you are so sweet. and char, i believe you. thanks also for the words of comfort that you told me and praises that you gave. i am really grateful. i cant tell you how much i love you yahh. love love love..

EMILY LIM XIN RONG: em em. thank you for you too. you are great friend of mine. thanks that you went to school with me everyday, listen to my stories that made you 'diaos' alot of time. even though sometimes i angry with you because you were just so impatient and go before i even show up. but anyway thanks for it lah. without you, maybe my morning will be so plain and boring and sleepy. thank lah emily i really really really love you lah. all your complains all your 'walaos',all your 'diaos' make my morning. thank you ah darling. =)))))

ANITA LIE: anita thanks to you too. for the companion in msn. for all the encouraging words and for the jokes. you are real good friends. you always accompany me to midnight even to morning. thanks for th will to read my complains and shares. thanks darling you are great friend since the first time i knew you. thanks for the serious but funny comments and all and all. i feel really honoured to have a friend like you and everyone else.! love love love.

2E3: once an e3 will always be an e3/thanks 2E3 for the fun year and unforgettable incidents. although i joined you only this year, but really, i do enjoy being an e3. thanks e3 lah e3 thanks!!!

choir: haha choir ah choir thanks too yah. thanks for the practices, thanks for the scolding, thanks for the guidance. all practices have made me know more abt singing. thanks yah!

candyman: hey yo,candyman! even though you did nothing for me, just a word thank you for you. thanks for the lesson. you taught me something. you taught me that love isnt that simple. love isnt just something to be made fun of. you taught me not to hope so high. you taught me that reality is just not as beautiful as dream. thanks for all of it. thanks that you have hurt me,so that i will be more stronger. thanks for the 'chicken' you have in you. it tells me that you are not worth to be loved. thanks for the silence and the stares and for giving me a chance to love you, to see you, and to understand that love is not blind. and lastly, you made me understand this sentence. dont love someone that is perfect,but love someone that is imperfect,perfectly.thank you candyman and goodbye!

SOOOOOO i have come to the end of the long story. even if i didnt mention you here, you are still my good great best friend and i love you to bits! haha. (i cant mention you all here. my hand will stop working then!) end here bye !!!

hola people i am back from my enjoyable fun yet tiring trip at Genting Highland-City of Entertainment. i have gone through all the fun and joy plus tiredness too. after all,it was fun! i wanted to post my journey at GH here,but as i am sick now,i am so lazy. yes i am sick.that's why i was absent just now. fever,cough,runny nose,shortness of breath,dizzy,throat infection.everything attacks me at the same time.every breath that i take seems so forceful and everytime i cough my throat and mouth will turn dry and painful. maybe this is the symptoms of i'm-going-to-die-soon people. dont talk about it. btw i miss you guys so much i have been absent from this internet world for practically erm ah 2 weeks. wait i rest first i feel so tired hard to breath.! and i am back. i just puked.shit it tasted so horrible! omg dont think about it.my mom asks me to rest so i guess i will end here today.oh ah and lastly,no more candyman.

OMGoodness by the way i for get to tell you something ah oh uh ih eh!!!!
I SAW GUNAWAN THE I-MARRIED-TWO-TIMES MAN AT TAKASHIMAYA NGEE ANN CITY YTD.HAHA for those who didnt get the chance to see him ahaha kacian deh lu tapi sumpe dia cakepp!

hi everyone today i am going to blog. today was half fun half boring.hehe during the training was like damn sleepy i asked huei min to draw monkey for me,but it looked more like bear than monkey. i went out of the house without telling my guardian HAHA she went around tthe condo and find me. so funny lah.theen actually i wanted to go home but i forgot that i've made an appointment with agnes soo i went to orchard. WHICHEVER WAY YOU LOOK AT ME,I AM HOT. I saw a shirt the sentence so funny haha. omg it was soo fun we went around laughing at everything we saw and i kept on doing funny faces * @-@ * then now i came back soo late alr 8 something now i freaking full causee i ate at es teler then i went home i ate agn coz she kept foods for me so i dont want to hurt her feeling.seeeeeee,im soo nice. oh yeah im going to GENTING HIGHLAND the omg-so-shiok-lah place.hehe so i will be off from tomorrow until wednesday. i am soo going to have fun.yes absolutely!!!!!!!! i will miss you people! SELAMAT HARI RAYA IDUL FITRI.MOHON MAAF LAHIR & BATIN
i need to batheeeeeee